Chapter 61: Makai - Is This A Confession?
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Makai
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I couldn't believe it when Ocean suddenly got mad at me and told me to leave. He was so angry, for whatever reason, that he just opened the door and didn't stick around to watch me leave. He just hurried up the stairs as if someone or something was after him. I guess someone was, though, since I pushed his door shut and immediately followed him.
Normally, I would have been ecstatic right now. I was in Ocean's house. I was following him up the stairs to his bedroom. I was learning so much about him and where he lived. But I couldn't enjoy it at all. I couldn't enjoy the fact that I would be able to pinpoint which window was his based on the room he walked into, and I definitely couldn't appreciate the sight of his ass as he climbed the stairs ahead of me. Dammit, Ocean, you're ruining this for me.
When he finally made it to his room and stormed in, he tried to slam the door, hard. I felt a slight twinge of pain in my elbow as I caught the door and forced my way in behind him. I needed to talk to him, and it couldn't wait.
"Ocean?!" I yelled his name as he turned around, startled that I was there. "What the hell?!"
"You're just messing with me. I know you are." There was genuine pain in his voice and I didn't know why.
"Didn't we go over this last night?" I was so confused right now. "Didn't I tell you what I felt last night?" I thought I had. I remembered telling him in very precise words that I wanted him. Why was he still doubting me?
"Yeah, but then you were too embarrassed to even mention last night. It was like you were ashamed of it." He had been looking down for the time being, but he suddenly raised his head and glared at me like I had just made fun of him.
I tried hard to process what he had just told me. He thought I was playing with him? How in the hell did he think that? Did he not feel the heat and passion I had for him when I pressed my lips to his? Those lips that were driving me crazy even now.
"How do you feel about me, Ocean?" I had to know, and for some reason his eyes went as wide as the moon when I asked him that. It was like he didn't want to answer it but was for some reason compelled to.
"I..I don't know." He whispered toward the floor, too embarrassed to keep looking at me. "But, I..I don't hate you." He slowly lifted his head again and looked me steadily in the eyes. "I..I think I..I m..m..might-." He was stuttering again. That was actually a good sign, it meant he wasn't as angry right now. He was more nervous when he stuttered, and if he was nervous it meant that I had a chance here.
"You what, Ocean? I need to hear it. Please. Tell me what you think about me. Tell me how you feel about me. Please." I begged him, putting as much of my heart into the words as I could. I let him know with the tone of my voice, and the look in my eyes that I wasn't going until he told me what I needed to know.
Ocean looked like he was trying to steady his nerves as he took a deep breath, but the way that it shook as he exhaled told me just how scared he was right now. I wish I had handled this differently, this was all my fault. If I hadn't flirted back with that asshole last night he might not doubt me so much right now. Dammit, I needed him to understand.
"Please, Ocean, tell me how you feel about me." I asked him again, my own voice shaking slightly.
"I..I think I..I m..m..might l..l..l-." He was stuttering again, but that was all I could handle at the moment. I couldn't control what I did next. He had been about to say something that started with an L, and since he said he didn't hate me that only left a few different options. Like, love, lust, it didn't matter, right now I would take any of them.
With a gasp from the both of us I rushed forward. My gasp had come when I heard the words and the sounds that he had been uttering. Ocean's gasp came when I rushed at him and pressed him to his bed.
Ocean had been standing when I moved toward him, but I tackled him to the mattress and pressed down on him firmly. I felt him tense up immediately as I pressed my lips against his and kissed him with everything that I had.
This was a hungry kiss, filled with passion and need that couldn't have been sated with anyone but him. I tangled my tongue with his as I devoured all of him that I could. But nothing I could do in that moment was going to be enough for me. I needed more.
I needed more of him. To touch more, feel more, to see more. Just more.
I also noticed that Ocean wasn't just laying underneath me like someone who was scared. He wasn't just letting me kiss him. No, he had started to kiss me back, and I couldn't have been happier. I needed him to know that what I felt was real, and that it was mutual.
Ocean was gripping my shirt tightly in his fists as he held me against him. His hold was so firm that I would have needed to rip my shirt to break his grip, if I wanted to get away. Who said that I wanted to get away, though? I wanted to get closer and touch more of him.
