Chapter 8
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It's very quiet. The light is muted. I am comfortable and warm, in this bed. Hmm … I open my eyes, and for a moment I'm tranquil and serene, enjoying the strange, unfamiliar surroundings. I have no idea where I am. The headboard behind me is in the shape of a massive sun. It's oddly familiar. The room is large and airy and plushly furnished in browns and golds and beiges. I have seen it before. Where? My befuddled brain struggles through its recent visual memories. Holy crap. I'm in the Heathman Hotel … in a suite. I have stood in a room similar to this with Kate. This looks bigger. Oh, shit. I'm in Christian Grey's suite. How did I get here?
Fractured memories of the previous night come slowly back to haunt me. The drinking—oh no, the drinking—the phone call—oh no, the phone call—the vomiting—oh no, the vomiting. José and then Christian. Oh no. I cringe inwardly. I don't remember coming here. I'm wearing my T-shirt, bra, and panties. No socks. No jeans. Holy shit.
I glance at the bedside table. On it is a glass of orange juice and two tablets. Advil. Control freak that he is, he thinks of everything. I sit up and take the tablets. Actually, I don't feel that bad, probably much better than I deserve. The orange juice tastes divine. It's thirst-quenching and refreshing.
There's a knock on the door. My heart leaps into my mouth, and I can't seem to find my voice. He opens the door anyway and strolls in.
Holy hell, he's been working out. He's in gray sweatpants that hang, in that way, off his hips and a gray sleeveless T-shirt which is dark with sweat, like his hair. Christian Grey's sweat; the notion does odd things to me. I take a deep breath and close my eyes. I feel like a two-year-old; if I close my eyes, then I'm not really here.
"Good morning, Anastasia. How are you feeling?"
"Better than I deserve," I mumble.
I peek up at him. He places a large shopping bag on a chair and grasps each end of the towel that he has around his neck. He's staring at me, gray eyes dark, and as usual, I have no idea what he's thinking. He hides his thoughts and feelings so well.
"How did I get here?" My voice is small, contrite.
He sits down on the edge of the bed. He's close enough for me to touch, for me to smell. Oh my … sweat and body wash and Christian. It's a heady cocktail—so much better than a margarita, and now I can speak from experience.
"After you passed out, I didn't want to risk the leather upholstery in my car taking you all the way to your apartment. So I brought you here," he says phlegmatically.
"Did you put me to bed?"
"Yes." His face is impassive.
"Did I throw up again?" My voice is quieter.
"No."
"Did you undress me?" I whisper.
"Yes." He quirks an eyebrow at me as I blush furiously.
"We didn't—?" I whisper, my mouth drying in mortified horror as I can't complete the question. I stare at my hands.
"Anastasia, you were comatose. Necrophilia is not my thing. I like my women sentient and receptive," he says dryly.
"I'm so sorry."
His mouth lifts slightly in a wry smile.
"It was a very diverting evening. Not one that I'll forget in a while."
Me, neither—oh, he's laughing at me, the bastard. I didn't ask him to come and get me. Somehow I've been made to feel like the villain of the piece.
"You didn't have to track me down with whatever James Bond gadgetry you're developing for the highest bidder," I snap. He stares at me, surprised and, if I'm not mistaken, a little wounded.
"First, the technology to track cell phones is available over the Internet. Second, my company does not invest or manufacture any kind of surveillance devices. And third, if I hadn't come to get you, you'd probably be waking up in the photographer's bed, and from what I can remember, you weren't overly enthused about him pressing his suit," he says acidly.
Pressing his suit! I glance up at Christian. He's glaring at me, eyes blazing, aggrieved. I try to bite my lip, but I fail to repress my giggle.
"Which medieval chronicle did you escape from? You sound like a courtly knight."
His mood visibly shifts. His eyes soften and his expression warms, and there's a trace of a smile on his lips.
"Anastasia, I don't think so. Dark knight, maybe." His smile is sardonic, and he shakes his head. "Did you eat last night?" His tone is accusatory. I shake my head. What major transgression have I committed now? His jaw clenches, but his face remains impassive.
"You need to eat. That's why you were so ill. Honestly, it's drinking rule number one." He runs his hand through his hair, and I know it's because he's exasperated.
"Are you going to continue to scold me?"
"Is that what I'm doing?"
"I think so."
"You're lucky I'm just scolding you."
"What do you mean?"
"Well, if you were mine, you wouldn't be able to sit down for a week after the stunt you pulled yesterday. You didn't eat, you got drunk, you put yourself at risk." He closes his eyes, dread etched briefly on his face, and he shudders. When he opens his eyes, he glares at me. "I hate to think what could have happened to you."
I scowl back at him. What is his problem? What's it to him? If I was his … Well, I'm not. Though maybe part of me would like to be. The thought pierces through the irritation I feel at his high-handed words. I flush at the waywardness of my subconscious—she's doing her happy dance in a bright red hula skirt at the thought of being his.
"I would have been fine. I was with Kate."
"And the photographer?" he snaps at me.
Hmm … young José. I'll need to face him at some point.
"José just got out of line." I shrug.
"Well, the next time he gets out of line, maybe someone should teach him some manners."
"You are quite the disciplinarian," I hiss.
"Oh, Anastasia, you have no idea." His eyes narrow, and then he grins wickedly. It's disarming. One minute, I'm confused and angry, the next, I'm gazing at his gorgeous smile. Wow … I am entranced, and it's because his smile is so rare. I quite forget what he's talking about.
"I'm going to have a shower. Unless you'd like to shower first?" He cocks his head to one side, still grinning. My heartbeat has picked up, and my medulla oblongata has neglected to fire any synapses to make me breathe. His grin widens, and he reaches over and runs his thumb down my cheek and across my lower lip.
"Breathe, Anastasia," he whispers then stands back up. "Breakfast will be here in fifteen minutes. You must be famished." He heads into the bathroom and closes the door.
