TL: looloo
Schedule: 4/Week Wed-Sat
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From morning, I sat at the desk, blankly tapping on my smartphone.
For the next three days, there would be no Yeonho.
There had consistently been days when I couldn’t see his face, and surely, there were times when we didn’t meet for two or three days.
But this time, the place where he was proved difficult to visit even if I wanted to see him, so I felt an emptiness in a corner of my heart more than ever.
What did the old me do when I was alone? I didn’t have any particular memories of joyfully doing something.
Maybe I would talk with my family or study. Occasionally meet with friends.
That would have been about it.
Even when I met with friends, we didn’t spend a long time outside.
Whether it was because I was focused on my studies, or because most of the friends around me were similar, when we met, our conversations were mostly about school life and studying, and that was still the case now.
Recently, when talking with friends, sometimes the topic of romance would come up, but I didn’t particularly want to boast about Yeonho.
It was okay if only I knew about the good points of Yeonho.
However, precisely because of that, now that Yeonho isn’t here and I’m left alone,
I didn’t know how to fill this emptiness.
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Raei TranslationsThe original appearance of this chapter can be found at Ñøv€lß1n.
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"Lee Heena! What are you doing?"
"...Studying."
"Your boyfriend? Ah, he went out today, didn't he?"
"Mhm."
I had welcomed my brother who had just returned home from his military service, but I had no energy left to pay him any attention.
If our relationship hadn’t been a bit messy, he would surely have been a beloved brother.
Surprisingly, I couldn’t care less.
I just lifted my pen to the textbook, while my eyes were only on my phone.
"You were always making a fuss with calls and texts to Yeonho, so that's why it’s been quiet?"
"Get out."
"Hey hey, give it a rest. I heard from Dad that you..."
"I said, get out, didn’t I?"
"....Study hard.."
I glared at my oppa, my voice simmering with quiet irritation.
But that only lasted a moment.
-Quickly, I grabbed my buzzing phone to check the message.
[ Yeonho♡ : We still have an hour left... I want to get off... ]
The anxiety still occupying a corner of my heart had me asking Yeonho to text her every 30 minutes.
That alone must have been bothersome, but thankfully, Yeonho was sending messages even more frequently than asked.
Feeling relieved at his message, but also worried about him getting motion sickness due to how prone he was to it, I offered some advice.
And, trying hard to ignore my steadily rising anxiety, I filmed a video to send him. My worry was one thing, but I also wanted to ensure he didn’t forget me, even for a moment.
An hour later, he sent a video along with photos.
It was a video of the same content as the one I’d sent.
The moment I watched it, I screamed involuntarily.
"So adorable!!"
Yeonho now, slightly different from when he was in university, sometimes made her a bit sad when he didn’t do the things he used to do, or didn’t remember things she recalled.
But whenever I saw these youthful aspects of him as a highschool student,
It felt like opening a new treasure box every day.
Immediately after showing off that utterly cute video of Yeonho to my mom and oppa, I thought as I laid on my bed.
Gradually, as I got closer to him.
As he showed new sides of him, similar yet different from his old self.
As I realized my love, which I thought had reached its limit, could still grow even more.
I found myself wishing.
How nice it would be if I could just keep Yeonho in my pocket.
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All day, every time I sent a message, I hesitated, wondering if he might find it bothersome, but I couldn’t stop conversing with him.
Even though I mentally told myself to stop, this heart and these fingers slipped out of my control.
Although there might be times he responds late since he could be spending time with a friend, I kept becoming greedier with him because he answers all my messages.
[ Yeonho♡ : Woof woof! ]
[ Heena : Are you pretending to be a puppy? Next time we go to an amusement park, you're wearing dog ears, okay? ]
[ Yeonho♡ : Only if you wear cat ears. Deal? ]
And whenever we have such conversations, I imagine us, in my mind, wandering through the amusement park, each of us wearing animal ears.
I missed him so much.
Yeonho with puppy ears, and the current Yeonho.
How long would it take to get to Yangyang? Retracting thoughts that oppa surely must have his driving license, I once again sent him a video.
[ Heena : (Video) Meow~ ]
A bit embarrassed, but believing that Yeonho, who likes cute things, would surely be delighted, I sent the video. I felt satisfied with Yeonho’s very fond reaction but soon sigh at the abruptly ended message exchange.
