Chapter 177: Ocean – What Do I Do Now?
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Ocean
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"Oh, God. I can't believe I hurt you like that. I'm so sorry, Ocean. I'm so sorry. Please, Ocean, forgive me. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me, Ocean. I'm so sorry. I'm so very sorry."
What was I supposed to do now? How was I supposed to deal with this? I mean, I just found out that some of the worst things that had ever happened to me in my entire life, had actually been my fault.
I didn't mean to bespell Justin. Hell, I didn't even know that it was possible. But now, seeing how things were turning out now, I could tell that it had to be true. Justin's life would be over, his future would be ruined, and he would go to jail for assaulting me. And it was all because I had sung a damn song.
I don't even know what song I sang or when. I don't know if this was happening because of Makai showing up and I sang because I was happy, or was it sometime before then? Had he been feeling like this for years and now that I had been with Makai, a man, he knew I was gay he somehow thought that I actually wanted to be with him this whole time? I didn't really know what his thought process was or how long he had suffered, but I know that somehow, it was all my fault.
" I'm so sorry. Please forgive me, Ocean. I'm so sorry." He wasn't stopping. Justin just kept repeating those words over and over again. It was like all the horrible things that he had said and done were crashing down on him and he couldn't control his emotions at all.
I heard some shouting on the other side of the door, but I wasn't able to concentrate on it enough to figure out what they were saying. I could just tell that someone was trying to get into the room.
"Justin, I know you didn't mean to hurt me. I know that you couldn't stop yourself.
"I couldn't. I don't know why I did it. Please, Ocean, please help me. I don't know what to do. I..I'm just.. I'm just so sorry, Ocean. Please forgive me."
"I forgive you. And I promise I will try to make this all better. But, I'm afraid they're going to arrest you first."
"No. I don't want to go to jail. I don't know what happened. I don't remember why I did it. I remember what I did, Ocean, but I don't know why I did it."
"I know, Justin. I know. I will talk to someone about it soon, and I will fix it."
I felt bad. I needed to make this whole situation go away. I needed to save Justin's life now, as awkward as that might seem. I needed to do what I could to fix all of this.
"Justin, I think you should unlock the door now. There are quite a few people who want to get in here." I thought if he unlocked the door and I was still OK, that would somehow help Justin's case a little bit.
"Yeah." He nodded his head and got to his feet. "Yeah, I need to open the door. The doctors need to come in here. Makai too, I guess. He is going to be mad at me. He is going to beat the shit out of me. I deserve it, though. I deserve to die for what I did to you."
"No, you don't. You were not in your right state of mind, Justin. You didn't mean for this to happen."
"I'm sorry, Ocean. I really am."
After saying that one last time, Justin unlocked the door and all hell broke loose. The door was opened so suddenly, that it nearly caused Justin to fall over.
"Ocean!" Makai came running into the room and saw Justin standing right in front of him. "What did you do to him this time, you son of a bitch. What? He was still alive, so you just needed to take care of that?"
"I'm sorry, Makai. I didn't mean for any of this to happen." Justin's tear streaked face seemed to throw Makai off. He didn't expect to see a remorseful and repentant Justin standing in front of him.
"Ocean, are you alright?" Dr. Malachi came rushing into the room behind Makai, as did two police officers.
"Goddamn you little son of a bitch. You slippery little fucking turd. How the hell did you disappear from that bathroom, huh?" The cops put a pair of handcuffs on Justin and held him firmly.
"I..I don't even remember." Justin looked at the officers that were holding him.
"Yeah, like I am going to believe that. Your health has been confirmed and there is nothing wrong with you. I don't even know why we were forced to bring you here in the first place. This ass hat."
"Hey, isn't that the victim from the school." The other officer saw me sitting on the bed and I hurried to cover myself a little more. I had nearly forgotten that Justin had ripped the hospital gown and exposed my privates when he was on top of me.
When Makai saw what I was doing, there was a red hot flash of anger that filled his eyes. He knew what had happened, or part of it, and if the cops hadn't been here he would have retaliated against Justin right then and there.
"Yeah, it is. You fucking came over here to try and finish him off?" The cop was just as angry.
"No, it wasn't like that." I tried to make things better right now. I needed to stop this from getting any worse for him. "Justin just came to talk to me, to apologize to me."