I let out the breath that I've been holding. Why is he so damned attractive? Right now I want to go and join him in the shower. I have never felt this way about anyone. My hormones are racing. My skin tingles where his thumb traced over my face and lower lip. I'm squirming with a needy, achy … discomfort. I don't understand this reaction. Hmm … Desire. This is desire. This is what it feels like.
I lie back on the soft feather-filled pillows. If you were mine. Oh my—what would I do to be his? He's the only man who has ever set the blood racing through my body. Yet he's so antagonizing, too; he's difficult, complicated, and confusing. One minute he rebuffs me, the next he sends me fourteen-thousand-dollar books, then he tracks me like a stalker. And for all that, I have spent the night in his hotel suite, and I feel safe. Protected. He cares enough to come and rescue me from some mistakenly perceived danger. He's not a dark knight at all but a white knight in shining, dazzling armor—a classic romantic hero—Sir Gawain or Sir Lancelot.
I scramble out of his bed frantically searching for my jeans. He emerges from the bathroom wet and glistening from the shower, still unshaven, with just a towel around his waist, and there am I—all bare legs and awkward gawkiness. He's surprised to see me out of bed.
"If you're looking for your jeans, I've sent them to the laundry." His gaze is dark. "They were spattered with your vomit."
"Oh." I flush scarlet. Why oh why does he always catch me off balance?
"I sent Taylor out for another pair and some shoes. They're in the bag on the chair."
Clean clothes. What an unexpected bonus.
"Um … I'll have a shower," I mutter. "Thanks." What else can I say? I grab the bag and dart into the bathroom away from the unnerving proximity of naked Christian. Michelangelo's David has nothing on him.
In the bathroom, it's all hot and steamy. I strip off my clothes and quickly clamber into the shower, anxious to be under the cleansing stream of water. It cascades over me, and I hold up my face into the welcoming torrent. I want Christian Grey. I want him badly. Simple fact. For the first time in my life, I want to go to bed with a man. I want to feel his hands and his mouth on me.
He said he likes his women sentient. He's probably not celibate then. But he's not made a pass at me, unlike Paul or José. I don't understand. Does he want me? He wouldn't kiss me last week. Am I repellent to him? And yet I'm here and he brought me here. I just don't know what his game is. What's he thinking? You've slept in his bed all night, and he's not touched you, Ana. You do the math. My subconscious has reared her ugly, snide head. I ignore her.
The water is warm and soothing. Hmm … I could stay under this shower, in his bathroom, forever. I reach for the body wash and it smells of him. It's a delicious smell. I rub it all over myself, fantasizing that it's him—him rubbing this heavenly scented soap onto my body, across my breasts, over my stomach, between my thighs with his long-fingered hands. Oh my. My heartbeat picks up again. This feels so … so good.
"Breakfast is here." He knocks on the door, startling me.
"O-okay," I stutter as I'm yanked cruelly out of my erotic daydream.
I climb out of the shower and grab two towels. I put my hair in one and wrap it Carmen Miranda style on my head. Hastily, I dry myself, ignoring the pleasurable feel of the towel rubbing against my oversensitized skin.
I inspect the bag of jeans. Not only has Taylor brought me jeans and new Converse, but also a pale blue shirt, socks, and underwear. Oh my. A clean bra and panties—actually, to describe them in such a mundane, utilitarian way does not do them justice. They are exquisitely designed fancy European lingerie. All pale blue lace and finery. Wow. I am in awe and slightly daunted by this underwear. What's more, they fit perfectly. But of course they do. I flush to think of Buzz Cut in some lingerie store buying this for me. I wonder what else is in his job description.
I dress quickly. The rest of the clothing is a perfect fit. I brusquely towel-dry my hair and try desperately to bring it under control. But, as usual, it refuses to cooperate, and my only option is to restrain it with a hair tie which I don't have. I should have one in my purse, wherever it is. I take a deep breath. Time to face Mr. Confusing.
I'm relieved to find the bedroom empty. I hunt quickly for my purse—but it's not in here. Taking another deep breath, I enter the living area of the suite. It's huge. There's an opulent, plush seating area, all overstuffed couches and soft cushions, an elaborate coffee table with a stack of large glossy books, a study area with the latest-generation iMac, and an enormous plasma screen TV on the wall. Christian is sitting at a dining table on the other side of the room reading a newspaper. It's the size of a tennis court or something, not that I play tennis, though I have watched Kate a few times. Kate!
"Crap, Kate," I croak. Christian peers up at me.
"She knows you're here and still alive. I texted Elliot," he says with just a trace of humor.
Oh no. I remember her fervent dancing of the night before. All her patented moves used with maximum effect to seduce Christian's brother, no less! What's she going to think about me being here? I've never stayed out before. She's still with Elliot. She's only done this twice before, and both times I've had to endure the hideous pink PJs for a week from the fallout. She's going to think I've had a one-night stand, too.
Christian stares at me imperiously. He's wearing a white linen shirt, collar and cuffs undone.
"Sit," he commands, pointing to a place at the table. I make my way across the room and sit down opposite him as I've been directed. The table is laden with food.
"I didn't know what you liked, so I ordered a selection from the breakfast menu." He gives me a crooked, apologetic smile.
"That's very profligate of you," I murmur, bewildered by the choice, though I am hungry.
"Yes, it is." He sounds guilty.
I opt for pancakes, maple syrup, scrambled eggs, and bacon. Christian tries to hide a smile as he returns to his egg white omelet. The food is delicious.
"Tea?" he asks.
"Yes, please."
He passes me a small teapot of hot water and on the saucer is a Twinings English Breakfast teabag. Jeez, he remembers how I like my tea.
"Your hair's very damp," he scolds.
"I couldn't find the hair dryer," I mutter, embarrassed. Not that I looked.
Christian's mouth presses into a hard line, but he doesn't say anything.
"Thank you for the clothes."
"It's a pleasure, Anastasia. That color suits you."
I blush and stare down at my fingers.
"You know, you really should learn to take a compliment." His tone is castigating.
"I should give you some money for these clothes."
He glares at me as if I have offended him on some level. I hurry on.
