Chapter 122: Stella 4
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I was in a great dilemma. My mind was not ready to accept his confession of love. Although my heart was running loose. His words were so enchanting, tantalising, hard to believe yet good to hear.
I never thought that the man I married will end up falling in love with me. It was just a fake marriage. Then how come all this happened? It was very much shocking and unexpected from my side.
But what should I do now?
I love him too. This can be our happy ending. I want to be together with him. I want him only for me.
But will this last long?
My insecurity is haunting me like a ghost. The only thing keeping me away from my happiness. I always preferred the sweet lie. Then why am I thinking too much? Even if he is lying, I can still carry on our relationship as long it will last.
What's there to worry about? People always leave and when they leave they never come around. I learned to live alone. I can do that again if he stops loving me someday. The pain, the sufferings, the memories it can all be erased. There's no need for hesitation. Just except his confession.
Alas! I couldn't do that. I was so afraid of my insecurities.
" Look Theo, it's not that I hate you or anything—— in fact you have been a good friend to me ever since we got married. You helped me with lot of things and you were genuine to me. But sadly I don't have any romantic type of feelings towards you."
I lied to him. It's the best for both of us. In fact I should be lucky that he even told me those sweet lies which are worse than bitter truth. He doesn't know that those words will never last long. But he continued to persuade me.
" I'm not telling you to start loving me all of a sudden. I'm saying that you should at least give it a try. Think of me as more than your friend. And coming to that condition which you just suggested, I'm okay with it. Even after all this if you don't feel anything for me I won't pursue you anymore. Everything is in your hands. If you wanna stay, you can. If you wanna leave, I won't stop you. But remember my feelings for you will never change."
Oh Theo, stop making it so hard for me. Don't make me fall for your bewitching love trap. I'm already entangled into the thrones of lascivious dėsɨrė.
" Fine then, I will give it a try. We are already married and if we can turn it to a real marriage it will be great for both of us. Even I don't want to divorce you since you are the first person I married." He let's out a sigh of relief as if he won something magnificent. I can't help but giggles at his childish side.
We decided to give it a shot. He thinks that I'll start to love him if we give it a try. But that fool doesn't know that I'm already in love with him. The reason I decided to give this a shot was to give Theo some time until he gets bored of me. He will soon realise that it was just attraction, nothing serious. Our relationship won't become complicated. None of us will go through unnecessary trauma.
Just like that days went by. Surprisingly Theo's feelings never changed. It was clear in his eyes. I can feel a connection between us. There's no record of when it started and how. The connection is getting stronger.
In those times, Ray became very strange. He would always look for a way to bad mouth Theo. My suspicions were already making me impatient. He was up to something I was sure of it.
On the other hand Theo was being help up by unnecessary things. I can see a wall building up between us all of a sudden. This is not what I wished for. It is breaking my heart.
But who could have thought that Ray was planning to separate me from Theo.
I was extremely disgusted with him. How can he do such thing? Just because he loved me? First that hooker and now Megan. He have crossed the line. I always treated Ray like a friend. The doubt I had that time became true. But it's not my fault that I can not return his feelings.
I continued to be with him without abandoning him for some mere doubts. Even if he had confessed his love, I wouldn't have broken our friendship so easily. Love is something that knows no rules. It is beyond one's imagination and understanding.
He is the one who left me.
Was is really necessary for him to desert me like that? If he really cared about me he could have just stayed as he was. And now he's telling me that he loves me? Oh please! I will never forgive him for this horrible betrayal.
On the other hand his betrayal helped me to understand my true dėsɨrė. Yes! It actually turned out to be great. When I saw Theo with some other girl, I realised that it is no longer possible for me to leave him alone. I want to be the one and only for him. I want him to love me only.
So, I gave in and it was the best decision of my life.
" I am always afraid to loose you." My words choked on my throat as I tried to keep my gaze on him, looking deeply into his eyes. That night I was so emotionally unstable. I felt like crying in joy.
" What a coincidence! So do I." Theo chuckled and pulled my body on his hard ċhėst. He sure knows how to divert my mind from mental breakdowns. He is my sun. When even I'm in dark, he shows me the rays of light. The ghost can't haunt me in the brightest hour, right?