Time seemed to stand still.
I couldn’t believe I had to wait another two days.
Thus, the first day sent in that manner passed.
The second day of Yeonho's trip.
From the morning, I did a wake-up call and sent messages all day. Besides that, nothing else at home could hold my attention.
Even though we met so often, and even though he would return tomorrow.
Why do I miss him so much?
Except when I was eating or bathing, I laid on my desk and looked only at my phone again today.
Lunch passed.
And then dinner.
And so I waited until the next day came.
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The day Yeonho returns.
Even though I told him to rest at home today because he must be tired, my heart was relieved knowing that we were close enough to see each other anytime we wanted.
The same emotions, the same heartbeat as yesterday, even not seeing Yeonho, it was still fiercely stirring inside me.
After he got into the car, my heart warms even more by his thoughtfulness, sending messages every short while just for me.
So, what should I wear to meet Yeonho tomorrow?
Won't my heart burst the moment I see him?
Such silly thoughts brought a lone chuckle to my lips around lunchtime, as I was trying to concentrate a bit on my studies while listening to the rain.
"I'm in front of your apartment right now."
A sudden call from Yeonho came.
At his unexpected visit.
I was flustered, surprised, joyful, and at the same time, happy.
Suppressing emotions that felt like they would turn into tears.
I threw on an additional cardigan, grabbed an umbrella, and dashed outside.
"Huh? Hey! Where are you going?"
Oppa followed me, perhaps worried about my hurried movements, but this wasn’t the time to worry about such things.
When I rushed to the front of the apartment, I saw Yeonho waiting for me under the awning across the building.
Unable to control my rising smile, I ran into his arms, charging up on the Yeonho ingredients I’d been lacking over the past two days.
Yes, that's right. I didn’t need anything else.
If only Yeonho is by my side, I can be this happy.
Moreover, since oppa had followed me, it seemed like a good time to introduce him. The moment I opened my mouth to do so.
"Listen, Yeonho. Over there, look..."
My words were cut off as Yeonho overlapped his lips with mine.
Yeonho too, must have wanted to see me. That’s why he couldn’t control his feelings and came all the way here.
He's kissing me as if quenching a thirst.
"I missed you so much, I came without saying anything; is that okay?"
Of course, it’s okay.
Come whenever, and as many times as you want.
"I've been in big trouble, thinking about you all day."
If you come to me this many times and whisper such sweet words.
I really don’t need anything else in the world.
I love you.
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Talking in the rain was not an ideal situation, so I brought them into a cafe that Yeonho and I often visited.
With a secretly fluttering heart, I concealed my excitement as Oppa fed Yeonho the drink and cake he had bought.
"Heeseong hyung? Honestly, at first, I was scared because he seemed like he'd be a bit wild, but once we talked, we got along well. We even have similar gaming tastes."
"You cheeky brat, how dare you talk back to your elder? Especially while using the laptop I bought you?"
"Ah, when Heena visited you in the hospital, you told me to work on assignments with this. Wait, I'll be done in 10 minutes. I’ll play with you after."
I wished they would get along well just like that moment. Of course, the circumstances of their first meeting were quite different now, but somehow, I felt they could become friends.
Moreover, I wasn’t sure what he had heard from our parents, but it seemed he already harbored positive feelings towards Yeonho.
If it were the oppa I know, if he didn’t approve, he would’ve already left.
Observing the two awkwardly exchange names and chat, I excused myself for a moment under the pretext of a phone call.
Indeed, my mother did call, but I gave them a little more time to talk alone.
When I returned after about 20 minutes.
As I had hoped.
As I remembered.
They were conversing with smiles.
Just like before.
Pleased, an uncontrollable smile came upon me, a somehow happy feeling, as I slowly made my way back to the table.
"Sorry~ Took a bit longer, didn’t it? The call dragged on...Yeonho?"
But even when I approached.
Even when your loving girlfriend returned.
Not a single glance my way.
A tiny, absurd anxiety began to sprout.
Whether I sat down or not, they continued to focus on their conversation, which certainly was what I had hoped for.
"Do you want to try it at my place later? The first thing this brother did after being discharged was to fully set up a computer."
"Oppa!!"
I could no longer stand to just watch and interrupted them.
"...Yeonho?"
"Ah, you’re back?"
However, after a brief reply, he again did not look at me and only gazed at oppa.
