Chapter 154: Fear And Feelings.
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CHAPTER 152
Reading more on the history from where she had stopped previously she saw that his lineage had always lived and thrived in peace with little or no need for expansion.
They did not have a major problem, most of the royals had lived their life the best way they could.
Regardless of how enticing the story was made into, she knew there would be more about the history.
Letting the scroll fall from her hand and unto her side, she rolled over on the bed to her side and let her eyes drop close.
"If only he would let me have access. Then it would be okay. I just feel like I have a lot of knowing to do and not until I do, I would not be able to get what I want."
This wasn't easy and Era knew. But even in that situation her mind could only go over to one persona and that was him.
She had heard from Aevwriw that some ministers have been whispering about some strange happenings on the palace but no o e dared voice out what was going in.
Unlike Vidor who got right tips on her daily affairs, she was blind when it came to Jim and it worried her.
What nuisance was he causing or what wrong was he doing this time in her abscene?
Had he taken his anger for her and visited it on another nation?
If he had wanted to do so it would not be a hard thing to do. Regardless she did not hear any such news and could only imagine.
In all, she could not get the thought of him out of her head. Whether or not it was bad or good, it didn't matter. Only Vidor remained in her mind.
For a long while she laid there clutching her hands closer to her chest as thoughts of the few little times they had been together flashed in her mind.
At the market place, where he bought her the gifts, later on when he kissed her.
Badum! Badum!
Instantly, her heart began to dance happily to a melody she knew not of but she wasn't frightened and just remained still as though she was reliving the scene again.
Though it happened a bit fast in reality, bit in her mind, time went still and the moment was so intensely slow.
Everything about it, his lips, the kiss, the warmth, the softness, the fear, yet the joy and the way her mind and body felt.
Just when she was about thinking of the bitter sweet memory, she recalled his chambers and the same feeling and kiss.
This time it was linger than the first and just like all of his gazes on her face that day, she felt how much he wanted to just do more than kiss on her lips but she was not ready.
Her heart, mind and soul was confused and could only become still again.
Though now in her heart, she wondered what would have been had she given in and allowed him to go hither?
Would she have had to wnjoy the ceel of his soft warmth some more? Would it had been repulsive or woukd it had bwen breathtaking giving her a knew warm feeling.
Swveral questions played in jer head about that incisdent but now she would not know wbcause she oushed him away just like before and made him say those naughty annoying words to her like some war pervert.
Once more the fear she had felt that day and the pain and hate resurfaced but when she looked back and recalled what led her there in the first place, her felt a stab of pain go through her heart.
Just then the memory of his hurt hand flashed before her eyes and she felt her heart clench from it and immediately stood up.
He was hurt no doubt and she failed to check up on him.
Without thinking twice about anyrhing, she had raced to the door of her chambers and was about opening the door when she recalled Louis was there. They had the physician so why was she bothered?
Shaking her head, she made a turn around when she felt small hands circling around her waist and she halted.
She had been through thinking too much about Vidor that she failed to notice Eleora's waking up.
Perhaps her frantic movement had made her sister frightened and the little girl clung into her with great strength.
She paused, willing her mind to calm down. Rather than rushing over for one who chased her away, she had a young one looking forward to her love and warmth.
Letting out a sigh, Era pulled her sister's hand free and turned to her then fell on her knees before Eleora.
"My love."
"Don't go. Do not leave me alone again."
"Eleora." She lowered her gaze a bit. She knew that look in her sister's eyes. She was scared. So scared.
"I wouldn't leave you. I promise. We are sisters, for life and nothing can separate our bond."
"I felt it. You felt scared and was worried and you ran away. Was it me? Did I do something wrong? I kept my powers at bay."
"No. No. No, darling. You did nothing wrong. I am so sorry. I was bothered but I wasn't scared of you or anything. I was just worried since I hadn't checked on someone. You know what, you do not have to worry about that for now. Come with me."
Era stood up and picked sister up as well then lead the little girl to the bed and sat down with Eleora on her thighs.
"I love you, Ora but you know that the two weeks had come to an end."
Eleora nodded her head sadly. Yes the two weeks were up and it was time to give her away.
"I do not want to leave you again."
"No. You are not leaving me. Even staying here with me is more dangerous. There are wicked eyes in the palace watching my every move. I cannot afford for anything to happen to you. You are just too precious to me for me to let that, baby. You need to know this."
"That's why you need me here to protect you."
"I appreciate the offer you need to have a life outside me. I want to give you an opportunity to spread your wings. Trust me, you would love it there."
"Just let me stay with you."
"I knew when this day would come you would be reluctant to want to leave me. You were like this when I was yo leave for Etheria you know."
"I missed you and it was hard for mum to console me," Eleora confessed, hugging Era closely, not letting go.