"You've already given me the books, which, of course, I can't accept. But these clothes … please let me pay you back." I smile tentatively at him.
"Anastasia, trust me, I can afford it."
"That's not the point. Why should you buy these for me?"
"Because I can." His eyes flash with a wicked gleam.
"Just because you can doesn't mean that you should," I reply quietly as he arches an eyebrow at me, his eyes twinkling, and suddenly I feel that we're talking about something else, but I don't know what it is. Which reminds me …
"Why did you send me the books, Christian?" My voice is soft. He puts down his cutlery and regards me intently, his eyes burning with some unfathomable emotion. Holy crap—my mouth dries.
"Well, when you were nearly run over by the cyclist—and I was holding you and you were looking up at me—all 'kiss me, kiss me, Christian' "—he pauses and shrugs—"I felt I owed you an apology and a warning." He runs his hand through his hair. "Anastasia, I'm not a hearts and flowers kind of man … I don't do romance. My tastes are very singular. You should steer clear of me." He closes his eyes as if in defeat. "There's something about you, though, and I'm finding it impossible to stay away. But I think you've figured that out already."
My appetite vanishes. He can't stay away!
"Then don't," I whisper.
He gasps, his eyes wide. "You don't know what you're saying."
"Enlighten me, then."
We sit gazing at each other, neither of us touching our food.
"You're not celibate, then?" I breathe.
Amusement lights up his eyes.
"No, Anastasia, I'm not celibate." He pauses for this information to sink in, and I flush scarlet. The mouth-to-brain filter is broken again. I can't believe I've just said that out loud.
"What are your plans for the next few days?" he asks, his voice low.
"I'm working today, from midday. What time is it?" I panic suddenly.
"It's just after ten; you've plenty of time. What about tomorrow?" He has his elbows on the table, and his chin is resting on his long, steepled fingers.
"Kate and I are going to start packing. We're moving to Seattle next weekend, and I'm working at Clayton's all this week."
"You have a place in Seattle already?"
"Yes."
"Where?"
"I can't remember the address. It's in the Pike Market District."
"Not far from me." He smiles. "So what are you going to do for work in Seattle?"
Where is he going with all these questions? The Christian Grey Inquisition is almost as irritating as the Katherine Kavanagh Inquisition.
"I've applied for some internships. I'm waiting to hear."
"Have you applied to my company as I suggested?"
I flush … Of course not. "Um … no."
"And what's wrong with my company?"
"Your company or your company?" I smirk.
"Are you smirking at me, Miss Steele?" He tilts his head to one side, and I think he looks amused, but it's hard to tell. I flush and glance down at my unfinished breakfast. I can't look him in the eye when he uses that tone of voice.
"I'd like to bite that lip," he whispers darkly.
I gasp, completely unaware that I am chewing my bottom lip and my mouth pops open. That has to be the sexiest thing anybody has ever said to me. My heartbeat spikes, and I think I'm panting. Jeez, I'm a quivering, mess, and he hasn't even touched me. I squirm in my seat and meet his dark glare.
"Why don't you?" I challenge quietly.
"Because I'm not going to touch you, Anastasia—not until I have your written consent to do so." His lips hint at a smile.
What?
"What does that mean?"
"Exactly what I say." He sighs and shakes his head at me, amused but exasperated, too. "I need to show you, Anastasia. What time do you finish work this evening?"
"About eight."
"Well, we could go to Seattle this evening or next Saturday for dinner at my place, and I'll acquaint you with the facts then. The choice is yours."
"Why can't you tell me now?"
"Because I'm enjoying my breakfast and your company. Once you're enlightened, you probably won't want to see me again."
What does that mean? Does he white-slave small children to some godforsaken part of the planet? Is he part of some underworld crime syndicate? It would explain why he's so rich. Is he deeply religious? Is he impotent? Surely not—he could prove that to me right now. I flush scarlet thinking about the possibilities. This is getting me nowhere. I'd like to solve the riddle that is Christian Grey sooner rather than later. If it means that whatever secret he has is so gross that I don't want to know him anymore, then, quite frankly, it will be a relief. Don't lie to yourself—my subconscious yells at me—it'll have to be pretty damned bad to have you running for the hills.
NOVEL - FIFTY SHADES OF GREY
AUTHOR - E. L. JAMES
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It's very quiet. The light is muted. I am comfortable and warm, in this bed. Hmm … I open my eyes, and for a moment I'm tranquil and serene, enjoying the strange, unfamiliar surroundings. I have no idea where I am. The headboard behind me is in the shape of a massive sun. It's oddly familiar. The room is large and airy and plushly furnished in browns and golds and beiges. I have seen it before. Where? My befuddled brain struggles through its recent visual memories. Holy crap. I'm in the Heathman Hotel … in a suite. I have stood in a room similar to this with Kate. This looks bigger. Oh, shit. I'm in Christian Grey's suite. How did I get here?
Fractured memories of the previous night come slowly back to haunt me. The drinking—oh no, the drinking—the phone call—oh no, the phone call—the vomiting—oh no, the vomiting. José and then Christian. Oh no. I cringe inwardly. I don't remember coming here. I'm wearing my T-shirt, bra, and panties. No socks. No jeans. Holy shit.
I glance at the bedside table. On it is a glass of orange juice and two tablets. Advil. Control freak that he is, he thinks of everything. I sit up and take the tablets. Actually, I don't feel that bad, probably much better than I deserve. The orange juice tastes divine. It's thirst-quenching and refreshing.
There's a knock on the door. My heart leaps into my mouth, and I can't seem to find my voice. He opens the door anyway and strolls in.
Holy hell, he's been working out. He's in gray sweatpants that hang, in that way, off his hips and a gray sleeveless T-shirt which is dark with sweat, like his hair. Christian Grey's sweat; the notion does odd things to me. I take a deep breath and close my eyes. I feel like a two-year-old; if I close my eyes, then I'm not really here.
"Good morning, Anastasia. How are you feeling?"
"Better than I deserve," I mumble.