What is it?
Why won’t you look at me? Why are you only looking at oppa?
"But I planned to study with Heena for the rest of the vacation..."
That's right! There's no time to play with oppa! You'll be with me!
"Come on the days you’re not. Do you have to come only to see her? I’ll give you my phone number, so contact me in advance if you're coming."
"Whoa, really? Thank you!"
Heat rose to my head, and I felt a dizziness.
Are you inviting my boyfriend, Yeonho, to play just the two of you, when I'm not around?
"Oppa, go home now! Yeonho and I are going to have a date!!"
While it was amusing to see myself getting jealous of my own brother, I couldn’t think rationally.
He was so focused in talking with oppa, he didn't even look at me.
He wasn't whispering words of love to me either.
"Quickly!! Yeonho! Am I important, or is brother important?!"
"Of course, it’s you."
"Then, what's more important, me or the game?!"
"...............You."
Why did he hesitate there?
Normally, no matter how much he loved the game, he would have said it was me without a second of hesitation.
Is it because he was talking with oppa?
Is it all because of oppa?
"Oppa, just go!! Leave!!"
I pushed oppa out right away, snuggling into Yeonho while acting childish, embarrassed by my own jealousy toward my family.
I wanted to maturely steer my relationship with Yeonho.
But this way, I was no different from an absolute child.
Yeonho, who was pacifying me with kisses and whispering pleasant words, was lovely and adorable.
But I was so ashamed of myself.
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Having erased yesterday's mishaps from my mind, I began studying again with Yeonho from today onward.
Now that our goal of attending the same university became clear, seeing him gradually becoming more enthusiastic about studying, I couldn’t casually teach him without effort.
I hoped that we would go to the same university.
If not, perhaps Yeonho could just completely...
Pushing the dark desires to a corner of my heart, I remembered that we've been studying for several hours, focusing more than usual.
While I could probably do more by observing Yeonho, I wrapped things up here because rushing and extending our study hours too rapidly could mentally exhaust us in a few days.
With our studying finished, I wanted to indulge in mischief again today, following yesterday, and was nestled against him when Yeonho proposed the next activity.
“Wanna go to karaoke?”
I was surprised at his words. Not because of the place he suggested – karaoke, but because it was the first time Yeonho had confidently asked me to go somewhere.
I always designated places I wanted us both to visit first, or mostly, we just roamed around and played wherever caught our eye.
"Yeah. We’ve never been there together, and I want to hear you sing. How about it? We can be alone there."
To be honest, I was slightly reluctant because I wasn’t confident in singing.
But it was a date invitation from Yeonho, and the fact that it was a place for just the two of us was enough to excite me.
I quickly changed my clothes and left the house.
The place with the karaoke wasn’t too far, so I leisurely walked there, linking arms with him.
"From now on, if you think of a place you want to go, tell me. I'll go with you anywhere, okay?"
In the midst, he gently stroked my cheek and said that.
Perhaps, just as I felt a greater longing for him during his absence these past few days, Yeonho might have felt a similar emotion.
Wishing that was the case, I followed him into the karaoke.
Entering the somewhat dark and closed-off space, my heart fluttered.
After scooping a few spoons of ice cream, which was free to eat, and placing it on the table, I approached him, who was holding the remote control.
And naturally climbed onto his lap.
"Do you... want to sing first?"
Of course, I knew that Yeonho had truly come here with that intention.
But in this private space, just singing songs felt too wasteful.
I couldn’t hold back.
"I thought we came to do this."
Saying so, I covered Yeonho's lips with mine.
I'm sorry, Yeonho.
But this is much more important to me.
Having not done so in two days, if I don’t do this ten times more...
With that thought, I forced my tongue in a little, and he accepts it as if he has no choice.
His lips, his saliva, his scent.
Feeling them all without missing a beat, and engraving them in my memory.
I pulled away.
"Sigh... Heena. I really came to sing."
I know. But it's a bit much to come to a place like this and not start with a kiss, right?
Concealing those inner feelings, I picked up the microphone and sang as he wished.
But.
"No, I’m not laughing...Pfft!! Hehehe─"
Yeonho, desperately trying to stifle his laughter, caught my eye even before I could get through a few verses.
I was aware of my poor singing, but seeing him laugh like that made me feel so embarrassed that I wanted to hide in a mouse hole.