"I am sorry but as a princess of Meribia it is my duty to do what is right for my people."
"Sacrificing your happiness?"
"Yes even though I lost thwm by that same very happiness but as a ruler your people first and keeping you safe is another good thing to do. You are Meribia's true heir and ruler."
"But she is gone. Everyone's gone."
"No. Meribia still lives in and so would her people in you. In your heart, through you, Meribia would be reborn. I believe so."
"But I only want to do that with you and nothing more."
"I understand but you are the heart fi Meribia now as I am the heart of Etheria. You need to survive and live, no matter what. Our people cannot die like that. Perhaps this was the reason why Meribia's throne was blessed with a special child. You are to lead on, Eleora. You are what this world needs. Never forget that. "
"I won't but you would live to see it with me."
"No matter what, dead or alive, know that I would always be by yiur side to guide and protect you and that is why I am sending you there. You would love it. All of it. You would have friends, like families and one day they would sit with you when Meribia is born again under your guidance."
Inasmuch as Era's words were soothing, it was scary for Eleora.
"Fine," Eleora pulled back and looked up at Era with teary eyes. "I would go but promise to visit me often?"
"Definitely. As often as I can that would jot arouse suspicion as well. Anyways be rest assured. I would send you treats from time to time too. You would be fine."
"Together?"
"Together. Now smile for me. I would be here with you today. We can play as much as we want if you like."
"As much as I like that but..." Eleora paused. Perhaps it was not time yet to say this.
She was tempered to speak about Vidor but she needed her sister for tonight. When she was gone, Vidor could come into play.
"What is it, Ele?"
"No, it is all good. I would be a good girl and wait for you."
"That's my girl."
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CHAPTER 152
Reading more on the history from where she had stopped previously she saw that his lineage had always lived and thrived in peace with little or no need for expansion.
They did not have a major problem, most of the royals had lived their life the best way they could.
Regardless of how enticing the story was made into, she knew there would be more about the history.
Letting the scroll fall from her hand and unto her side, she rolled over on the bed to her side and let her eyes drop close.
"If only he would let me have access. Then it would be okay. I just feel like I have a lot of knowing to do and not until I do, I would not be able to get what I want."
This wasn't easy and Era knew. But even in that situation her mind could only go over to one persona and that was him.
She had heard from Aevwriw that some ministers have been whispering about some strange happenings on the palace but no o e dared voice out what was going in.
Unlike Vidor who got right tips on her daily affairs, she was blind when it came to Jim and it worried her.
What nuisance was he causing or what wrong was he doing this time in her abscene?
Had he taken his anger for her and visited it on another nation?
If he had wanted to do so it would not be a hard thing to do. Regardless she did not hear any such news and could only imagine.
In all, she could not get the thought of him out of her head. Whether or not it was bad or good, it didn't matter. Only Vidor remained in her mind.
For a long while she laid there clutching her hands closer to her chest as thoughts of the few little times they had been together flashed in her mind.
At the market place, where he bought her the gifts, later on when he kissed her.
Badum! Badum!
Instantly, her heart began to dance happily to a melody she knew not of but she wasn't frightened and just remained still as though she was reliving the scene again.
Though it happened a bit fast in reality, bit in her mind, time went still and the moment was so intensely slow.
Everything about it, his lips, the kiss, the warmth, the softness, the fear, yet the joy and the way her mind and body felt.
Just when she was about thinking of the bitter sweet memory, she recalled his chambers and the same feeling and kiss.
This time it was linger than the first and just like all of his gazes on her face that day, she felt how much he wanted to just do more than kiss on her lips but she was not ready.
Her heart, mind and soul was confused and could only become still again.
Though now in her heart, she wondered what would have been had she given in and allowed him to go hither?
Would she have had to wnjoy the ceel of his soft warmth some more? Would it had been repulsive or woukd it had bwen breathtaking giving her a knew warm feeling.
Swveral questions played in jer head about that incisdent but now she would not know wbcause she oushed him away just like before and made him say those naughty annoying words to her like some war pervert.
Once more the fear she had felt that day and the pain and hate resurfaced but when she looked back and recalled what led her there in the first place, her felt a stab of pain go through her heart.
Just then the memory of his hurt hand flashed before her eyes and she felt her heart clench from it and immediately stood up.
He was hurt no doubt and she failed to check up on him.
Without thinking twice about anyrhing, she had raced to the door of her chambers and was about opening the door when she recalled Louis was there. They had the physician so why was she bothered?
Shaking her head, she made a turn around when she felt small hands circling around her waist and she halted.
She had been through thinking too much about Vidor that she failed to notice Eleora's waking up.
Perhaps her frantic movement had made her sister frightened and the little girl clung into her with great strength.