I peek up at him. He places a large shopping bag on a chair and grasps each end of the towel that he has around his neck. He's staring at me, gray eyes dark, and as usual, I have no idea what he's thinking. He hides his thoughts and feelings so well.
"How did I get here?" My voice is small, contrite.
He sits down on the edge of the bed. He's close enough for me to touch, for me to smell. Oh my … sweat and body wash and Christian. It's a heady cocktail—so much better than a margarita, and now I can speak from experience.
"After you passed out, I didn't want to risk the leather upholstery in my car taking you all the way to your apartment. So I brought you here," he says phlegmatically.
"Did you put me to bed?"
"Yes." His face is impassive.
"Did I throw up again?" My voice is quieter.
"No."
"Did you undress me?" I whisper.
"Yes." He quirks an eyebrow at me as I blush furiously.
"We didn't—?" I whisper, my mouth drying in mortified horror as I can't complete the question. I stare at my hands.
"Anastasia, you were comatose. Necrophilia is not my thing. I like my women sentient and receptive," he says dryly.
"I'm so sorry."
His mouth lifts slightly in a wry smile.
"It was a very diverting evening. Not one that I'll forget in a while."
Me, neither—oh, he's laughing at me, the bastard. I didn't ask him to come and get me. Somehow I've been made to feel like the villain of the piece.
"You didn't have to track me down with whatever James Bond gadgetry you're developing for the highest bidder," I snap. He stares at me, surprised and, if I'm not mistaken, a little wounded.
"First, the technology to track cell phones is available over the Internet. Second, my company does not invest or manufacture any kind of surveillance devices. And third, if I hadn't come to get you, you'd probably be waking up in the photographer's bed, and from what I can remember, you weren't overly enthused about him pressing his suit," he says acidly.
Pressing his suit! I glance up at Christian. He's glaring at me, eyes blazing, aggrieved. I try to bite my lip, but I fail to repress my giggle.
"Which medieval chronicle did you escape from? You sound like a courtly knight."
His mood visibly shifts. His eyes soften and his expression warms, and there's a trace of a smile on his lips.
"Anastasia, I don't think so. Dark knight, maybe." His smile is sardonic, and he shakes his head. "Did you eat last night?" His tone is accusatory. I shake my head. What major transgression have I committed now? His jaw clenches, but his face remains impassive.
"You need to eat. That's why you were so ill. Honestly, it's drinking rule number one." He runs his hand through his hair, and I know it's because he's exasperated.
"Are you going to continue to scold me?"
"Is that what I'm doing?"
"I think so."
"You're lucky I'm just scolding you."
"What do you mean?"
"Well, if you were mine, you wouldn't be able to sit down for a week after the stunt you pulled yesterday. You didn't eat, you got drunk, you put yourself at risk." He closes his eyes, dread etched briefly on his face, and he shudders. When he opens his eyes, he glares at me. "I hate to think what could have happened to you."
I scowl back at him. What is his problem? What's it to him? If I was his … Well, I'm not. Though maybe part of me would like to be. The thought pierces through the irritation I feel at his high-handed words. I flush at the waywardness of my subconscious—she's doing her happy dance in a bright red hula skirt at the thought of being his.
"I would have been fine. I was with Kate."
"And the photographer?" he snaps at me.
Hmm … young José. I'll need to face him at some point.
"José just got out of line." I shrug.
"Well, the next time he gets out of line, maybe someone should teach him some manners."
"You are quite the disciplinarian," I hiss.
"Oh, Anastasia, you have no idea." His eyes narrow, and then he grins wickedly. It's disarming. One minute, I'm confused and angry, the next, I'm gazing at his gorgeous smile. Wow … I am entranced, and it's because his smile is so rare. I quite forget what he's talking about.
"I'm going to have a shower. Unless you'd like to shower first?" He cocks his head to one side, still grinning. My heartbeat has picked up, and my medulla oblongata has neglected to fire any synapses to make me breathe. His grin widens, and he reaches over and runs his thumb down my cheek and across my lower lip.
"Breathe, Anastasia," he whispers then stands back up. "Breakfast will be here in fifteen minutes. You must be famished." He heads into the bathroom and closes the door.
I let out the breath that I've been holding. Why is he so damned attractive? Right now I want to go and join him in the shower. I have never felt this way about anyone. My hormones are racing. My skin tingles where his thumb traced over my face and lower lip. I'm squirming with a needy, achy … discomfort. I don't understand this reaction. Hmm … Desire. This is desire. This is what it feels like.
I lie back on the soft feather-filled pillows. If you were mine. Oh my—what would I do to be his? He's the only man who has ever set the blood racing through my body. Yet he's so antagonizing, too; he's difficult, complicated, and confusing. One minute he rebuffs me, the next he sends me fourteen-thousand-dollar books, then he tracks me like a stalker. And for all that, I have spent the night in his hotel suite, and I feel safe. Protected. He cares enough to come and rescue me from some mistakenly perceived danger. He's not a dark knight at all but a white knight in shining, dazzling armor—a classic romantic hero—Sir Gawain or Sir Lancelot.
I scramble out of his bed frantically searching for my jeans. He emerges from the bathroom wet and glistening from the shower, still unshaven, with just a towel around his waist, and there am I—all bare legs and awkward gawkiness. He's surprised to see me out of bed.
"If you're looking for your jeans, I've sent them to the laundry." His gaze is dark. "They were spattered with your vomit."
"Oh." I flush scarlet. Why oh why does he always catch me off balance?
"I sent Taylor out for another pair and some shoes. They're in the bag on the chair."
Clean clothes. What an unexpected bonus.
"Um … I'll have a shower," I mutter. "Thanks." What else can I say? I grab the bag and dart into the bathroom away from the unnerving proximity of naked Christian. Michelangelo's David has nothing on him.
In the bathroom, it's all hot and steamy. I strip off my clothes and quickly clamber into the shower, anxious to be under the cleansing stream of water. It cascades over me, and I hold up my face into the welcoming torrent. I want Christian Grey. I want him badly. Simple fact. For the first time in my life, I want to go to bed with a man. I want to feel his hands and his mouth on me.