"Apologies aren't going to save him." The cop snapped back.
"Yeah, but me dropping the charges would." I snapped back at him.
"I think your parents need to answer that one, son. Not you." The cop nearly laughed at me like I was being an idiot. Did he think I was just being a softy because I was gay or something?
"I am eighteen. I can make that decision myself." I glared at the laughing cop. These two that had been put on guard duty seemed to be useless and stupid. I hoped the other cops would be better than this.
"Yeah, true. But are you sure you want to do that?" The non laughing cop asked me with a serious expression on his face. "He nearly killed you, kid. Don't you want him to pay for this?"
"He wasn't himself when he did that." I tried to explain.
"Was he on drugs? If so, we can book him on that."
"NO, he wasn't on drugs." I answered too forcefully.
"Yeah, the doc would have told us if he was on drugs." The cop shrugged.
"I don't want to press charges. I want you to let him go. Please." I spoke insistently and I saw that Makai was looking at me like I was crazy.
"Ocean, baby, are you sure you want to do this?" He came to my side then and took my hand. "He almost killed you. I can't bear to even think what I would do without you."
"I'm sure, Makai. And I promise that I will explain it to you later."
"But-."
"I'm sure, Makai. This is what I want. This is what we need to do."
"Alright. If you say so. Then I won't stop you. But I want to hear it all later."
"And I will tell you. You and Dr. Malachi both." I looked at the doctor who was equally shocked by my choice to drop the charges. "Please, officers, let Justin go."
"Whatever, it's your choice kid." The laughing cop took the cuffs off Justin then. "This is your lucky day, kid. You nearly kill someone, sexually assault them, and you still end up getting off scot-free."
"Th..thank you, Ocean." Justin rubbed his wrists and looked at me with relief in his eyes. "Thank you so much."
"Justin!" Makai called after him. "Don't leave town. I want to talk to you later, got it?"
"Y..yeah, I get it. I will be around."
"Good."
With that, Justin ran out of the room and I was left alone with the cops, Dr. Malachi, and a very angry looking Makai. I knew that they all wanted answers, they all wanted to know why I had decided that Justin could go free. I couldn't tell them that, not all of them. So I needed to wait until the cops left.
They insisted on getting a statement from me about what happened in the room before they all came in. I told them an abridged version that didn't include Justin assaulting me. I told them that he just wanted to talk to me and to apologize to me. Makai could tell that I was lying and I knew that he wanted to know the truth, but he had to wait.
After that was all done and over with, the cops gave me some speech about why I was making the wrong choice and why I should change my mind. I wasn't going to listen to them though, because they didn't know the whole truth.
"Thank you, officers, but I think I will stick with my decision. I won't be changing my mind anytime soon. Just so you know, this is the right decision."
"Yeah, sure it is, kid." The cop that liked to laugh rolled his eyes at me and turned to leave the room. "Don't call us the next time that that guy kicks your ass."
With that, the cops left and I was left alone with Makai and Dr.. Malachi.
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Ocean
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"Oh, God. I can't believe I hurt you like that. I'm so sorry, Ocean. I'm so sorry. Please, Ocean, forgive me. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me, Ocean. I'm so sorry. I'm so very sorry."
What was I supposed to do now? How was I supposed to deal with this? I mean, I just found out that some of the worst things that had ever happened to me in my entire life, had actually been my fault.
I didn't mean to bespell Justin. Hell, I didn't even know that it was possible. But now, seeing how things were turning out now, I could tell that it had to be true. Justin's life would be over, his future would be ruined, and he would go to jail for assaulting me. And it was all because I had sung a damn song.
I don't even know what song I sang or when. I don't know if this was happening because of Makai showing up and I sang because I was happy, or was it sometime before then? Had he been feeling like this for years and now that I had been with Makai, a man, he knew I was gay he somehow thought that I actually wanted to be with him this whole time? I didn't really know what his thought process was or how long he had suffered, but I know that somehow, it was all my fault.
" I'm so sorry. Please forgive me, Ocean. I'm so sorry." He wasn't stopping. Justin just kept repeating those words over and over again. It was like all the horrible things that he had said and done were crashing down on him and he couldn't control his emotions at all.
I heard some shouting on the other side of the door, but I wasn't able to concentrate on it enough to figure out what they were saying. I could just tell that someone was trying to get into the room.