Nevertheless, Yeonho looked so cool when he sang well.
Especially when he sang love songs to me, it felt as if I might faint.
So, I vowed that next time, I’d sing to him too.
After practicing a lot.
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Today, once again, I meet with Yeonho.
A day we decided to have a date before studying.
Even though yesterday ended somewhat awkwardly, as I expressed my embarrassment through a tantrum, today, I wanted to spend the whole day basking in Yeonho’s cuteness.
So, as soon as I met Yeonho, I kissed him and asked where we were going.
"Lee Heena!"
"Let's go. Just follow me today."
Yeonho, always with a warmly smiling face, strangely stiffened his expression, showing a dominant demeanor. A demeanor I'd never seen before, not in college, and not now.
It was almost like my oppa.
The moment that thought crossed my mind, my previously uplifted spirit cooled abruptly.
"Han Yeonho."
“Who taught you this?”
It’s unlikely that Yeonho himself would think of doing such a nonsensical thing, and there was no way such foolish advice existed on the internet.
Neither Yeonho’s family nor his friends would have taught him to act this way. Moreover, if a peer had mentioned this, Yeonho would surely have ignored it.
Even in our college days, he laughed off pointless advice on the subject of being single from friends.
Of course, he wouldn’t do this out of boredom, and I knew that it was an action taken because he wanted to add something special to our date.
I understood, but it was really not the direction I wanted.
Although unlikely, if Yeonho were to treat a girlfriend like oppa does...
If he were to learn from oppa, changing girlfriends almost every day...
I might truly go insane.
So, I cautiously restrained him and investigated the root cause.
"It's hard to tell me, isn’t it..."
Only after showing me that much did the perpetrator's name escape from Yeonho's lips.
Lee Heeseong.
Yes, of course, it would be oppa.
I was already uncomfortable with him getting overly friendly with Yeonho, but teaching our Yeonho this useless stuff?
Swallowing my anger, with a smiling face, I followed Yeonho again today.
Because Yeonho did nothing wrong.
Because it’s all oppa’s fault.
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The place he brought me to today is a room cafe, just a short distance from home.
According to him, it's a place with a lovely interior and delicious croffles.
Honestly, that didn’t matter much to me.
What mattered wasn’t the place itself, but the fact that Yeonho had sought out this spot for me.
I really wasn't into oppa's business, but after all, Yeonho had made an effort for our date.
"Thank you, Yeonho."
So, I expressed my gratitude sincerely.
His caring heart made me happy, no matter what.
If only he didn’t act like my oppa.
"What did you think about?"
"Um, about what might make you a bit happier?"
If he adds such loving words that wreck my emotions like this, I can’t help but feel my body heat up uncontrollably.
But there’s no need to rush, Yeonho.
Your mere existence makes me happy.
Just stay by my side.
If you ever want to do something more.
"And, you know already, don’t you?"
"Know what?"
"One of the things I love the most about you."
Yes. Your kisses are enough for me.
But I don’t want you to pull your lips away so quickly. I wish you would envelop me longer, deeper.
"And... you also know what words I love the most, right?"
The words I always say to you, the words you say to me.
"I love you, Heena."
His overflowing adorableness drew his head into my embrace.
Then, his rugged breathing felt against my chest, my body igniting as if aflame.
"I checked on the way here, and there was no one in the room next door."
Urging me, I unwittingly seduced him and drew him in.
Let it be that way for a moment.
As he let go of my arm and looked into my eyes, Yeonho said,
"You know, the croffles here look really good. I’ll go and buy some."
With that, he ran away.
It was slightly bewildering, but I respected his feelings nonetheless. His flushed face appeased my disappointment.
Still, the atmosphere had been really nice.
Should I boldly show more and try here and there?
Seeing his face, bringing croffles and drinks, in my mind, I was contemplating the next opportunity.
Only one step remains now.
Yeonho's love towards me has visibly grown.
Come to think of it, he had said it was extremely cute when I mimicked a cat.
I wonder if Yeonho would like cosplay.
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"Oppa, come here."
"What, why? You seem serious."
"Did you teach Yeonho something stupid?"
"What? He did that? Hey! He was the one who asked for advice—"
"So, you’re the one who taught him, then?"
"....That's true."
"Come here. I want to talk with you."
"Sigh.....Han Yeonho, this traitor...."