He said he likes his women sentient. He's probably not celibate then. But he's not made a pass at me, unlike Paul or José. I don't understand. Does he want me? He wouldn't kiss me last week. Am I repellent to him? And yet I'm here and he brought me here. I just don't know what his game is. What's he thinking? You've slept in his bed all night, and he's not touched you, Ana. You do the math. My subconscious has reared her ugly, snide head. I ignore her.
The water is warm and soothing. Hmm … I could stay under this shower, in his bathroom, forever. I reach for the body wash and it smells of him. It's a delicious smell. I rub it all over myself, fantasizing that it's him—him rubbing this heavenly scented soap onto my body, across my breasts, over my stomach, between my thighs with his long-fingered hands. Oh my. My heartbeat picks up again. This feels so … so good.
"Breakfast is here." He knocks on the door, startling me.
"O-okay," I stutter as I'm yanked cruelly out of my erotic daydream.
I climb out of the shower and grab two towels. I put my hair in one and wrap it Carmen Miranda style on my head. Hastily, I dry myself, ignoring the pleasurable feel of the towel rubbing against my oversensitized skin.
I inspect the bag of jeans. Not only has Taylor brought me jeans and new Converse, but also a pale blue shirt, socks, and underwear. Oh my. A clean bra and panties—actually, to describe them in such a mundane, utilitarian way does not do them justice. They are exquisitely designed fancy European lingerie. All pale blue lace and finery. Wow. I am in awe and slightly daunted by this underwear. What's more, they fit perfectly. But of course they do. I flush to think of Buzz Cut in some lingerie store buying this for me. I wonder what else is in his job description.
I dress quickly. The rest of the clothing is a perfect fit. I brusquely towel-dry my hair and try desperately to bring it under control. But, as usual, it refuses to cooperate, and my only option is to restrain it with a hair tie which I don't have. I should have one in my purse, wherever it is. I take a deep breath. Time to face Mr. Confusing.
I'm relieved to find the bedroom empty. I hunt quickly for my purse—but it's not in here. Taking another deep breath, I enter the living area of the suite. It's huge. There's an opulent, plush seating area, all overstuffed couches and soft cushions, an elaborate coffee table with a stack of large glossy books, a study area with the latest-generation iMac, and an enormous plasma screen TV on the wall. Christian is sitting at a dining table on the other side of the room reading a newspaper. It's the size of a tennis court or something, not that I play tennis, though I have watched Kate a few times. Kate!
"Crap, Kate," I croak. Christian peers up at me.
"She knows you're here and still alive. I texted Elliot," he says with just a trace of humor.
Oh no. I remember her fervent dancing of the night before. All her patented moves used with maximum effect to seduce Christian's brother, no less! What's she going to think about me being here? I've never stayed out before. She's still with Elliot. She's only done this twice before, and both times I've had to endure the hideous pink PJs for a week from the fallout. She's going to think I've had a one-night stand, too.
Christian stares at me imperiously. He's wearing a white linen shirt, collar and cuffs undone.
"Sit," he commands, pointing to a place at the table. I make my way across the room and sit down opposite him as I've been directed. The table is laden with food.
"I didn't know what you liked, so I ordered a selection from the breakfast menu." He gives me a crooked, apologetic smile.
"That's very profligate of you," I murmur, bewildered by the choice, though I am hungry.
"Yes, it is." He sounds guilty.
I opt for pancakes, maple syrup, scrambled eggs, and bacon. Christian tries to hide a smile as he returns to his egg white omelet. The food is delicious.
"Tea?" he asks.
"Yes, please."
He passes me a small teapot of hot water and on the saucer is a Twinings English Breakfast teabag. Jeez, he remembers how I like my tea.
"Your hair's very damp," he scolds.
"I couldn't find the hair dryer," I mutter, embarrassed. Not that I looked.
Christian's mouth presses into a hard line, but he doesn't say anything.
"Thank you for the clothes."
"It's a pleasure, Anastasia. That color suits you."
I blush and stare down at my fingers.
"You know, you really should learn to take a compliment." His tone is castigating.
"I should give you some money for these clothes."
He glares at me as if I have offended him on some level. I hurry on.
"You've already given me the books, which, of course, I can't accept. But these clothes … please let me pay you back." I smile tentatively at him.
"Anastasia, trust me, I can afford it."
"That's not the point. Why should you buy these for me?"
"Because I can." His eyes flash with a wicked gleam.
"Just because you can doesn't mean that you should," I reply quietly as he arches an eyebrow at me, his eyes twinkling, and suddenly I feel that we're talking about something else, but I don't know what it is. Which reminds me …
"Why did you send me the books, Christian?" My voice is soft. He puts down his cutlery and regards me intently, his eyes burning with some unfathomable emotion. Holy crap—my mouth dries.
"Well, when you were nearly run over by the cyclist—and I was holding you and you were looking up at me—all 'kiss me, kiss me, Christian' "—he pauses and shrugs—"I felt I owed you an apology and a warning." He runs his hand through his hair. "Anastasia, I'm not a hearts and flowers kind of man … I don't do romance. My tastes are very singular. You should steer clear of me." He closes his eyes as if in defeat. "There's something about you, though, and I'm finding it impossible to stay away. But I think you've figured that out already."
My appetite vanishes. He can't stay away!
"Then don't," I whisper.
He gasps, his eyes wide. "You don't know what you're saying."
"Enlighten me, then."
We sit gazing at each other, neither of us touching our food.
"You're not celibate, then?" I breathe.
Amusement lights up his eyes.
"No, Anastasia, I'm not celibate." He pauses for this information to sink in, and I flush scarlet. The mouth-to-brain filter is broken again. I can't believe I've just said that out loud.
"What are your plans for the next few days?" he asks, his voice low.
"I'm working today, from midday. What time is it?" I panic suddenly.
"It's just after ten; you've plenty of time. What about tomorrow?" He has his elbows on the table, and his chin is resting on his long, steepled fingers.
"Kate and I are going to start packing. We're moving to Seattle next weekend, and I'm working at Clayton's all this week."