With hands that burned and ached with need, I pulled back just a little, just enough to break the kiss and create a little bit of room between us. I used that space to grab my shirt and pull it over my head.
What I saw in Ocean's eyes made my body tighten so hard that I nearly screamed. The lust and desire in them was unlike anything that I was expecting. If only I could get him to not run away anymore this would all be perfect.
Moving past that, it was like Ocean was set on fire when he saw me pull my shirt off. He looked at my chest like it was a dessert that he had wanted for a long time. He just didn't know that I felt that same way about him. He enticed me just by being in the same room with me. Dammit, I needed this right now.
With a low, almost growling hum of pleasure I descended toward him. I didn't meet his mouth though. This time I started to kiss him on his neck, jaw, and shoulder area. My mouth was moving all over as it tried to devour him sloppily.
While I was devouring the taste and scent of him, Ocean was running his hands all over my back and chest. He was digging his fingers into my flesh, scraping slightly with the neat little nails that he had there. I moaned softly when I felt him digging his fingers in for more of me.
Ocean's hands moved lower while I kissed, licked, and nipped away at him. His hands reached down so that both of them cupped my ass. It was exhilarating to feel him holding me right now, gripping me the way that he was.
I wanted to move onto another area though, and I couldn't. Ocean's shirt was in the way. I needed to move it to get to his chest. I didn't want to break our connection though. I wanted to keep us pressed together for as long as possible. I needed to feel that connection with him and make sure that he felt it too.
If I couldn't pull his shirt off of him then I had no other choice. I gripped the soft cotton t-shirt around the neck with both hands and pulled hard. Instantly the shirt ripped and opened until halfway down his chest. I could have finished it, but that was enough to start with.
I tore my mouth from his neck and traced the muscles down until I reached the swell of his pecs. My tongue swirled around his nipple for just a second before I sucked it into my mouth and bit down gently.
"Ahh!" He cried out, his back arching as his head pushed against the mattress. The move brought his chest even closer to me and pressed him into my mouth.
"Hmm." I hummed around the flesh that I was holding in my mouth, it tasted so good, like fresh pineapples covered in coconut shavings. It was like I could taste every part of his scent three times stronger than ever before. I couldn't stop myself from trying to taste more of him. I bit down just a little more to hold him still inside my mouth as my hands moved down his body and to the waistband of his shorts.
I needed him. I wanted him. I had to have him.
But I knew it wasn't the right time.
I was fighting with myself here, and it was so hard. It was incredibly hard to stop what it was that I wanted to have happen right now. But I knew that I had to stop.
Just as my fingers gripped his shorts, ready to rip them away, I stopped myself. It didn't matter though, because that brought Ocean to his senses too. He had come out of the stupor that our passion had put him in. I guess I had as well, since I had stopped myself.
"Stop!" Ocean yelled at me as I pulled back, already moving my hands away from his swollen groin.
"I know." I was panting, trying to stop the swimming in my head. "I was stopping. I'm sorry. I know that no matter what just happened, that was too soon. Far too soon."
I shook my head, causing more of the fog to dissipate as I turned to look at the guy that was still laying on the bed. His shirt was ripped and exposed his chest. My shirt was just there, laying above his head near the window, where I had thrown it in my haste.
I saw that Ocean's cheeks were pink, I didn't know if that was caused by embarrassment from what happened, or if it was caused from the intensity of what we had just done. There was a difference, technically. One he might regret, the other he might lust after until he agreed to be mine.
"Ocean?" I said his name, not looking away at all so he wouldn't think that I was embarrassed by what had just happened. "I may have almost gone too far just now, but I stopped myself. Not because I didn't want to; God that couldn't be further from the truth. I want you Ocean, so bad, but I want you to want me as well. Not just in the heat of the moment, but all the time. I want you to want me when I'm not here. I want you to want me when you're supposed to be serious and just can't. I want to be the only person that you think about ever having sex with. I want to be the only person on your mind day and night. I want you, Ocean, because I really, really like you."
"I..I think I could tell that." He eyed the bulge that was still throbbing between my thighs. "I..I don't know what to d..d..do here." He looked me in the eyes again, apprehension in his eyes, but no fear was filling their hypnotic depths. "I..i..it's just th..that, I..I..I think that I..I..I-." He paused for a moment and took a deep breath, settling his nerves. "I..I think I like you t..t..too."