"Justin, I know you didn't mean to hurt me. I know that you couldn't stop yourself.
"I couldn't. I don't know why I did it. Please, Ocean, please help me. I don't know what to do. I..I'm just.. I'm just so sorry, Ocean. Please forgive me."
"I forgive you. And I promise I will try to make this all better. But, I'm afraid they're going to arrest you first."
"No. I don't want to go to jail. I don't know what happened. I don't remember why I did it. I remember what I did, Ocean, but I don't know why I did it."
"I know, Justin. I know. I will talk to someone about it soon, and I will fix it."
I felt bad. I needed to make this whole situation go away. I needed to save Justin's life now, as awkward as that might seem. I needed to do what I could to fix all of this.
"Justin, I think you should unlock the door now. There are quite a few people who want to get in here." I thought if he unlocked the door and I was still OK, that would somehow help Justin's case a little bit.
"Yeah." He nodded his head and got to his feet. "Yeah, I need to open the door. The doctors need to come in here. Makai too, I guess. He is going to be mad at me. He is going to beat the shit out of me. I deserve it, though. I deserve to die for what I did to you."
"No, you don't. You were not in your right state of mind, Justin. You didn't mean for this to happen."
"I'm sorry, Ocean. I really am."
After saying that one last time, Justin unlocked the door and all hell broke loose. The door was opened so suddenly, that it nearly caused Justin to fall over.
"Ocean!" Makai came running into the room and saw Justin standing right in front of him. "What did you do to him this time, you son of a bitch. What? He was still alive, so you just needed to take care of that?"
"I'm sorry, Makai. I didn't mean for any of this to happen." Justin's tear streaked face seemed to throw Makai off. He didn't expect to see a remorseful and repentant Justin standing in front of him.
"Ocean, are you alright?" Dr. Malachi came rushing into the room behind Makai, as did two police officers.
"Goddamn you little son of a bitch. You slippery little fucking turd. How the hell did you disappear from that bathroom, huh?" The cops put a pair of handcuffs on Justin and held him firmly.
"I..I don't even remember." Justin looked at the officers that were holding him.
"Yeah, like I am going to believe that. Your health has been confirmed and there is nothing wrong with you. I don't even know why we were forced to bring you here in the first place. This ass hat."
"Hey, isn't that the victim from the school." The other officer saw me sitting on the bed and I hurried to cover myself a little more. I had nearly forgotten that Justin had ripped the hospital gown and exposed my privates when he was on top of me.
When Makai saw what I was doing, there was a red hot flash of anger that filled his eyes. He knew what had happened, or part of it, and if the cops hadn't been here he would have retaliated against Justin right then and there.
"Yeah, it is. You fucking came over here to try and finish him off?" The cop was just as angry.
"No, it wasn't like that." I tried to make things better right now. I needed to stop this from getting any worse for him. "Justin just came to talk to me, to apologize to me."
"Apologies aren't going to save him." The cop snapped back.
"Yeah, but me dropping the charges would." I snapped back at him.
"I think your parents need to answer that one, son. Not you." The cop nearly laughed at me like I was being an idiot. Did he think I was just being a softy because I was gay or something?
"I am eighteen. I can make that decision myself." I glared at the laughing cop. These two that had been put on guard duty seemed to be useless and stupid. I hoped the other cops would be better than this.
"Yeah, true. But are you sure you want to do that?" The non laughing cop asked me with a serious expression on his face. "He nearly killed you, kid. Don't you want him to pay for this?"
"He wasn't himself when he did that." I tried to explain.
"Was he on drugs? If so, we can book him on that."
"NO, he wasn't on drugs." I answered too forcefully.
"Yeah, the doc would have told us if he was on drugs." The cop shrugged.
"I don't want to press charges. I want you to let him go. Please." I spoke insistently and I saw that Makai was looking at me like I was crazy.
"Ocean, baby, are you sure you want to do this?" He came to my side then and took my hand. "He almost killed you. I can't bear to even think what I would do without you."
"I'm sure, Makai. And I promise that I will explain it to you later."
"But-."
"I'm sure, Makai. This is what I want. This is what we need to do."
"Alright. If you say so. Then I won't stop you. But I want to hear it all later."