"You have a place in Seattle already?"
"Yes."
"Where?"
"I can't remember the address. It's in the Pike Market District."
"Not far from me." He smiles. "So what are you going to do for work in Seattle?"
Where is he going with all these questions? The Christian Grey Inquisition is almost as irritating as the Katherine Kavanagh Inquisition.
"I've applied for some internships. I'm waiting to hear."
"Have you applied to my company as I suggested?"
I flush … Of course not. "Um … no."
"And what's wrong with my company?"
"Your company or your company?" I smirk.
"Are you smirking at me, Miss Steele?" He tilts his head to one side, and I think he looks amused, but it's hard to tell. I flush and glance down at my unfinished breakfast. I can't look him in the eye when he uses that tone of voice.
"I'd like to bite that lip," he whispers darkly.
I gasp, completely unaware that I am chewing my bottom lip and my mouth pops open. That has to be the sexiest thing anybody has ever said to me. My heartbeat spikes, and I think I'm panting. Jeez, I'm a quivering, mess, and he hasn't even touched me. I squirm in my seat and meet his dark glare.
"Why don't you?" I challenge quietly.
"Because I'm not going to touch you, Anastasia—not until I have your written consent to do so." His lips hint at a smile.
What?
"What does that mean?"
"Exactly what I say." He sighs and shakes his head at me, amused but exasperated, too. "I need to show you, Anastasia. What time do you finish work this evening?"
"About eight."
"Well, we could go to Seattle this evening or next Saturday for dinner at my place, and I'll acquaint you with the facts then. The choice is yours."
"Why can't you tell me now?"
"Because I'm enjoying my breakfast and your company. Once you're enlightened, you probably won't want to see me again."
What does that mean? Does he white-slave small children to some godforsaken part of the planet? Is he part of some underworld crime syndicate? It would explain why he's so rich. Is he deeply religious? Is he impotent? Surely not—he could prove that to me right now. I flush scarlet thinking about the possibilities. This is getting me nowhere. I'd like to solve the riddle that is Christian Grey sooner rather than later. If it means that whatever secret he has is so gross that I don't want to know him anymore, then, quite frankly, it will be a relief. Don't lie to yourself—my subconscious yells at me—it'll have to be pretty damned bad to have you running for the hills.
NOVEL - FIFTY SHADES OF GREY
AUTHOR - E. L. JAMES
It's very quiet. The light is muted. I am comfortable and warm, in this bed. HmmI open my eyes, and for a moment I'm tranquil and serene, enjoying the strange, unfamiliar surroundings. I have no idea where I am. The headboard behind me is in the shape of a massive sun. It's oddly familiar. The room is large and airy and plushly furnished in browns and golds and beiges. I have seen it before. Where? My befuddled brain struggles through its recent visual memories. Holy crap. I'm in the Heathman Hotelin a suite. I have stood in a room similar to this with Kate. This looks bigger. Oh, shit. I'm in Christian Grey's suite. How did I get here?Fractured memories of the previous night come slowly back to haunt me. The drinkingoh no, the drinkingthe phone calloh no, the phone callthe vomitingoh no, the vomiting. Jos and then Christian. Oh no. I cringe inwardly. I don't remember coming here. I'm wearing my T-shirt, bra, and panties. No socks. No jeans. Holy shit.I glance at the bedside table. On it is a glass of orange juice and two tablets. Advil. Control freak that he is, he thinks of everything. I sit up and take the tablets. Actually, I don't feel that bad, probably much better than I deserve. The orange juice tastes divine. It's thirst-quenching and refreshing.There's a knock on the door. My heart leaps into my mouth, and I can't seem to find my voice. He opens the door anyway and strolls in.Holy hell, he's been working out. He's in gray sweatpants that hang, in that way, off his hips and a gray sleeveless T-shirt which is dark with sweat, like his hair. Christian Grey's sweat; the notion does odd things to me. I take a deep breath and close my eyes. I feel like a two-year-old; if I close my eyes, then I'm not really here."Good morning, Anastasia. How are you feeling?""Better than I deserve," I mumble.I peek up at him. He places a large shopping bag on a chair and grasps each end of the towel that he has around his neck. He's staring at me, gray eyes dark, and as usual, I have no idea what he's thinking. He hides his thoughts and feelings so well."How did I get here?" My voice is small, contrite.He sits down on the edge of the bed. He's close enough for me to touch, for me to smell. Oh mysweat and body wash and Christian. It's a heady cocktailso much better than a margarita, and now I can speak from experience."After you passed out, I didn't want to risk the leather upholstery in my car taking you all the way to your apartment. So I brought you here," he says phlegmatically."Did you put me to bed?""Yes." His face is impassive."Did I throw up again?" My voice is quieter."No.""Did you undress me?" I whisper. "Yes." He quirks an eyebrow at me as I blush furiously."We didn't?" I whisper, my mouth drying in mortified horror as I can't complete the question. I stare at my hands."Anastasia, you were comatose. Necrophilia is not my thing. I like my women sentient and receptive," he says dryly."I'm so sorry."His mouth lifts slightly in a wry smile."It was a very diverting evening. Not one that I'll forget in a while."Me, neitheroh, he's laughing at me, the bastard. I didn't ask him to come and get me. Somehow I've been made to feel like the villain of the piece."You didn't have to track me down with whatever James Bond gadgetry you're developing for the highest bidder," I snap. He stares at me, surprised and, if I'm not mistaken, a little wounded."First, the technology to track cell phones is available over the Internet. Second, my company does not invest or manufacture any kind of surveillance devices. And third, if I hadn't come to get you, you'd probably be waking up in the photographer's bed, and from what I can remember, you weren't overly enthused about him pressing his suit," he says acidly.Pressing his suit! I glance up at Christian. He's glaring at me, eyes blazing, aggrieved. I try to bite my lip, but I fail to repress my giggle."Which medieval chronicle did you escape from? You sound like a courtly knight."His mood visibly shifts. His eyes soften and his expression warms, and there's a trace of a smile on his lips."Anastasia, I don't think so. Dark knight, maybe." His smile is sardonic, and he shakes his head. "Did you eat last night?" His tone is accusatory. I shake