On our way back I tend to Liseti.
I have a rather pressuring question on my mind.
(E)
(L)
(E)
(E)
(L)
Things I never wanted to know!
(E)
(L)
(E)
(L)
(E)
(L)
(E)
(L)
More and more I dread what the future has in store for me.
(E)
(L)
(L)
(E)
Wait!
Carriage!
(L)
No, surely not!
(E)
(L)
(L)
(E)
(L)
I think I grow pale.
No, change that!
I'm sure I grow pale.
There are horror visions I don't even want to think about.
(E)
(L)
With this, she heads off and I can just go back to my room.
I have heavy stuff on my mind.
Aside from the point that I have the weight of humanity's ongoing survival on me and that stuff with the royal guard becomes more and more frightening, there is one thing.
I don't know what to think about the queen.
To be honest, I don't like her.
While it's difficult to blame the swarm and all its members for what happened to me, it was the queen who stripped me of my humanity and brought me into this situation in the first place.
I hold quite some resentment against her for effectively ending my life as it was.
A decision I had no word in.
On the other side, everyone respects her deeply and hearing those sudden horror stories about alternative treatments for princesses was quite much to process.
Not that I ever planned to do something as stupid as going against this twenty-meter monster which is supported by all the billions of insects the swarm hosts.
I don't want to thank her for making my life not as shitty as it could have been.
However, I was granted some freedom.
This is a concession.
Creating a weird kind of gratitude, which makes it difficult to ask for revenge.
And puts me in a difficult mood.
I decide to stop my musing and fall into sleep.
On our way back I tend to Liseti.
I have a rather pressuring question on my mind.
(E)
(L)
(E)
(E)
(L)
Things I never wanted to know!
(E)
(L)
(E)
(L)
(E)
(L)
(E)
(L)
More and more I dread what the future has in store for me.
(E)
(L)
(L)
(E)
Wait!
Carriage!
(L)
No, surely not!
(E)
(L)
(L)
(E)
(L)
I think I grow pale.
No, change that!
I'm sure I grow pale.
There are horror visions I don't even want to think about.
(E)
(L)
With this, she heads off and I can just go back to my room.
I have heavy stuff on my mind.
Aside from the point that I have the weight of humanity's ongoing survival on me and that stuff with the royal guard becomes more and more frightening, there is one thing.
I don't know what to think about the queen.
To be honest, I don't like her.
While it's difficult to blame the swarm and all its members for what happened to me, it was the queen who stripped me of my humanity and brought me into this situation in the first place.
I hold quite some resentment against her for effectively ending my life as it was.
A decision I had no word in.
On the other side, everyone respects her deeply and hearing those sudden horror stories about alternative treatments for princesses was quite much to process.
Not that I ever planned to do something as stupid as going against this twenty-meter monster which is supported by all the billions of insects the swarm hosts.
I don't want to thank her for making my life not as shitty as it could have been.
However, I was granted some freedom.
This is a concession.
Creating a weird kind of gratitude, which makes it difficult to ask for revenge.
And puts me in a difficult mood.
I decide to stop my musing and fall into sleep.
