Translated by KaiesV
Edited by KaiesV
「Is Mio-san always like that?」
I ask quietly and look next to me.
Mio-san has left, but Sendai-san is limping. I don’t know why she is so tired, but I think she should rest soon.
「She was more energetic than usual.」
「Is that so?」
There is no point in staying in this room anymore.
We are both tired, and I know I should go back to my room, but my body won’t move.
「…Get your smartphone out.」
Trying to stay in a room I had no reason to be in, I blurted out to give myself a legitimate reason to be here.
「Smartphone? Why?」
「The photo that Sendai-san showed to Mio-san. I, I haven’t been shown it yet.」
If there was a reason to be here, to hear what I wanted to hear, I could be here. No matter how tired she is, it shouldn’t be too much of a burden to at least have a conversation.
「It’s the usual you, Miyagi.」
Sendai-san says in a soft voice and smiles at me.
「Why won’t you show it to me?」
.
「It’s one of the pictures I’ve shown Miyagi so far. There’s no need to go to the trouble of showing them. Besides, I don’t want you to erase them.」
「…Then, that’s enough.」
I want to erase the strange pictures, but I know that there is no way to erase them now. What should be erased is Mio-san’s memory, which cannot be erased, so I have to give up.
「Miyagi, are you not feeling well?」
I hear a voice from next to me that sounds seriously concerned.
「Why?」
「Because you backed down.」
That’s disturbing.
Sure, I may not be honest, but I don’t think she’s so twisted as to be concerned about my health with one word:「Enough.」
「I don’t know what kind of pictures they are, but Mio-san has already seen them, so there’s no point in getting hung up on them.」
「Then you didn’t have to tell this story again. Why did you ask me to show you again?」
I don’t want to be asked why.
I can’t answer that I wanted a reason to be here.
「…I don’t remember why.」
I answer in a small voice and look at Sendai-san’s finger.
The teeth marks that I put on while Mio-san went to the bathroom are gone.
No wonder.
Things like that disappear quickly.
I stroke my index finger to trace the invisible bite mark.
Touching it, I can’t find any trace of me.
But the mark should still be on.
I know it won’t disappear that easily, but I want to unbutton her blouse to check. And I want to stroke the mark, take off her clothes and underwear, and make lots of new marks.
I would want to make her body into a body that no one could ever see.
But since Mio-san is no longer with us, there is no point in such things.
「I’m going back to my room.」
I squeezed Sendai-san’s index finger and then released it.
「Why don’t you stay over today?」
Before I could stand up, Sendai-san says it like it’s nothing.
「This is your room and I’m not staying here… Didn’t we talk about something like this before?」
「Don’t worry about the details. You can sleep in this room.」
「I don’t want to.」
「…Will you continue?」
「With what?」
「A continuation of what you did before Mio came.」
Sendai-san says quietly and intertwines her fingers with my hand. The hands are “linked” rather than “held” by Sendai-san, who pulls on them as if urging me to do something.
I tried to untie my hands, feeling that the intimate way our hands were held together, to say we were roommates, would give this conversation a deeper meaning. But our joined hands don’t want to leave each other. Sendai-san connects them firmly and bumps her shoulder against mine.
「Let’s do it, continuing it.」
She whispers in my ear and tells her「I won’t.」I pushed Sendai-san’s shoulder with my untethered hand and she whispered to me again.
「Shiori.」
A pleasant voice tickles the ear.
I bite my lip, wanting to reach for the buttons on my blouse.
We shouldn’t do that kind of thing now.
If I continue to be dragged along by her body heat, the line between roommate and non-roommate will become blurred.
No, I’m already fuzzy, I don’t know where I stand. I don’t even know where I want to get to. When I look back, I can only see the marks I made like a signpost, but I know that even if I follow them, I will not be able to return to where I was.
「I didn’t say you could call me by my name.」
I forced to let go of our joined hands.