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Makai
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I couldn't believe it when Ocean suddenly got mad at me and told me to leave. He was so angry, for whatever reason, that he just opened the door and didn't stick around to watch me leave. He just hurried up the stairs as if someone or something was after him. I guess someone was, though, since I pushed his door shut and immediately followed him.
Normally, I would have been ecstatic right now. I was in Ocean's house. I was following him up the stairs to his bedroom. I was learning so much about him and where he lived. But I couldn't enjoy it at all. I couldn't enjoy the fact that I would be able to pinpoint which window was his based on the room he walked into, and I definitely couldn't appreciate the sight of his ass as he climbed the stairs ahead of me. Dammit, Ocean, you're ruining this for me.
When he finally made it to his room and stormed in, he tried to slam the door, hard. I felt a slight twinge of pain in my elbow as I caught the door and forced my way in behind him. I needed to talk to him, and it couldn't wait.
"Ocean?!" I yelled his name as he turned around, startled that I was there. "What the hell?!"
"You're just messing with me. I know you are." There was genuine pain in his voice and I didn't know why.
"Didn't we go over this last night?" I was so confused right now. "Didn't I tell you what I felt last night?" I thought I had. I remembered telling him in very precise words that I wanted him. Why was he still doubting me?
"Yeah, but then you were too embarrassed to even mention last night. It was like you were ashamed of it." He had been looking down for the time being, but he suddenly raised his head and glared at me like I had just made fun of him.
I tried hard to process what he had just told me. He thought I was playing with him? How in the hell did he think that? Did he not feel the heat and passion I had for him when I pressed my lips to his? Those lips that were driving me crazy even now.
"How do you feel about me, Ocean?" I had to know, and for some reason his eyes went as wide as the moon when I asked him that. It was like he didn't want to answer it but was for some reason compelled to.
"I..I don't know." He whispered toward the floor, too embarrassed to keep looking at me. "But, I..I don't hate you." He slowly lifted his head again and looked me steadily in the eyes. "I..I think I..I m..m..might-." He was stuttering again. That was actually a good sign, it meant he wasn't as angry right now. He was more nervous when he stuttered, and if he was nervous it meant that I had a chance here.
"You what, Ocean? I need to hear it. Please. Tell me what you think about me. Tell me how you feel about me. Please." I begged him, putting as much of my heart into the words as I could. I let him know with the tone of my voice, and the look in my eyes that I wasn't going until he told me what I needed to know.
Ocean looked like he was trying to steady his nerves as he took a deep breath, but the way that it shook as he exhaled told me just how scared he was right now. I wish I had handled this differently, this was all my fault. If I hadn't flirted back with that asshole last night he might not doubt me so much right now. Dammit, I needed him to understand.
"Please, Ocean, tell me how you feel about me." I asked him again, my own voice shaking slightly.
"I..I think I..I m..m..might l..l..l-." He was stuttering again, but that was all I could handle at the moment. I couldn't control what I did next. He had been about to say something that started with an L, and since he said he didn't hate me that only left a few different options. Like, love, lust, it didn't matter, right now I would take any of them.
With a gasp from the both of us I rushed forward. My gasp had come when I heard the words and the sounds that he had been uttering. Ocean's gasp came when I rushed at him and pressed him to his bed.
Ocean had been standing when I moved toward him, but I tackled him to the mattress and pressed down on him firmly. I felt him tense up immediately as I pressed my lips against his and kissed him with everything that I had.
This was a hungry kiss, filled with passion and need that couldn't have been sated with anyone but him. I tangled my tongue with his as I devoured all of him that I could. But nothing I could do in that moment was going to be enough for me. I needed more.
I needed more of him. To touch more, feel more, to see more. Just more.
I also noticed that Ocean wasn't just laying underneath me like someone who was scared. He wasn't just letting me kiss him. No, he had started to kiss me back, and I couldn't have been happier. I needed him to know that what I felt was real, and that it was mutual.
Ocean was gripping my shirt tightly in his fists as he held me against him. His hold was so firm that I would have needed to rip my shirt to break his grip, if I wanted to get away. Who said that I wanted to get away, though? I wanted to get closer and touch more of him.