~ to be continued
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I was in a great dilemma. My mind was not ready to accept his confession of love. Although my heart was running loose. His words were so enchanting, tantalising, hard to believe yet good to hear.
I never thought that the man I married will end up falling in love with me. It was just a fake marriage. Then how come all this happened? It was very much shocking and unexpected from my side.
But what should I do now?
I love him too. This can be our happy ending. I want to be together with him. I want him only for me.
But will this last long?
My insecurity is haunting me like a ghost. The only thing keeping me away from my happiness. I always preferred the sweet lie. Then why am I thinking too much? Even if he is lying, I can still carry on our relationship as long it will last.
What's there to worry about? People always leave and when they leave they never come around. I learned to live alone. I can do that again if he stops loving me someday. The pain, the sufferings, the memories it can all be erased. There's no need for hesitation. Just except his confession.
Alas! I couldn't do that. I was so afraid of my insecurities.
" Look Theo, it's not that I hate you or anything—— in fact you have been a good friend to me ever since we got married. You helped me with lot of things and you were genuine to me. But sadly I don't have any romantic type of feelings towards you."
I lied to him. It's the best for both of us. In fact I should be lucky that he even told me those sweet lies which are worse than bitter truth. He doesn't know that those words will never last long. But he continued to persuade me.
" I'm not telling you to start loving me all of a sudden. I'm saying that you should at least give it a try. Think of me as more than your friend. And coming to that condition which you just suggested, I'm okay with it. Even after all this if you don't feel anything for me I won't pursue you anymore. Everything is in your hands. If you wanna stay, you can. If you wanna leave, I won't stop you. But remember my feelings for you will never change."
Oh Theo, stop making it so hard for me. Don't make me fall for your bewitching love trap. I'm already entangled into the thrones of lascivious dėsɨrė.
" Fine then, I will give it a try. We are already married and if we can turn it to a real marriage it will be great for both of us. Even I don't want to divorce you since you are the first person I married." He let's out a sigh of relief as if he won something magnificent. I can't help but giggles at his childish side.
We decided to give it a shot. He thinks that I'll start to love him if we give it a try. But that fool doesn't know that I'm already in love with him. The reason I decided to give this a shot was to give Theo some time until he gets bored of me. He will soon realise that it was just attraction, nothing serious. Our relationship won't become complicated. None of us will go through unnecessary trauma.
Just like that days went by. Surprisingly Theo's feelings never changed. It was clear in his eyes. I can feel a connection between us. There's no record of when it started and how. The connection is getting stronger.
In those times, Ray became very strange. He would always look for a way to bad mouth Theo. My suspicions were already making me impatient. He was up to something I was sure of it.
On the other hand Theo was being help up by unnecessary things. I can see a wall building up between us all of a sudden. This is not what I wished for. It is breaking my heart.
But who could have thought that Ray was planning to separate me from Theo.
I was extremely disgusted with him. How can he do such thing? Just because he loved me? First that hooker and now Megan. He have crossed the line. I always treated Ray like a friend. The doubt I had that time became true. But it's not my fault that I can not return his feelings.
I continued to be with him without abandoning him for some mere doubts. Even if he had confessed his love, I wouldn't have broken our friendship so easily. Love is something that knows no rules. It is beyond one's imagination and understanding.
He is the one who left me.
Was is really necessary for him to desert me like that? If he really cared about me he could have just stayed as he was. And now he's telling me that he loves me? Oh please! I will never forgive him for this horrible betrayal.
On the other hand his betrayal helped me to understand my true dėsɨrė. Yes! It actually turned out to be great. When I saw Theo with some other girl, I realised that it is no longer possible for me to leave him alone. I want to be the one and only for him. I want him to love me only.
So, I gave in and it was the best decision of my life.
" I am always afraid to loose you." My words choked on my throat as I tried to keep my gaze on him, looking deeply into his eyes. That night I was so emotionally unstable. I felt like crying in joy.
" What a coincidence! So do I." Theo chuckled and pulled my body on his hard ċhėst. He sure knows how to divert my mind from mental breakdowns. He is my sun. When even I'm in dark, he shows me the rays of light. The ghost can't haunt me in the brightest hour, right?