TL: looloo
Schedule: 4/Week Wed-Sat
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From morning, I sat at the desk, blankly tapping on my smartphone.
For the next three days, there would be no Yeonho.
There had consistently been days when I couldn’t see his face, and surely, there were times when we didn’t meet for two or three days.
But this time, the place where he was proved difficult to visit even if I wanted to see him, so I felt an emptiness in a corner of my heart more than ever.
What did the old me do when I was alone? I didn’t have any particular memories of joyfully doing something.
Maybe I would talk with my family or study. Occasionally meet with friends.
That would have been about it.
Even when I met with friends, we didn’t spend a long time outside.
Whether it was because I was focused on my studies, or because most of the friends around me were similar, when we met, our conversations were mostly about school life and studying, and that was still the case now.
Recently, when talking with friends, sometimes the topic of romance would come up, but I didn’t particularly want to boast about Yeonho.
It was okay if only I knew about the good points of Yeonho.
However, precisely because of that, now that Yeonho isn’t here and I’m left alone,
I didn’t know how to fill this emptiness.
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Raei TranslationsThe original appearance of this chapter can be found at Ñøv€lß1n.
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"Lee Heena! What are you doing?"
"...Studying."
"Your boyfriend? Ah, he went out today, didn't he?"
"Mhm."
I had welcomed my brother who had just returned home from his military service, but I had no energy left to pay him any attention.
If our relationship hadn’t been a bit messy, he would surely have been a beloved brother.
Surprisingly, I couldn’t care less.
I just lifted my pen to the textbook, while my eyes were only on my phone.
"You were always making a fuss with calls and texts to Yeonho, so that's why it’s been quiet?"
"Get out."
"Hey hey, give it a rest. I heard from Dad that you..."
"I said, get out, didn’t I?"
"....Study hard.."
I glared at my oppa, my voice simmering with quiet irritation.
But that only lasted a moment.
-Quickly, I grabbed my buzzing phone to check the message.
[ Yeonho♡ : We still have an hour left... I want to get off... ]
The anxiety still occupying a corner of my heart had me asking Yeonho to text her every 30 minutes.
That alone must have been bothersome, but thankfully, Yeonho was sending messages even more frequently than asked.
Feeling relieved at his message, but also worried about him getting motion sickness due to how prone he was to it, I offered some advice.
And, trying hard to ignore my steadily rising anxiety, I filmed a video to send him. My worry was one thing, but I also wanted to ensure he didn’t forget me, even for a moment.
An hour later, he sent a video along with photos.
It was a video of the same content as the one I’d sent.
The moment I watched it, I screamed involuntarily.
"So adorable!!"
Yeonho now, slightly different from when he was in university, sometimes made her a bit sad when he didn’t do the things he used to do, or didn’t remember things she recalled.
But whenever I saw these youthful aspects of him as a highschool student,
It felt like opening a new treasure box every day.
Immediately after showing off that utterly cute video of Yeonho to my mom and oppa, I thought as I laid on my bed.
Gradually, as I got closer to him.
As he showed new sides of him, similar yet different from his old self.
As I realized my love, which I thought had reached its limit, could still grow even more.
I found myself wishing.
How nice it would be if I could just keep Yeonho in my pocket.
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All day, every time I sent a message, I hesitated, wondering if he might find it bothersome, but I couldn’t stop conversing with him.
Even though I mentally told myself to stop, this heart and these fingers slipped out of my control.
Although there might be times he responds late since he could be spending time with a friend, I kept becoming greedier with him because he answers all my messages.
[ Yeonho♡ : Woof woof! ]
[ Heena : Are you pretending to be a puppy? Next time we go to an amusement park, you're wearing dog ears, okay? ]
[ Yeonho♡ : Only if you wear cat ears. Deal? ]
And whenever we have such conversations, I imagine us, in my mind, wandering through the amusement park, each of us wearing animal ears.
I missed him so much.
Yeonho with puppy ears, and the current Yeonho.
How long would it take to get to Yangyang? Retracting thoughts that oppa surely must have his driving license, I once again sent him a video.
[ Heena : (Video) Meow~ ]
A bit embarrassed, but believing that Yeonho, who likes cute things, would surely be delighted, I sent the video. I felt satisfied with Yeonho’s very fond reaction but soon sigh at the abruptly ended message exchange.
Time seemed to stand still.