With hands that burned and ached with need, I pulled back just a little, just enough to break the kiss and create a little bit of room between us. I used that space to grab my shirt and pull it over my head.
What I saw in Ocean's eyes made my body tighten so hard that I nearly screamed. The lust and desire in them was unlike anything that I was expecting. If only I could get him to not run away anymore this would all be perfect.
Moving past that, it was like Ocean was set on fire when he saw me pull my shirt off. He looked at my chest like it was a dessert that he had wanted for a long time. He just didn't know that I felt that same way about him. He enticed me just by being in the same room with me. Dammit, I needed this right now.
With a low, almost growling hum of pleasure I descended toward him. I didn't meet his mouth though. This time I started to kiss him on his neck, jaw, and shoulder area. My mouth was moving all over as it tried to devour him sloppily.
While I was devouring the taste and scent of him, Ocean was running his hands all over my back and chest. He was digging his fingers into my flesh, scraping slightly with the neat little nails that he had there. I moaned softly when I felt him digging his fingers in for more of me.
Ocean's hands moved lower while I kissed, licked, and nipped away at him. His hands reached down so that both of them cupped my ass. It was exhilarating to feel him holding me right now, gripping me the way that he was.
I wanted to move onto another area though, and I couldn't. Ocean's shirt was in the way. I needed to move it to get to his chest. I didn't want to break our connection though. I wanted to keep us pressed together for as long as possible. I needed to feel that connection with him and make sure that he felt it too.
If I couldn't pull his shirt off of him then I had no other choice. I gripped the soft cotton t-shirt around the neck with both hands and pulled hard. Instantly the shirt ripped and opened until halfway down his chest. I could have finished it, but that was enough to start with.
I tore my mouth from his neck and traced the muscles down until I reached the swell of his pecs. My tongue swirled around his nipple for just a second before I sucked it into my mouth and bit down gently.
"Ahh!" He cried out, his back arching as his head pushed against the mattress. The move brought his chest even closer to me and pressed him into my mouth.
"Hmm." I hummed around the flesh that I was holding in my mouth, it tasted so good, like fresh pineapples covered in coconut shavings. It was like I could taste every part of his scent three times stronger than ever before. I couldn't stop myself from trying to taste more of him. I bit down just a little more to hold him still inside my mouth as my hands moved down his body and to the waistband of his shorts.
I needed him. I wanted him. I had to have him.
But I knew it wasn't the right time.
I was fighting with myself here, and it was so hard. It was incredibly hard to stop what it was that I wanted to have happen right now. But I knew that I had to stop.
Just as my fingers gripped his shorts, ready to rip them away, I stopped myself. It didn't matter though, because that brought Ocean to his senses too. He had come out of the stupor that our passion had put him in. I guess I had as well, since I had stopped myself.
"Stop!" Ocean yelled at me as I pulled back, already moving my hands away from his swollen groin.
"I know." I was panting, trying to stop the swimming in my head. "I was stopping. I'm sorry. I know that no matter what just happened, that was too soon. Far too soon."
I shook my head, causing more of the fog to dissipate as I turned to look at the guy that was still laying on the bed. His shirt was ripped and exposed his chest. My shirt was just there, laying above his head near the window, where I had thrown it in my haste.
I saw that Ocean's cheeks were pink, I didn't know if that was caused by embarrassment from what happened, or if it was caused from the intensity of what we had just done. There was a difference, technically. One he might regret, the other he might lust after until he agreed to be mine.
"Ocean?" I said his name, not looking away at all so he wouldn't think that I was embarrassed by what had just happened. "I may have almost gone too far just now, but I stopped myself. Not because I didn't want to; God that couldn't be further from the truth. I want you Ocean, so bad, but I want you to want me as well. Not just in the heat of the moment, but all the time. I want you to want me when I'm not here. I want you to want me when you're supposed to be serious and just can't. I want to be the only person that you think about ever having sex with. I want to be the only person on your mind day and night. I want you, Ocean, because I really, really like you."
"I..I think I could tell that." He eyed the bulge that was still throbbing between my thighs. "I..I don't know what to d..d..do here." He looked me in the eyes again, apprehension in his eyes, but no fear was filling their hypnotic depths. "I..i..it's just th..that, I..I..I think that I..I..I-." He paused for a moment and took a deep breath, settling his nerves. "I..I think I like you t..t..too."
