[What did you do for the New Year’s holiday?]
After my first part-time job at the beginning of the year, Hiiragi-san spoke to me in an unusually good mood. I didn’t often have this kind of leisurely talk with her, so I was a little confused, but I still responded to her question.
[…I was home all the time basically. I didn’t go out for anything in particular. Oh, but I did go to the shrine for Hatsumode]
It was not as if I was doing anything wrong, but if I said that I was at someone else’s house, people might look at me strangely, so I decided to hide it. Even though it’s someone else’s, it’s still a home, so I didn’t exactly lie.
[Is that so… Um… Was it with the girl you mentioned before?]
[Y-Yeah, well…]
My eyes wandered for a moment as I was thinking, and then she looked straight at me. Our eyes met and I can see that her eyes seem to shine with interest.
I felt a bit uncomfortable with her unusually aggressive questioning, but since Hiiragi-san was also a girl, she might’ve been expecting something romantic to happen. Anyone talking about a man and a woman would expect some kind of romance, so I guess Hiiragi-san also expected it.
Since Hiiragi-san was so interested, I decided to talk about it.
[She was getting attached to me, or rather, she began to trust me very much, is what we talked about before, right?]
[Yes, I’m pretty sure you’re close to her, right?]
[Yes, I’m very happy about that, but there’s one problem. I’m not sure if she trusts me too much, because her sense of distance is too close. I can’t tell you how many times I got nervous during Hatsumode]
I let out a small sigh as I remembered the day of our Hatsumode trip. A lot happened that day, but one of the most notable events was when we held hands.
I didn’t mind, and as a guy, I was happy, but she should be more aware of how attractive she was. I wasn’t trying to think of her as someone of the opposite gender, but when she approaches me so aggressively, there’s no way I could do that.
[What?! Y-You were nervous?]
For some reason, Hiiragi-san raised her voice in surprise when I told her about it. Her eyes opened wide and her cheeks blushed slightly. I nodded my head, wondering why she was so flustered.
[Y-Yes, I was… Are you that surprised?]
[N-No, I didn’t have that kind of image of you at all]
She had a point. I dressed up appropriately for my part-time job, and I also spoke somewhat softly when I worked.
I had to change my way of speaking because my usual blunt speech is not good for my work. And if I change the way I talk, it’ll be harder for anyone to recognize me if they ever come here.
Of course this is not my true nature, so when I’m at my part-time job, it feels close to putting up a facade.
In my normal life, I’d get tired quickly so I definitely wouldn’t do it. If it’s the work me, then it’s supposed to be an atmosphere that’s easy to talk in, so I think of it as practice for being around girls.
[I try to be as unconscious of her as possible. But if she gets close to me, I’ll still be conscious and nervous]
[I-Is that so…]
Hiiragi-san replied with her shoulders narrowed, but for some reason, she was blushing a little and her mouth relaxed. She seemed to still have something on her mind and glanced at me, then hesitantly asked me again.
[That… What made you so nervous?]
[Well, that’s…]
[It’s fine right? It’s not like she’s going to find out]
I was too embarrassed to tell her more, but she seemed to really want to know, and clearly said so. She said it in a very passionate tone, and her words put me on edge.
[Hmm, well, that’s right. Her clothes were more feminine than I thought, and when she teased me, I was a little nervous. But the one event that made me nervous the most was… When we were holding hands. I couldn’t keep my composure that time]
Even remembering it now, made my face hot. The feeling of her soft, slightly cold hand. The moment when she squeezed mine with hers as well. I felt as if she wanted me, and my heart felt as if it was being gripped. At that time, I was really conscious of her as the opposite gender, and I couldn’t stop my face from turning red.
[I-I see. You’ve been nervous for a lot of things, haven’t you]
Perhaps she found it amusing that I was pure and not like she imagined because Hiiragi-san’s cheeks turned red and her mouth made a sly smile.
[What did you do for the New Year’s holiday?]
After my first part-time job at the beginning of the year, Hiiragi-san spoke to me in an unusually good mood. I didn’t often have this kind of leisurely talk with her, so I was a little confused, but I still responded to her question.
[…I was home all the time basically. I didn’t go out for anything in particular. Oh, but I did go to the shrine for Hatsumode]
It was not as if I was doing anything wrong, but if I said that I was at someone else’s house, people might look at me strangely, so I decided to hide it. Even though it’s someone else’s, it’s still a home, so I didn’t exactly lie.
[Is that so… Um… Was it with the girl you mentioned before?]
[Y-Yeah, well…]
My eyes wandered for a moment as I was thinking, and then she looked straight at me. Our eyes met and I can see that her eyes seem to shine with interest.
I felt a bit uncomfortable with her unusually aggressive questioning, but since Hiiragi-san was also a girl, she might’ve been expecting something romantic to happen. Anyone talking about a man and a woman would expect some kind of romance, so I guess Hiiragi-san also expected it.
Since Hiiragi-san was so interested, I decided to talk about it.
[She was getting attached to me, or rather, she began to trust me very much, is what we talked about before, right?]
[Yes, I’m pretty sure you’re close to her, right?]
[Yes, I’m very happy about that, but there’s one problem. I’m not sure if she trusts me too much, because her sense of distance is too close. I can’t tell you how many times I got nervous during Hatsumode]
I let out a small sigh as I remembered the day of our Hatsumode trip. A lot happened that day, but one of the most notable events was when we held hands.
I didn’t mind, and as a guy, I was happy, but she should be more aware of how attractive she was. I wasn’t trying to think of her as someone of the opposite gender, but when she approaches me so aggressively, there’s no way I could do that.
[What?! Y-You were nervous?]
For some reason, Hiiragi-san raised her voice in surprise when I told her about it. Her eyes opened wide and her cheeks blushed slightly. I nodded my head, wondering why she was so flustered.
[Y-Yes, I was… Are you that surprised?]
[N-No, I didn’t have that kind of image of you at all]
She had a point. I dressed up appropriately for my part-time job, and I also spoke somewhat softly when I worked.
I had to change my way of speaking because my usual blunt speech is not good for my work. And if I change the way I talk, it’ll be harder for anyone to recognize me if they ever come here.
Of course this is not my true nature, so when I’m at my part-time job, it feels close to putting up a facade.
In my normal life, I’d get tired quickly so I definitely wouldn’t do it. If it’s the work me, then it’s supposed to be an atmosphere that’s easy to talk in, so I think of it as practice for being around girls.
[I try to be as unconscious of her as possible. But if she gets close to me, I’ll still be conscious and nervous]
[I-Is that so…]
Hiiragi-san replied with her shoulders narrowed, but for some reason, she was blushing a little and her mouth relaxed. She seemed to still have something on her mind and glanced at me, then hesitantly asked me again.
[That… What made you so nervous?]
[Well, that’s…]
[It’s fine right? It’s not like she’s going to find out]
I was too embarrassed to tell her more, but she seemed to really want to know, and clearly said so. She said it in a very passionate tone, and her words put me on edge.
[Hmm, well, that’s right. Her clothes were more feminine than I thought, and when she teased me, I was a little nervous. But the one event that made me nervous the most was… When we were holding hands. I couldn’t keep my composure that time]
Even remembering it now, made my face hot. The feeling of her soft, slightly cold hand. The moment when she squeezed mine with hers as well. I felt as if she wanted me, and my heart felt as if it was being gripped. At that time, I was really conscious of her as the opposite gender, and I couldn’t stop my face from turning red.
[I-I see. You’ve been nervous for a lot of things, haven’t you]
Perhaps she found it amusing that I was pure and not like she imagined because Hiiragi-san’s cheeks turned red and her mouth made a sly smile.