I couldn’t believe I had to wait another two days.
Thus, the first day sent in that manner passed.
The second day of Yeonho's trip.
From the morning, I did a wake-up call and sent messages all day. Besides that, nothing else at home could hold my attention.
Even though we met so often, and even though he would return tomorrow.
Why do I miss him so much?
Except when I was eating or bathing, I laid on my desk and looked only at my phone again today.
Lunch passed.
And then dinner.
And so I waited until the next day came.
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The day Yeonho returns.
Even though I told him to rest at home today because he must be tired, my heart was relieved knowing that we were close enough to see each other anytime we wanted.
The same emotions, the same heartbeat as yesterday, even not seeing Yeonho, it was still fiercely stirring inside me.
After he got into the car, my heart warms even more by his thoughtfulness, sending messages every short while just for me.
So, what should I wear to meet Yeonho tomorrow?
Won't my heart burst the moment I see him?
Such silly thoughts brought a lone chuckle to my lips around lunchtime, as I was trying to concentrate a bit on my studies while listening to the rain.
"I'm in front of your apartment right now."
A sudden call from Yeonho came.
At his unexpected visit.
I was flustered, surprised, joyful, and at the same time, happy.
Suppressing emotions that felt like they would turn into tears.
I threw on an additional cardigan, grabbed an umbrella, and dashed outside.
"Huh? Hey! Where are you going?"
Oppa followed me, perhaps worried about my hurried movements, but this wasn’t the time to worry about such things.
When I rushed to the front of the apartment, I saw Yeonho waiting for me under the awning across the building.
Unable to control my rising smile, I ran into his arms, charging up on the Yeonho ingredients I’d been lacking over the past two days.
Yes, that's right. I didn’t need anything else.
If only Yeonho is by my side, I can be this happy.
Moreover, since oppa had followed me, it seemed like a good time to introduce him. The moment I opened my mouth to do so.
"Listen, Yeonho. Over there, look..."
My words were cut off as Yeonho overlapped his lips with mine.
Yeonho too, must have wanted to see me. That’s why he couldn’t control his feelings and came all the way here.
He's kissing me as if quenching a thirst.
"I missed you so much, I came without saying anything; is that okay?"
Of course, it’s okay.
Come whenever, and as many times as you want.
"I've been in big trouble, thinking about you all day."
If you come to me this many times and whisper such sweet words.
I really don’t need anything else in the world.
I love you.
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Talking in the rain was not an ideal situation, so I brought them into a cafe that Yeonho and I often visited.
With a secretly fluttering heart, I concealed my excitement as Oppa fed Yeonho the drink and cake he had bought.
"Heeseong hyung? Honestly, at first, I was scared because he seemed like he'd be a bit wild, but once we talked, we got along well. We even have similar gaming tastes."
"You cheeky brat, how dare you talk back to your elder? Especially while using the laptop I bought you?"
"Ah, when Heena visited you in the hospital, you told me to work on assignments with this. Wait, I'll be done in 10 minutes. I’ll play with you after."
I wished they would get along well just like that moment. Of course, the circumstances of their first meeting were quite different now, but somehow, I felt they could become friends.
Moreover, I wasn’t sure what he had heard from our parents, but it seemed he already harbored positive feelings towards Yeonho.
If it were the oppa I know, if he didn’t approve, he would’ve already left.
Observing the two awkwardly exchange names and chat, I excused myself for a moment under the pretext of a phone call.
Indeed, my mother did call, but I gave them a little more time to talk alone.
When I returned after about 20 minutes.
As I had hoped.
As I remembered.
They were conversing with smiles.
Just like before.
Pleased, an uncontrollable smile came upon me, a somehow happy feeling, as I slowly made my way back to the table.
"Sorry~ Took a bit longer, didn’t it? The call dragged on...Yeonho?"
But even when I approached.
Even when your loving girlfriend returned.
Not a single glance my way.
A tiny, absurd anxiety began to sprout.
Whether I sat down or not, they continued to focus on their conversation, which certainly was what I had hoped for.
"Do you want to try it at my place later? The first thing this brother did after being discharged was to fully set up a computer."
"Oppa!!"
I could no longer stand to just watch and interrupted them.
"...Yeonho?"
"Ah, you’re back?"
However, after a brief reply, he again did not look at me and only gazed at oppa.