"And I will tell you. You and Dr. Malachi both." I looked at the doctor who was equally shocked by my choice to drop the charges. "Please, officers, let Justin go."
"Whatever, it's your choice kid." The laughing cop took the cuffs off Justin then. "This is your lucky day, kid. You nearly kill someone, sexually assault them, and you still end up getting off scot-free."
"Th..thank you, Ocean." Justin rubbed his wrists and looked at me with relief in his eyes. "Thank you so much."
"Justin!" Makai called after him. "Don't leave town. I want to talk to you later, got it?"
"Y..yeah, I get it. I will be around."
"Good."
With that, Justin ran out of the room and I was left alone with the cops, Dr. Malachi, and a very angry looking Makai. I knew that they all wanted answers, they all wanted to know why I had decided that Justin could go free. I couldn't tell them that, not all of them. So I needed to wait until the cops left.
They insisted on getting a statement from me about what happened in the room before they all came in. I told them an abridged version that didn't include Justin assaulting me. I told them that he just wanted to talk to me and to apologize to me. Makai could tell that I was lying and I knew that he wanted to know the truth, but he had to wait.
After that was all done and over with, the cops gave me some speech about why I was making the wrong choice and why I should change my mind. I wasn't going to listen to them though, because they didn't know the whole truth.
"Thank you, officers, but I think I will stick with my decision. I won't be changing my mind anytime soon. Just so you know, this is the right decision."
"Yeah, sure it is, kid." The cop that liked to laugh rolled his eyes at me and turned to leave the room. "Don't call us the next time that that guy kicks your ass."
With that, the cops left and I was left alone with Makai and Dr.. Malachi.
~~Ocean~~"Oh, God. I can't believe I hurt you like that. I'm so sorry, Ocean. I'm so sorry. Please, Ocean, forgive me. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me, Ocean. I'm so sorry. I'm so very sorry."What was I supposed to do now? How was I supposed to deal with this? I mean, I just found out that some of the worst things that had ever happened to me in my entire life, had actually been my fault.I didn't mean to bespell Justin. Hell, I didn't even know that it was possible. But now, seeing how things were turning out now, I could tell that it had to be true. Justin's life would be over, his future would be ruined, and he would go to jail for assaulting me. And it was all because I had sung a damn song.I don't even know what song I sang or when. I don't know if this was happening because of Makai showing up and I sang because I was happy, or was it sometime before then? Had he been feeling like this for years and now that I had been with Makai, a man, he knew I was gay he somehow thought that I actually wanted to be with him this whole time? I didn't really know what his thought process was or how long he had suffered, but I know that somehow, it was all my fault." I'm so sorry. Please forgive me, Ocean. I'm so sorry." He wasn't stopping. Justin just kept repeating those words over and over again. It was like all the horrible things that he had said and done were crashing down on him and he couldn't control his emotions at all.I heard some shouting on the other side of the door, but I wasn't able to concentrate on it enough to figure out what they were saying. I could just tell that someone was trying to get into the room."Justin, I know you didn't mean to hurt me. I know that you couldn't stop yourself."I couldn't. I don't know why I did it. Please, Ocean, please help me. I don't know what to do. I..I'm just.. I'm just so sorry, Ocean. Please forgive me.""I forgive you. And I promise I will try to make this all better. But, I'm afraid they're going to arrest you first.""No. I don't want to go to jail. I don't know what happened. I don't remember why I did it. I remember what I did, Ocean, but I don't know why I did it.""I know, Justin. I know. I will talk to someone about it soon, and I will fix it."I felt bad. I needed to make this whole situation go away. I needed to save Justin's life now, as awkward as that might seem. I needed to do what I could to fix all of this."Justin, I think you should unlock the door now. There are quite a few people who want to get in here." I thought if he unlocked the door and I was still OK, that would somehow help Justin's case a little bit."Yeah." He nodded his head and got to his feet. "Yeah, I need to open the door. The doctors need to come in here. Makai too, I guess. He is going to be mad at me. He is going to beat the shit out of me. I deserve it, though. I deserve to die for what I did to you.""No, you don't. You were not in your right state of mind, Justin. You didn't mean for this to happen.""I'm sorry, Ocean. I really am."After saying that one last time, Justin unlocked the door and all hell broke loose. The door was opened so suddenly, that it nearly caused Justin to fall