「You always say it like that, but is there ever a day when you say it’s okay?」
「…I don’t know, but not now.」
「Then, call me Hazuki.」
「That’s not now either.」
If I call her Hazuki, Maika will also calls her Hazuki.
Sendai-san told me that such a promise was made.
I still cannot accept that it will be so. I also cannot accept the deal that Sendai-san will start calling Maika「Maika」instead of「Utsunomiya.」I know that one day I will have to accept it, but it is certainly not now.
「You can refuse to do what I say, but if you refuse to do everything I say, I’m afraid I won’t be able to stand it… You should at least allow me one thing.」
「What will satisfy you if I allow it?」
When I asked, Sendai-san grabbed my blue skirt. Then, after thinking for a moment, she said clearly.
「——Your room, Miyagi.」
「Sendai-san, you really are an idiot. It’s not just one.」
I slap the hand that holds my skirt and try to stand up. But Sendai-san grabs my arm and pulls me close to her face. She was about to kiss me as a matter of course and I pushed her shoulder.
「I don’t want to.」
「Miyagi, you think I do whatever you say, don’t you? Are you thinking that I’m like a dog or something?」
A slightly low, disgruntled voice is heard.
「Sendai-san is not a dog, you’re “my property.”」
「Isn’t a being a property ranked lower than a dog?」
「I think they’re better handled than dogs.」
「Then show me that you’re good at handling me.」
Sendai-san says difficult things.
I do not want to own a dog.
The only person I want to keep to myself is Sendai-san.
But that doesn’t mean she can’t be treated better than a dog.
Then, what do I do?
I reach for Sendai-san, who is looking at me like a dog wanting a treat. I cover her eyes looking at me without averting her gaze and bring her lips to mine. I know she won’t be fooled by this, but she kisses me, which Sendai-san tried to do earlier and I refused, and asks,「Is this okay?」
「Do you think this will be enough?」
My hand covering Sendai-san’s eye is removed by her, and her fingertips stroke the back of my hand, pressing hard on the first joint of my index finger. She pressed strong and, hard, like when I bit her index finger. She doesn’t bite like I do, but I know she is saying that the kiss I just gave her wasn’t enough. So I kiss her again.
Lightly touch her lips and let go.
The fingers are pulled back and the lips are licked with the tip of the tongue.
My lips open thinly and I enter her. Warm, lukewarm tongues entwine and mingle strongly. The fingertips that had been gripping me are released, and I become aware of the tip of my tongue. The heat that I can clearly feel makes me suffer. I hear Sendai-san’s voice as she grabs my blouse and removes her lips from it.
「The button, you can unbutton. You want to mark it, didn’t you?」
I look down at my hands.
The hand gripping her blouse was where the mark would have been. If I unbutton it, I can put a mark on her that no one but me can put on her.
But the mark will disappear one day like a tooth mark.
It won’t stay with her forever. So I have to mark it again, and then it disappears again, and then I have to mark it again. No matter how many times I mark it, I will never be satisfied.
「Miyagi.」
She calls me softly by my ear and attaches my lips to her neck. Sendai-san does not reject me. I suck lightly and her arms were around my back. She hugs me tightly and leaves a thin mark.
「I’m going back to my room today.」
I kissed the mark I made where I can see it, then stands up.
Perhaps if I stay with Sendai-san, I will do something that will keep her from leaving this house forever.
Sendai-san is mine, so I can do that. It’s spring break now, so I don’t have much trouble marking places where I can see them.
But that’s not enough for today.
「Why not?」
I let out a small breath at the sound of Sendai-san’s voice.
Today I want to do what only I can do for Sendai-san, and I want to see Sendai-san as only I can see her.
Sendai-san is mine, so I can do those things. It’s spring break now, so I don’t have much trouble doing that kind of thing here.
But she’s not a dog that will do whatever I tell her to do.
I also need to respect her wishes.
What I want to do should not be done without her consent. And to get her consent, I need words.
「…why would I not.」
It’s not like the first time I touched Sendai-san from me. Now I am lost for words. Somehow, I am no longer able to tell Sendai-san what I want to do or touch her as selfishly as I did then.