She paused, willing her mind to calm down. Rather than rushing over for one who chased her away, she had a young one looking forward to her love and warmth.
Letting out a sigh, Era pulled her sister's hand free and turned to her then fell on her knees before Eleora.
"My love."
"Don't go. Do not leave me alone again."
"Eleora." She lowered her gaze a bit. She knew that look in her sister's eyes. She was scared. So scared.
"I wouldn't leave you. I promise. We are sisters, for life and nothing can separate our bond."
"I felt it. You felt scared and was worried and you ran away. Was it me? Did I do something wrong? I kept my powers at bay."
"No. No. No, darling. You did nothing wrong. I am so sorry. I was bothered but I wasn't scared of you or anything. I was just worried since I hadn't checked on someone. You know what, you do not have to worry about that for now. Come with me."
Era stood up and picked sister up as well then lead the little girl to the bed and sat down with Eleora on her thighs.
"I love you, Ora but you know that the two weeks had come to an end."
Eleora nodded her head sadly. Yes the two weeks were up and it was time to give her away.
"I do not want to leave you again."
"No. You are not leaving me. Even staying here with me is more dangerous. There are wicked eyes in the palace watching my every move. I cannot afford for anything to happen to you. You are just too precious to me for me to let that, baby. You need to know this."
"That's why you need me here to protect you."
"I appreciate the offer you need to have a life outside me. I want to give you an opportunity to spread your wings. Trust me, you would love it there."
"Just let me stay with you."
"I knew when this day would come you would be reluctant to want to leave me. You were like this when I was yo leave for Etheria you know."
"I missed you and it was hard for mum to console me," Eleora confessed, hugging Era closely, not letting go.
"I am sorry but as a princess of Meribia it is my duty to do what is right for my people."
"Sacrificing your happiness?"
"Yes even though I lost thwm by that same very happiness but as a ruler your people first and keeping you safe is another good thing to do. You are Meribia's true heir and ruler."
"But she is gone. Everyone's gone."
"No. Meribia still lives in and so would her people in you. In your heart, through you, Meribia would be reborn. I believe so."
"But I only want to do that with you and nothing more."
"I understand but you are the heart fi Meribia now as I am the heart of Etheria. You need to survive and live, no matter what. Our people cannot die like that. Perhaps this was the reason why Meribia's throne was blessed with a special child. You are to lead on, Eleora. You are what this world needs. Never forget that. "
"I won't but you would live to see it with me."
"No matter what, dead or alive, know that I would always be by yiur side to guide and protect you and that is why I am sending you there. You would love it. All of it. You would have friends, like families and one day they would sit with you when Meribia is born again under your guidance."
Inasmuch as Era's words were soothing, it was scary for Eleora.
"Fine," Eleora pulled back and looked up at Era with teary eyes. "I would go but promise to visit me often?"
"Definitely. As often as I can that would jot arouse suspicion as well. Anyways be rest assured. I would send you treats from time to time too. You would be fine."
"Together?"
"Together. Now smile for me. I would be here with you today. We can play as much as we want if you like."
"As much as I like that but..." Eleora paused. Perhaps it was not time yet to say this.
She was tempered to speak about Vidor but she needed her sister for tonight. When she was gone, Vidor could come into play.
"What is it, Ele?"
"No, it is all good. I would be a good girl and wait for you."
"That's my girl."
**************CHAPTER 152Reading more on the history from where she had stopped previously she saw that his lineage had always lived and thrived in peace with little or no need for expansion.They did not have a major problem, most of the royals had lived their life the best way they could.Regardless of how enticing the story was made into, she knew there would be more about the history.Letting the scroll fall from her hand and unto her side, she rolled over on the bed to her side and let her eyes drop close."If only he would let me have access. Then it would be okay. I just feel like I have a lot of knowing to do and not until I do, I would not be able to get what I want."This wasn't easy and Era knew. But even in that situation her mind could only go over to one persona and that was him.She had heard from Aevwriw that some ministers have been whispering about some strange happenings on the palace but no o e dared voice out what was going in.Unlike Vidor who got right tips on her daily affairs, she was blind when it came to Jim and it worried her.What nuisance was he causing or what wrong was he doing this time in her abscene?Had he taken his anger for her and visited it on another nation?If he had wanted to do so it would not be a hard thing to do. Regardless she did not hear any such news and could only imagine.In all, she could not get the thought of him out of her head. Whether or not it was bad or good, it didn't matter. Only Vidor remained in her mind.For a long while she laid there clutching her hands closer to her chest as thoughts of the few little times they had been together flashed in her mind.At the market place, where he bought her the gifts, later on when he kissed her.Badum! Badum!Instantly, her heart began to dance happily to a melody she knew not of but she wasn't frightened and just remained still as though she was reliving the scene again.Though it happened