What is it?
Why won’t you look at me? Why are you only looking at oppa?
"But I planned to study with Heena for the rest of the vacation..."
That's right! There's no time to play with oppa! You'll be with me!
"Come on the days you’re not. Do you have to come only to see her? I’ll give you my phone number, so contact me in advance if you're coming."
"Whoa, really? Thank you!"
Heat rose to my head, and I felt a dizziness.
Are you inviting my boyfriend, Yeonho, to play just the two of you, when I'm not around?
"Oppa, go home now! Yeonho and I are going to have a date!!"
While it was amusing to see myself getting jealous of my own brother, I couldn’t think rationally.
He was so focused in talking with oppa, he didn't even look at me.
He wasn't whispering words of love to me either.
"Quickly!! Yeonho! Am I important, or is brother important?!"
"Of course, it’s you."
"Then, what's more important, me or the game?!"
"...............You."
Why did he hesitate there?
Normally, no matter how much he loved the game, he would have said it was me without a second of hesitation.
Is it because he was talking with oppa?
Is it all because of oppa?
"Oppa, just go!! Leave!!"
I pushed oppa out right away, snuggling into Yeonho while acting childish, embarrassed by my own jealousy toward my family.
I wanted to maturely steer my relationship with Yeonho.
But this way, I was no different from an absolute child.
Yeonho, who was pacifying me with kisses and whispering pleasant words, was lovely and adorable.
But I was so ashamed of myself.
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Having erased yesterday's mishaps from my mind, I began studying again with Yeonho from today onward.
Now that our goal of attending the same university became clear, seeing him gradually becoming more enthusiastic about studying, I couldn’t casually teach him without effort.
I hoped that we would go to the same university.
If not, perhaps Yeonho could just completely...
Pushing the dark desires to a corner of my heart, I remembered that we've been studying for several hours, focusing more than usual.
While I could probably do more by observing Yeonho, I wrapped things up here because rushing and extending our study hours too rapidly could mentally exhaust us in a few days.
With our studying finished, I wanted to indulge in mischief again today, following yesterday, and was nestled against him when Yeonho proposed the next activity.
“Wanna go to karaoke?”
I was surprised at his words. Not because of the place he suggested – karaoke, but because it was the first time Yeonho had confidently asked me to go somewhere.
I always designated places I wanted us both to visit first, or mostly, we just roamed around and played wherever caught our eye.
"Yeah. We’ve never been there together, and I want to hear you sing. How about it? We can be alone there."
To be honest, I was slightly reluctant because I wasn’t confident in singing.
But it was a date invitation from Yeonho, and the fact that it was a place for just the two of us was enough to excite me.
I quickly changed my clothes and left the house.
The place with the karaoke wasn’t too far, so I leisurely walked there, linking arms with him.
"From now on, if you think of a place you want to go, tell me. I'll go with you anywhere, okay?"
In the midst, he gently stroked my cheek and said that.
Perhaps, just as I felt a greater longing for him during his absence these past few days, Yeonho might have felt a similar emotion.
Wishing that was the case, I followed him into the karaoke.
Entering the somewhat dark and closed-off space, my heart fluttered.
After scooping a few spoons of ice cream, which was free to eat, and placing it on the table, I approached him, who was holding the remote control.
And naturally climbed onto his lap.
"Do you... want to sing first?"
Of course, I knew that Yeonho had truly come here with that intention.
But in this private space, just singing songs felt too wasteful.
I couldn’t hold back.
"I thought we came to do this."
Saying so, I covered Yeonho's lips with mine.
I'm sorry, Yeonho.
But this is much more important to me.
Having not done so in two days, if I don’t do this ten times more...
With that thought, I forced my tongue in a little, and he accepts it as if he has no choice.
His lips, his saliva, his scent.
Feeling them all without missing a beat, and engraving them in my memory.
I pulled away.
"Sigh... Heena. I really came to sing."
I know. But it's a bit much to come to a place like this and not start with a kiss, right?
Concealing those inner feelings, I picked up the microphone and sang as he wished.
But.
"No, I’m not laughing...Pfft!! Hehehe─"
Yeonho, desperately trying to stifle his laughter, caught my eye even before I could get through a few verses.
I was aware of my poor singing, but seeing him laugh like that made me feel so embarrassed that I wanted to hide in a mouse hole.