「Well, take this and sleep with her.」
Sendai-san then hands me the penguin lying on the bed.
「Can’t you just take it with you?」
「No. Sleep with her. So, I’ll lend Pen-chan to you.」
Sendai-san grabs me by the arm and I have to leave her room. Then I had to bring a tissue box-alligator from my room for Sendai-san, who smiled in front of my room and said,「I’ll wait for you here.」
「Here you go.」
At the door, I handed a knackered crocodile to Sendai-san.
「It’s not Roro-chan.」
「I’ll lend you the crocodile.」
I cannot give the stuffed black cat to Sendai-san because it has the role of protecting my sleep.
「The crocodile is just fine.」
「What will you do with that?」
「It will sleep together with me.」
Without hesitation, Sendai-san patted the crocodile on the head as she said so.
Translated by KaiesV
Edited by KaiesV
「Is Mio-san always like that?」
I ask quietly and look next to me.
Mio-san has left, but Sendai-san is limping. I don’t know why she is so tired, but I think she should rest soon.
「She was more energetic than usual.」
「Is that so?」
There is no point in staying in this room anymore.
We are both tired, and I know I should go back to my room, but my body won’t move.
「…Get your smartphone out.」
Trying to stay in a room I had no reason to be in, I blurted out to give myself a legitimate reason to be here.
「Smartphone? Why?」
「The photo that Sendai-san showed to Mio-san. I, I haven’t been shown it yet.」
If there was a reason to be here, to hear what I wanted to hear, I could be here. No matter how tired she is, it shouldn’t be too much of a burden to at least have a conversation.
「It’s the usual you, Miyagi.」
Sendai-san says in a soft voice and smiles at me.
「Why won’t you show it to me?」
.
「It’s one of the pictures I’ve shown Miyagi so far. There’s no need to go to the trouble of showing them. Besides, I don’t want you to erase them.」
「…Then, that’s enough.」
I want to erase the strange pictures, but I know that there is no way to erase them now. What should be erased is Mio-san’s memory, which cannot be erased, so I have to give up.
「Miyagi, are you not feeling well?」
I hear a voice from next to me that sounds seriously concerned.
「Why?」
「Because you backed down.」
That’s disturbing.
Sure, I may not be honest, but I don’t think she’s so twisted as to be concerned about my health with one word:「Enough.」
「I don’t know what kind of pictures they are, but Mio-san has already seen them, so there’s no point in getting hung up on them.」
「Then you didn’t have to tell this story again. Why did you ask me to show you again?」
I don’t want to be asked why.
I can’t answer that I wanted a reason to be here.
「…I don’t remember why.」
I answer in a small voice and look at Sendai-san’s finger.
The teeth marks that I put on while Mio-san went to the bathroom are gone.
No wonder.
Things like that disappear quickly.
I stroke my index finger to trace the invisible bite mark.
Touching it, I can’t find any trace of me.
But the mark should still be on.
I know it won’t disappear that easily, but I want to unbutton her blouse to check. And I want to stroke the mark, take off her clothes and underwear, and make lots of new marks.
I would want to make her body into a body that no one could ever see.
But since Mio-san is no longer with us, there is no point in such things.
「I’m going back to my room.」
I squeezed Sendai-san’s index finger and then released it.
「Why don’t you stay over today?」
Before I could stand up, Sendai-san says it like it’s nothing.
「This is your room and I’m not staying here… Didn’t we talk about something like this before?」
「Don’t worry about the details. You can sleep in this room.」
「I don’t want to.」
「…Will you continue?」
「With what?」
「A continuation of what you did before Mio came.」
Sendai-san says quietly and intertwines her fingers with my hand. The hands are “linked” rather than “held” by Sendai-san, who pulls on them as if urging me to do something.
I tried to untie my hands, feeling that the intimate way our hands were held together, to say we were roommates, would give this conversation a deeper meaning. But our joined hands don’t want to leave each other. Sendai-san connects them firmly and bumps her shoulder against mine.