over."Ocean!" Makai came running into the room and saw Justin standing right in front of him. "What did you do to him this time, you son of a bitch. What? He was still alive, so you just needed to take care of that?""I'm sorry, Makai. I didn't mean for any of this to happen." Justin's tear streaked face seemed to throw Makai off. He didn't expect to see a remorseful and repentant Justin standing in front of him."Ocean, are you alright?" Dr. Malachi came rushing into the room behind Makai, as did two police officers."Goddamn you little son of a bitch. You slippery little fucking turd. How the hell did you disappear from that bathroom, huh?" The cops put a pair of handcuffs on Justin and held him firmly. "I..I don't even remember." Justin looked at the officers that were holding him."Yeah, like I am going to believe that. Your health has been confirmed and there is nothing wrong with you. I don't even know why we were forced to bring you here in the first place. This ass hat.""Hey, isn't that the victim from the school." The other officer saw me sitting on the bed and I hurried to cover myself a little more. I had nearly forgotten that Justin had ripped the hospital gown and exposed my privates when he was on top of me.When Makai saw what I was doing, there was a red hot flash of anger that filled his eyes. He knew what had happened, or part of it, and if the cops hadn't been here he would have retaliated against Justin right then and there."Yeah, it is. You fucking came over here to try and finish him off?" The cop was just as angry."No, it wasn't like that." I tried to make things better right now. I needed to stop this from getting any worse for him. "Justin just came to talk to me, to apologize to me.""Apologies aren't going to save him." The cop snapped back."Yeah, but me dropping the charges would." I snapped back at him."I think your parents need to answer that one, son. Not you." The cop nearly laughed at me like I was being an idiot. Did he think I was just being a softy because I was gay or something?"I am eighteen. I can make that decision myself." I glared at the laughing cop. These two that had been put on guard duty seemed to be useless and stupid. I hoped the other cops would be better than this."Yeah, true. But are you sure you want to do that?" The non laughing cop asked me with a serious expression on his face. "He nearly killed you, kid. Don't you want him to pay for this?""He wasn't himself when he did that." I tried to explain."Was he on drugs? If so, we can book him on that." "NO, he wasn't on drugs." I answered too forcefully."Yeah, the doc would have told us if he was on drugs." The cop shrugged."I don't want to press charges. I want you to let him go. Please." I spoke insistently and I saw that Makai was looking at me like I was crazy."Ocean, baby, are you sure you want to do this?" He came to my side then and took my hand. "He almost killed you. I can't bear to even think what I would do without you.""I'm sure, Makai. And I promise that I will explain it to you later.""But-.""I'm sure, Makai. This is what I want. This is what we need to do.""Alright. If you say so. Then I won't stop you. But I want to hear it all later.""And I will tell you. You and Dr. Malachi both." I looked at the doctor who was equally shocked by my choice to drop the charges. "Please, officers, let Justin go.""Whatever, it's your choice kid." The laughing cop took the cuffs off Justin then. "This is your lucky day, kid. You nearly kill someone, sexually assault them, and you still end up getting off scot-free.""Th..thank you, Ocean." Justin rubbed his wrists and looked at me with relief in his eyes. "Thank you so much.""Justin!" Makai called after him. "Don't leave town. I want to talk to you later, got it?""Y..yeah, I get it. I will be around." "Good."With that, Justin ran out of the room and I was left alone with the cops, Dr. Malachi, and a very angry looking Makai. I knew that they all wanted answers, they all wanted to know why I had decided that Justin could go free. I couldn't tell them that, not all of them. So I needed to wait until the cops left.They insisted on getting a statement from me about what happened in the room before they all came in. I told them an abridged version that didn't include Justin assaulting me. I told them that he just wanted to talk to me and to apologize to me. Makai could tell that I was lying and I knew that he wanted to know the truth, but he had to wait.After that was all done and over with, the cops gave me some speech about why I was making the wrong choice and why I should change my mind. I wasn't going to listen to them though, because they didn't know the whole truth."Thank you, officers, but I think I will stick with my decision. I won't be changing my mind anytime soon. Just so you know, this is the right decision.""Yeah, sure it is, kid." The cop that liked to laugh rolled his eyes at me and turned to leave the room. "Don't call us the next time that that guy kicks your ass."With that, the cops left and I was left alone with Makai and Dr.. Malachi.