~ to be continued
I was in a great dilemma. My mind was not ready to accept his confession of love. Although my heart was running loose. His words were so enchanting, tantalising, hard to believe yet good to hear. I never thought that the man I married will end up falling in love with me. It was just a fake marriage. Then how come all this happened? It was very much shocking and unexpected from my side. But what should I do now? I love him too. This can be our happy ending. I want to be together with him. I want him only for me. But will this last long? My insecurity is haunting me like a ghost. The only thing keeping me away from my happiness. I always preferred the sweet lie. Then why am I thinking too much? Even if he is lying, I can still carry on our relationship as long it will last. What's there to worry about? People always leave and when they leave they never come around. I learned to live alone. I can do that again if he stops loving me someday. The pain, the sufferings, the memories it can all be erased. There's no need for hesitation. Just except his confession. Alas! I couldn't do that. I was so afraid of my insecurities. " Look Theo, it's not that I hate you or anything in fact you have been a good friend to me ever since we got married. You helped me with lot of things and you were genuine to me. But sadly I don't have any romantic type of feelings towards you." I lied to him. It's the best for both of us. In fact I should be lucky that he even told me those sweet lies which are worse than bitter truth. He doesn't know that those words will never last long. But he continued to persuade me. " I'm not telling you to start loving me all of a sudden. I'm saying that you should at least give it a try. Think of me as more than your friend. And coming to that condition which you just suggested, I'm okay with it. Even after all this if you don't feel anything for me I won't pursue you anymore. Everything is in your hands. If you wanna stay, you can. If you wanna leave, I won't stop you. But remember my feelings for you will never change." Oh Theo, stop making it so hard for me. Don't make me fall for your bewitching love trap. I'm already entangled into the thrones of lascivious dsr. " Fine then, I will give it a try. We are already married and if we can turn it to a real marriage it will be great for both of us. Even I don't want to divorce you since you are the first person I married." He let's out a sigh of relief as if he won something magnificent. I can't help but giggles at his childish side. We decided to give it a shot. He thinks that I'll start to love him if we give it a try. But that fool doesn't know that I'm already in love with him. The reason I decided to give this a shot was to give Theo some time until he gets bored of me. He will soon realise that it was just attraction, nothing serious. Our relationship won't become complicated. None of us will go through unnecessary trauma. Just like that days went by. Surprisingly Theo's feelings never changed. It was clear in his eyes. I can feel a connection between us. There's no record of when it started and how. The connection is getting stronger. In those times, Ray became very strange. He would always look for a way to bad mouth Theo. My suspicions were already making me impatient. He was up to something I was sure of it. On the other hand Theo was being help up by unnecessary things. I can see a wall building up between us all of a sudden. This is not what I wished for. It is breaking my heart. But who could have thought that Ray was planning to separate me from Theo. I was extremely disgusted with him. How can he do such thing? Just because he loved me? First that hooker and now Megan. He have crossed the line. I always treated Ray like a friend. The doubt I had that time became true. But it's not my fault that I can not return his feelings. I continued to be with him without abandoning him for some mere doubts. Even if he had confessed his love, I wouldn't have broken our friendship so easily. Love is something that knows no rules. It is beyond one's imagination and understanding. He is the one who left me. Was is really necessary for him to desert me like that? If he really cared about me he could have just stayed as he was. And now he's telling me that he loves me? Oh please! I will never forgive him for this horrible betrayal. On the other hand his betrayal helped me to understand my true dsr. Yes! It actually turned out to be great. When I saw Theo with some other girl, I realised that it is no longer possible for me to leave him alone. I want to be the one and only for him. I want him to love me only. So, I gave in and it was the best decision of my life. " I am always afraid to loose you." My words choked on my throat as I tried to keep my gaze on him, looking deeply into his eyes. That night I was so emotionally unstable. I felt like crying in joy. " What a coincidence! So do I." Theo chuckled and pulled my body on his hard hst. He sure knows how to divert my mind from mental breakdowns. He is my sun. When even I'm in dark, he shows me the rays of light. The ghost can't haunt me in the brightest hour, right? ~ to be continued