Nevertheless, Yeonho looked so cool when he sang well.
Especially when he sang love songs to me, it felt as if I might faint.
So, I vowed that next time, I’d sing to him too.
After practicing a lot.
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Today, once again, I meet with Yeonho.
A day we decided to have a date before studying.
Even though yesterday ended somewhat awkwardly, as I expressed my embarrassment through a tantrum, today, I wanted to spend the whole day basking in Yeonho’s cuteness.
So, as soon as I met Yeonho, I kissed him and asked where we were going.
"Lee Heena!"
"Let's go. Just follow me today."
Yeonho, always with a warmly smiling face, strangely stiffened his expression, showing a dominant demeanor. A demeanor I'd never seen before, not in college, and not now.
It was almost like my oppa.
The moment that thought crossed my mind, my previously uplifted spirit cooled abruptly.
"Han Yeonho."
“Who taught you this?”
It’s unlikely that Yeonho himself would think of doing such a nonsensical thing, and there was no way such foolish advice existed on the internet.
Neither Yeonho’s family nor his friends would have taught him to act this way. Moreover, if a peer had mentioned this, Yeonho would surely have ignored it.
Even in our college days, he laughed off pointless advice on the subject of being single from friends.
Of course, he wouldn’t do this out of boredom, and I knew that it was an action taken because he wanted to add something special to our date.
I understood, but it was really not the direction I wanted.
Although unlikely, if Yeonho were to treat a girlfriend like oppa does...
If he were to learn from oppa, changing girlfriends almost every day...
I might truly go insane.
So, I cautiously restrained him and investigated the root cause.
"It's hard to tell me, isn’t it..."
Only after showing me that much did the perpetrator's name escape from Yeonho's lips.
Lee Heeseong.
Yes, of course, it would be oppa.
I was already uncomfortable with him getting overly friendly with Yeonho, but teaching our Yeonho this useless stuff?
Swallowing my anger, with a smiling face, I followed Yeonho again today.
Because Yeonho did nothing wrong.
Because it’s all oppa’s fault.
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The place he brought me to today is a room cafe, just a short distance from home.
According to him, it's a place with a lovely interior and delicious croffles.
Honestly, that didn’t matter much to me.
What mattered wasn’t the place itself, but the fact that Yeonho had sought out this spot for me.
I really wasn't into oppa's business, but after all, Yeonho had made an effort for our date.
"Thank you, Yeonho."
So, I expressed my gratitude sincerely.
His caring heart made me happy, no matter what.
If only he didn’t act like my oppa.
"What did you think about?"
"Um, about what might make you a bit happier?"
If he adds such loving words that wreck my emotions like this, I can’t help but feel my body heat up uncontrollably.
But there’s no need to rush, Yeonho.
Your mere existence makes me happy.
Just stay by my side.
If you ever want to do something more.
"And, you know already, don’t you?"
"Know what?"
"One of the things I love the most about you."
Yes. Your kisses are enough for me.
But I don’t want you to pull your lips away so quickly. I wish you would envelop me longer, deeper.
"And... you also know what words I love the most, right?"
The words I always say to you, the words you say to me.
"I love you, Heena."
His overflowing adorableness drew his head into my embrace.
Then, his rugged breathing felt against my chest, my body igniting as if aflame.
"I checked on the way here, and there was no one in the room next door."
Urging me, I unwittingly seduced him and drew him in.
Let it be that way for a moment.
As he let go of my arm and looked into my eyes, Yeonho said,
"You know, the croffles here look really good. I’ll go and buy some."
With that, he ran away.
It was slightly bewildering, but I respected his feelings nonetheless. His flushed face appeased my disappointment.
Still, the atmosphere had been really nice.
Should I boldly show more and try here and there?
Seeing his face, bringing croffles and drinks, in my mind, I was contemplating the next opportunity.
Only one step remains now.
Yeonho's love towards me has visibly grown.
Come to think of it, he had said it was extremely cute when I mimicked a cat.
I wonder if Yeonho would like cosplay.
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Raei Translations
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"Oppa, come here."
"What, why? You seem serious."
"Did you teach Yeonho something stupid?"
"What? He did that? Hey! He was the one who asked for advice—"
"So, you’re the one who taught him, then?"
"....That's true."
"Come here. I want to talk with you."
"Sigh.....Han Yeonho, this traitor...."