my head. What major transgression have I committed now? His jaw clenches, but his face remains impassive."You need to eat. That's why you were so ill. Honestly, it's drinking rule number one." He runs his hand through his hair, and I know it's because he's exasperated."Are you going to continue to scold me?""Is that what I'm doing?""I think so.""You're lucky I'm just scolding you.""What do you mean?""Well, if you were mine, you wouldn't be able to sit down for a week after the stunt you pulled yesterday. You didn't eat, you got drunk, you put yourself at risk." He closes his eyes, dread etched briefly on his face, and he shudders. When he opens his eyes, he glares at me. "I hate to think what could have happened to you."I scowl back at him. What is his problem? What's it to him? If I was his Well, I'm not. Though maybe part of me would like to be. The thought pierces through the irritation I feel at his high-handed words. I flush at the waywardness of my subconsciousshe's doing her happy dance in a bright red hula skirt at the thought of being his."I would have been fine. I was with Kate.""And the photographer?" he snaps at me.Hmmyoung Jos. I'll need to face him at some point."Jos just got out of line." I shrug."Well, the next time he gets out of line, maybe someone should teach him some manners.""You are quite the disciplinarian," I hiss."Oh, Anastasia, you have no idea." His eyes narrow, and then he grins wickedly. It's disarming. One minute, I'm confused and angry, the next, I'm gazing at his gorgeous smile. Wow I am entranced, and it's because his smile is so rare. I quite forget what he's talking about."I'm going to have a shower. Unless you'd like to shower first?" He cocks his head to one side, still grinning. My heartbeat has picked up, and my medulla oblongata has neglected to fire any synapses to make me breathe. His grin widens, and he reaches over and runs his thumb down my cheek and across my lower lip."Breathe, Anastasia," he whispers then stands back up. "Breakfast will be here in fifteen minutes. You must be famished." He heads into the bathroom and closes the door.I let out the breath that I've been holding. Why is he so damned attractive? Right now I want to go and join him in the shower. I have never felt this way about anyone. My hormones are racing. My skin tingles where his thumb traced over my face and lower lip. I'm squirming with a needy, achydiscomfort. I don't understand this reaction. HmmDesire. This is desire. This is what it feels like.I lie back on the soft feather-filled pillows. If you were mine. Oh mywhat would I do to be his? He's the only man who has ever set the blood racing through my body. Yet he's so antagonizing, too; he's difficult, complicated, and confusing. One minute he rebuffs me, the next he sends me fourteen-thousand-dollar books, then he tracks me like a stalker. And for all that, I have spent the night in his hotel suite, and I feel safe. Protected. He cares enough to come and rescue me from some mistakenly perceived danger. He's not a dark knight at all but a white knight in shining, dazzling armora classic romantic heroSir Gawain or Sir Lancelot.I scramble out of his bed frantically searching for my jeans. He emerges from the bathroom wet and glistening from the shower, still unshaven, with just a towel around his waist, and there am Iall bare legs and awkward gawkiness. He's surprised to see me out of bed."If you're looking for your jeans, I've sent them to the laundry." His gaze is dark. "They were spattered with your vomit." "Oh." I flush scarlet. Why oh why does he always catch me off balance?"I sent Taylor out for another pair and some shoes. They're in the bag on the chair."Clean clothes. What an unexpected bonus."UmI'll have a shower," I mutter. "Thanks." What else can I say? I grab the bag and dart into the bathroom away from the unnerving proximity of naked Christian. Michelangelo's David has nothing on him.In the bathroom, it's all hot and steamy. I strip off my clothes and quickly clamber into the shower, anxious to be under the cleansing stream of water. It cascades over me, and I hold up my face into the welcoming torrent. I want Christian Grey. I want him badly. Simple fact. For the first time in my life, I want to go to bed with a man. I want to feel his hands and his mouth on me.He said he likes his women sentient. He's probably not celibate then. But he's not made a pass at me, unlike Paul or Jos. I don't understand. Does he want me? He wouldn't kiss me last week. Am I repellent to him? And yet I'm here and he brought me here. I just don't know what his game is. What's he thinking? You've slept in his bed all night, and he's not touched you, Ana. You do the math. My subconscious has reared her ugly, snide head. I ignore her.The water is warm and soothing. Hmm I could stay under this shower, in his bathroom, forever. I reach for the body wash and it smells of him. It's a delicious smell. I rub it all over myself, fantasizing that it's himhim rubbing this heavenly scented soap onto my body, across my breasts, over my stomach, between my thighs with his long-fingered hands. Oh my. My heartbeat picks up again. This feels soso good."Breakfast is here." He knocks on the door, startling me."O-okay," I stutter as I'm yanked cruelly out of my erotic daydream.I climb out of the shower and grab two towels. I put my hair in one and wrap it Carmen Miranda style on my head. Hastily, I dry myself, ignoring the pleasurable feel of the towel rubbing against my oversensitized skin.I inspect the bag of jeans. Not only has Taylor brought me jeans and new Converse, but also a pale blue shirt, socks, and underwear. Oh my. A clean bra and pantiesactually, to describe them in such a mundane, utilitarian way does not do them justice. They are exquisitely designed fancy European lingerie. All pale blue lace and finery. Wow. I am in awe and slightly daunted by this underwear. What's more, they fit perfectly. But of course they do. I flush to think of Buzz Cut in some lingerie store buying this for me. I wonder what else is in his job description.I dress quickly. The rest of the clothing is a perfect fit. I brusquely towel-dry my hair and try desperately to bring it under control. But, as usual, it refuses to cooperate, and my only option is to restrain it with a hair tie which I don't have. I should have one in my purse, wherever it is. I take a deep breath. Time to face Mr. Confusing.I'm relieved to find the bedroom empty. I hunt quickly for my pursebut it's not in here. Taking another deep breath, I enter the living area of the suite. It's huge. There's an opulent, plush seating area, all overstuffed couches and soft cushions, an elaborate coffee table with a stack of large glossy books, a study