a bit fast in reality, bit in her mind, time went still and the moment was so intensely slow.Everything about it, his lips, the kiss, the warmth, the softness, the fear, yet the joy and the way her mind and body felt.Just when she was about thinking of the bitter sweet memory, she recalled his chambers and the same feeling and kiss.This time it was linger than the first and just like all of his gazes on her face that day, she felt how much he wanted to just do more than kiss on her lips but she was not ready.Her heart, mind and soul was confused and could only become still again.Though now in her heart, she wondered what would have been had she given in and allowed him to go hither?Would she have had to wnjoy the ceel of his soft warmth some more? Would it had been repulsive or woukd it had bwen breathtaking giving her a knew warm feeling.Swveral questions played in jer head about that incisdent but now she would not know wbcause she oushed him away just like before and made him say those naughty annoying words to her like some war pervert.Once more the fear she had felt that day and the pain and hate resurfaced but when she looked back and recalled what led her there in the first place, her felt a stab of pain go through her heart.Just then the memory of his hurt hand flashed before her eyes and she felt her heart clench from it and immediately stood up.He was hurt no doubt and she failed to check up on him.Without thinking twice about anyrhing, she had raced to the door of her chambers and was about opening the door when she recalled Louis was there. They had the physician so why was she bothered?Shaking her head, she made a turn around when she felt small hands circling around her waist and she halted.She had been through thinking too much about Vidor that she failed to notice Eleora's waking up.Perhaps her frantic movement had made her sister frightened and the little girl clung into her with great strength.She paused, willing her mind to calm down. Rather than rushing over for one who chased her away, she had a young one looking forward to her love and warmth.Letting out a sigh, Era pulled her sister's hand free and turned to her then fell on her knees before Eleora."My love.""Don't go. Do not leave me alone again.""Eleora." She lowered her gaze a bit. She knew that look in her sister's eyes. She was scared. So scared."I wouldn't leave you. I promise. We are sisters, for life and nothing can separate our bond.""I felt it. You felt scared and was worried and you ran away. Was it me?Did I do something wrong? I kept my powers at bay.""No. No. No, darling. You did nothing wrong. I am so sorry. I was bothered but I wasn't scared of you or anything. I was just worried since I hadn't checked on someone. You know what, you do not have to worry about that for now. Come with me."Era stood up and picked sister up as well then lead the little girl to the bed and sat down with Eleora on her thighs."I love you, Ora but you know that the two weeks had come to an end."Eleora nodded her head sadly. Yes the two weeks were up and it was time to give her away."I do not want to leave you again.""No. You are not leaving me. Even staying here with me is more dangerous. There are wicked eyes in the palace watching my every move. I cannot afford for anything to happen to you. You are just too precious to me for me to let that, baby. You need to know this.""That's why you need me here to protect you.""I appreciate the offer you need to have a life outside me. I want to give you an opportunity to spread your wings. Trust me, you would love it there.""Just let me stay with you.""I knew when this day would come you would be reluctant to want to leave me. You were like this when I was yo leave for Etheria you know.""I missed you and it was hard for mum to console me," Eleora confessed, hugging Era closely, not letting go."I am sorry but as a princess of Meribia it is my duty to do what is right for my people.""Sacrificing your happiness?""Yes even though I lost thwm by that same very happiness but as a ruler your people first and keeping you safe is another good thing to do. You are Meribia's true heir and ruler.""But she is gone. Everyone's gone.""No. Meribia still lives in and so would her people in you. In your heart, through you, Meribia would be reborn. I believe so.""But I only want to do that with you and nothing more.""I understand but you are the heart fi Meribia now as I am the heart of Etheria. You need to survive and live, no matter what. Our people cannot die like that. Perhaps this was the reason why Meribia's throne was blessed with a special child. You are to lead on, Eleora. You are what this world needs. Never forget that. ""I won't but you would live to see it with me.""No matter what, dead or alive, know that I would always be by yiur side to guide and protect you and that is why I am sending you there. You would love it. All of it. You would have friends, like families and one day they would sit with you when Meribia is born again under your guidance."Inasmuch as Era's words were soothing, it was scary for Eleora."Fine," Eleora pulled back and looked up at Era with teary eyes. "I would go but promise to visit me often?""Definitely. As often as I can that would jot arouse suspicion as well. Anyways be rest assured. I would send you treats from time to time too. You would be fine.""Together?""Together. Now smile for me. I would be here with you today. We can play as much as we want if you like.""As much as I like that but..." Eleora paused. Perhaps it was not time yet to say this.She was tempered to speak about Vidor but she needed her sister for tonight. When she was gone, Vidor could come into play."What is it, Ele?""No, it is all good. I would be a good girl and wait for you.""That's my girl."