~~Makai~~I couldn't believe it when Ocean suddenly got mad at me and told me to leave. He was so angry, for whatever reason, that he just opened the door and didn't stick around to watch me leave. He just hurried up the stairs as if someone or something was after him. I guess someone was, though, since I pushed his door shut and immediately followed him.Normally, I would have been ecstatic right now. I was in Ocean's house. I was following him up the stairs to his bedroom. I was learning so much about him and where he lived. But I couldn't enjoy it at all. I couldn't enjoy the fact that I would be able to pinpoint which window was his based on the room he walked into, and I definitely couldn't appreciate the sight of his ass as he climbed the stairs ahead of me. Dammit, Ocean, you're ruining this for me.When he finally made it to his room and stormed in, he tried to slam the door, hard. I felt a slight twinge of pain in my elbow as I caught the door and forced my way in behind him. I needed to talk to him, and it couldn't wait."Ocean?!" I yelled his name as he turned around, startled that I was there. "What the hell?!""You're just messing with me. I know you are." There was genuine pain in his voice and I didn't know why."Didn't we go over this last night?" I was so confused right now. "Didn't I tell you what I felt last night?" I thought I had. I remembered telling him in very precise words that I wanted him. Why was he still doubting me?"Yeah, but then you were too embarrassed to even mention last night. It was like you were ashamed of it." He had been looking down for the time being, but he suddenly raised his head and glared at me like I had just made fun of him.I tried hard to process what he had just told me. He thought I was playing with him? How in the hell did he think that? Did he not feel the heat and passion I had for him when I pressed my lips to his? Those lips that were driving me crazy even now."How do you feel about me, Ocean?" I had to know, and for some reason his eyes went as wide as the moon when I asked him that. It was like he didn't want to answer it but was for some reason compelled to."I..I don't know." He whispered toward the floor, too embarrassed to keep looking at me. "But, I..I don't hate you." He slowly lifted his head again and looked me steadily in the eyes. "I..I think I..I m..m..might-." He was stuttering again. That was actually a good sign, it meant he wasn't as angry right now. He was more nervous when he stuttered, and if he was nervous it meant that I had a chance here."You what, Ocean? I need to hear it. Please. Tell me what you think about me. Tell me how you feel about me. Please." I begged him, putting as much of my heart into the words as I could. I let him know with the tone of my voice, and the look in my eyes that I wasn't going until he told me what I needed to know.Ocean looked like he was trying to steady his nerves as he took a deep breath, but the way that it shook as he exhaled told me just how scared he was right now. I wish I had handled this differently, this was all my fault. If I hadn't flirted back with that asshole last night he might not doubt me so much right now. Dammit, I needed him to understand."Please, Ocean, tell me how you feel about me." I asked him again, my own voice shaking slightly."I..I think I..I m..m..might l..l..l-." He was stuttering again, but that was all I could handle at the moment. I couldn't control what I did next. He had been about to say something that started with an L, and since he said he didn't hate me that only left a few different options. Like, love, lust, it didn't matter, right now I would take any of them.With a gasp from the both of us I rushed forward. My gasp had come when I heard the words and the sounds that he had been uttering. Ocean's gasp came when I rushed at him and pressed him to his bed.Ocean had been standing when I moved toward him, but I tackled him to the mattress and pressed down on him firmly. I felt him tense up immediately as I pressed my lips against his and kissed him with everything that I had.This was a hungry kiss, filled with passion and need that couldn't have been sated with anyone but him. I tangled my tongue with his as I devoured all of him that I could. But nothing I could do in that moment was going to be enough for me. I needed more.I needed more of him. To touch more, feel more, to see more. Just more.I also noticed that Ocean wasn't just laying underneath me like someone who was scared. He wasn't just letting me kiss him. No, he had started to kiss me back, and I couldn't have been happier. I needed him to know that what I felt was real, and that it was mutual.Ocean was gripping my shirt tightly in his fists as he held me against him. His hold was so firm that I would have needed to rip my shirt to break his grip, if I wanted to get away. Who said that I wanted to get away, though? I wanted to get closer and touch more of him.With hands that burned and ached with need, I pulled back just a little, just enough to break the kiss and create a little bit of room between