area with the latest-generation iMac, and an enormous plasma screen TV on the wall. Christian is sitting at a dining table on the other side of the room reading a newspaper. It's the size of a tennis court or something, not that I play tennis, though I have watched Kate a few times. Kate!"Crap, Kate," I croak. Christian peers up at me."She knows you're here and still alive. I texted Elliot," he says with just a trace of humor.Oh no. I remember her fervent dancing of the night before. All her patented moves used with maximum effect to seduce Christian's brother, no less! What's she going to think about me being here? I've never stayed out before. She's still with Elliot. She's only done this twice before, and both times I've had to endure the hideous pink PJs for a week from the fallout. She's going to think I've had a one-night stand, too.Christian stares at me imperiously. He's wearing a white linen shirt, collar and cuffs undone."Sit," he commands, pointing to a place at the table. I make my way across the room and sit down opposite him as I've been directed. The table is laden with food."I didn't know what you liked, so I ordered a selection from the breakfast menu." He gives me a crooked, apologetic smile."That's very profligate of you," I murmur, bewildered by the choice, though I am hungry."Yes, it is." He sounds guilty.I opt for pancakes, maple syrup, scrambled eggs, and bacon. Christian tries to hide a smile as he returns to his egg white omelet. The food is delicious."Tea?" he asks."Yes, please."He passes me a small teapot of hot water and on the saucer is a Twinings English Breakfast teabag. Jeez, he remembers how I like my tea."Your hair's very damp," he scolds."I couldn't find the hair dryer," I mutter, embarrassed. Not that I looked.Christian's mouth presses into a hard line, but he doesn't say anything."Thank you for the clothes.""It's a pleasure, Anastasia. That color suits you."I blush and stare down at my fingers."You know, you really should learn to take a compliment." His tone is castigating."I should give you some money for these clothes."He glares at me as if I have offended him on some level. I hurry on. "You've already given me the books, which, of course, I can't accept. But these clothesplease let me pay you back." I smile tentatively at him."Anastasia, trust me, I can afford it.""That's not the point. Why should you buy these for me?""Because I can." His eyes flash with a wicked gleam."Just because you can doesn't mean that you should," I reply quietly as he arches an eyebrow at me, his eyes twinkling, and suddenly I feel that we're talking about something else, but I don't know what it is. Which reminds me"Why did you send me the books, Christian?" My voice is soft. He puts down his cutlery and regards me intently, his eyes burning with some unfathomable emotion. Holy crapmy mouth dries."Well, when you were nearly run over by the cyclistand I was holding you and you were looking up at meall 'kiss me, kiss me, Christian'"he pauses and shrugs"I felt I owed you an apology and a warning." He runs his hand through his hair. "Anastasia, I'm not a hearts and flowers kind of manI don't do romance. My tastes are very singular. You should steer clear of me." He closes his eyes as if in defeat. "There's something about you, though, and I'm finding it impossible to stay away. But I think you've figured that out already."My appetite vanishes. He can't stay away!"Then don't," I whisper.He gasps, his eyes wide. "You don't know what you're saying.""Enlighten me, then."We sit gazing at each other, neither of us touching our food."You're not celibate, then?" I breathe.Amusement lights up his eyes."No, Anastasia, I'm not celibate." He pauses for this information to sink in, and I flush scarlet. The mouth-to-brain filter is broken again. I can't believe I've just said that out loud."What are your plans for the next few days?" he asks, his voice low."I'm working today, from midday. What time is it?" I panic suddenly."It's just after ten; you've plenty of time. What about tomorrow?" He has his elbows on the table, and his chin is resting on his long, steepled fingers."Kate and I are going to start packing. We're moving to Seattle next weekend, and I'm working at Clayton's all this week.""You have a place in Seattle already?""Yes.""Where?""I can't remember the address. It's in the Pike Market District." "Not far from me." He smiles. "So what are you going to do for work in Seattle?"Where is he going with all these questions? The Christian Grey Inquisition is almost as irritating as the Katherine Kavanagh Inquisition."I've applied for some internships. I'm waiting to hear.""Have you applied to my company as I suggested?"I flushOf course not. "Umno.""And what's wrong with my company?""Your company or your company?" I smirk."Are you smirking at me, Miss Steele?" He tilts his head to one side, and I think he looks amused, but it's hard to tell. I flush and glance down at my unfinished breakfast. I can't look him in the eye when he uses that tone of voice."I'd like to bite that lip," he whispers darkly.I gasp, completely unaware that I am chewing my bottom lip and my mouth pops open. That has to be the sexiest thing anybody has ever said to me. My heartbeat spikes, and I think I'm panting. Jeez, I'm a quivering, mess, and he hasn't even touched me. I squirm in my seat and meet his dark glare."Why don't you?" I challenge quietly."Because I'm not going to touch you, Anastasianot until I have your written consent to do so." His lips hint at a smile.What?"What does that mean?""Exactly what I say." He sighs and shakes his head at me, amused but exasperated, too. "I need to show you, Anastasia. What time do you finish work this evening?""About eight.""Well, we could go to Seattle this evening or next Saturday for dinner at my place, and I'll acquaint you with the facts then. The choice is yours.""Why can't you tell me now?""Because I'm enjoying my breakfast and your company. Once you're enlightened, you probably won't want to see me again."What does that mean? Does he white-slave small children to some godforsaken part of the planet? Is he part of some underworld crime syndicate? It would explain why he's so rich. Is he deeply religious? Is he impotent? Surely nothe could prove that to me right now. I flush scarlet thinking about the possibilities. This is getting me nowhere. I'd like to solve the riddle that is Christian Grey sooner rather than later. If it means that whatever secret he has is so gross that I don't want to know him anymore, then, quite frankly, it will be a relief. Don't lie to yourselfmy subconscious yells at meit'll have to be pretty damned bad to have you running for the hills.NOVEL - FIFTY SHADES OF GREY AUTHOR - E. L. JAMES