us. I used that space to grab my shirt and pull it over my head.What I saw in Ocean's eyes made my body tighten so hard that I nearly screamed. The lust and desire in them was unlike anything that I was expecting. If only I could get him to not run away anymore this would all be perfect.Moving past that, it was like Ocean was set on fire when he saw me pull my shirt off. He looked at my chest like it was a dessert that he had wanted for a long time. He just didn't know that I felt that same way about him. He enticed me just by being in the same room with me. Dammit, I needed this right now.With a low, almost growling hum of pleasure I descended toward him. I didn't meet his mouth though. This time I started to kiss him on his neck, jaw, and shoulder area. My mouth was moving all over as it tried to devour him sloppily.While I was devouring the taste and scent of him, Ocean was running his hands all over my back and chest. He was digging his fingers into my flesh, scraping slightly with the neat little nails that he had there. I moaned softly when I felt him digging his fingers in for more of me.Ocean's hands moved lower while I kissed, licked, and nipped away at him. His hands reached down so that both of them cupped my ass. It was exhilarating to feel him holding me right now, gripping me the way that he was.I wanted to move onto another area though, and I couldn't. Ocean's shirt was in the way. I needed to move it to get to his chest. I didn't want to break our connection though. I wanted to keep us pressed together for as long as possible. I needed to feel that connection with him and make sure that he felt it too.If I couldn't pull his shirt off of him then I had no other choice. I gripped the soft cotton t-shirt around the neck with both hands and pulled hard. Instantly the shirt ripped and opened until halfway down his chest. I could have finished it, but that was enough to start with.I tore my mouth from his neck and traced the muscles down until I reached the swell of his pecs. My tongue swirled around his nipple for just a second before I sucked it into my mouth and bit down gently."Ahh!" He cried out, his back arching as his head pushed against the mattress. The move brought his chest even closer to me and pressed him into my mouth."Hmm." I hummed around the flesh that I was holding in my mouth, it tasted so good, like fresh pineapples covered in coconut shavings. It was like I could taste every part of his scent three times stronger than ever before. I couldn't stop myself from trying to taste more of him. I bit down just a little more to hold him still inside my mouth as my hands moved down his body and to the waistband of his shorts.I needed him. I wanted him. I had to have him.But I knew it wasn't the right time.I was fighting with myself here, and it was so hard. It was incredibly hard to stop what it was that I wanted to have happen right now. But I knew that I had to stop.Just as my fingers gripped his shorts, ready to rip them away, I stopped myself. It didn't matter though, because that brought Ocean to his senses too. He had come out of the stupor that our passion had put him in. I guess I had as well, since I had stopped myself."Stop!" Ocean yelled at me as I pulled back, already moving my hands away from his swollen groin."I know." I was panting, trying to stop the swimming in my head. "I was stopping. I'm sorry. I know that no matter what just happened, that was too soon. Far too soon." I shook my head, causing more of the fog to dissipate as I turned to look at the guy that was still laying on the bed. His shirt was ripped and exposed his chest. My shirt was just there, laying above his head near the window, where I had thrown it in my haste.I saw that Ocean's cheeks were pink, I didn't know if that was caused by embarrassment from what happened, or if it was caused from the intensity of what we had just done. There was a difference, technically. One he might regret, the other he might lust after until he agreed to be mine."Ocean?" I said his name, not looking away at all so he wouldn't think that I was embarrassed by what had just happened. "I may have almost gone too far just now, but I stopped myself. Not because I didn't want to; God that couldn't be further from the truth. I want you Ocean, so bad, but I want you to want me as well. Not just in the heat of the moment, but all the time. I want you to want me when I'm not here. I want you to want me when you're supposed to be serious and just can't. I want to be the only person that you think about ever having sex with. I want to be the only person on your mind day and night. I want you, Ocean, because I really, really like you.""I..I think I could tell that." He eyed the bulge that was still throbbing between my thighs. "I..I don't know what to d..d..do here." He looked me in the eyes again, apprehension in his eyes, but no fear was filling their hypnotic depths. "I..i..it's just th..that, I..I..I think that I..I..I-." He paused for a moment and took a deep breath, settling his nerves. "I..I think I like you t..t..too."