「Let’s do it, continuing it.」
She whispers in my ear and tells her「I won’t.」I pushed Sendai-san’s shoulder with my untethered hand and she whispered to me again.
「Shiori.」
A pleasant voice tickles the ear.
I bite my lip, wanting to reach for the buttons on my blouse.
We shouldn’t do that kind of thing now.
If I continue to be dragged along by her body heat, the line between roommate and non-roommate will become blurred.
No, I’m already fuzzy, I don’t know where I stand. I don’t even know where I want to get to. When I look back, I can only see the marks I made like a signpost, but I know that even if I follow them, I will not be able to return to where I was.
「I didn’t say you could call me by my name.」
I forced to let go of our joined hands.
「You always say it like that, but is there ever a day when you say it’s okay?」
「…I don’t know, but not now.」
「Then, call me Hazuki.」
「That’s not now either.」
If I call her Hazuki, Maika will also calls her Hazuki.
Sendai-san told me that such a promise was made.
I still cannot accept that it will be so. I also cannot accept the deal that Sendai-san will start calling Maika「Maika」instead of「Utsunomiya.」I know that one day I will have to accept it, but it is certainly not now.
「You can refuse to do what I say, but if you refuse to do everything I say, I’m afraid I won’t be able to stand it… You should at least allow me one thing.」
「What will satisfy you if I allow it?」
When I asked, Sendai-san grabbed my blue skirt. Then, after thinking for a moment, she said clearly.
「——Your room, Miyagi.」
「Sendai-san, you really are an idiot. It’s not just one.」
I slap the hand that holds my skirt and try to stand up. But Sendai-san grabs my arm and pulls me close to her face. She was about to kiss me as a matter of course and I pushed her shoulder.
「I don’t want to.」
「Miyagi, you think I do whatever you say, don’t you? Are you thinking that I’m like a dog or something?」
A slightly low, disgruntled voice is heard.
「Sendai-san is not a dog, you’re “my property.”」
「Isn’t a being a property ranked lower than a dog?」
「I think they’re better handled than dogs.」
「Then show me that you’re good at handling me.」
Sendai-san says difficult things.
I do not want to own a dog.
The only person I want to keep to myself is Sendai-san.
But that doesn’t mean she can’t be treated better than a dog.
Then, what do I do?
I reach for Sendai-san, who is looking at me like a dog wanting a treat. I cover her eyes looking at me without averting her gaze and bring her lips to mine. I know she won’t be fooled by this, but she kisses me, which Sendai-san tried to do earlier and I refused, and asks,「Is this okay?」
「Do you think this will be enough?」
My hand covering Sendai-san’s eye is removed by her, and her fingertips stroke the back of my hand, pressing hard on the first joint of my index finger. She pressed strong and, hard, like when I bit her index finger. She doesn’t bite like I do, but I know she is saying that the kiss I just gave her wasn’t enough. So I kiss her again.
Lightly touch her lips and let go.
The fingers are pulled back and the lips are licked with the tip of the tongue.
My lips open thinly and I enter her. Warm, lukewarm tongues entwine and mingle strongly. The fingertips that had been gripping me are released, and I become aware of the tip of my tongue. The heat that I can clearly feel makes me suffer. I hear Sendai-san’s voice as she grabs my blouse and removes her lips from it.
「The button, you can unbutton. You want to mark it, didn’t you?」
I look down at my hands.
The hand gripping her blouse was where the mark would have been. If I unbutton it, I can put a mark on her that no one but me can put on her.
But the mark will disappear one day like a tooth mark.
It won’t stay with her forever. So I have to mark it again, and then it disappears again, and then I have to mark it again. No matter how many times I mark it, I will never be satisfied.
「Miyagi.」
She calls me softly by my ear and attaches my lips to her neck. Sendai-san does not reject me. I suck lightly and her arms were around my back. She hugs me tightly and leaves a thin mark.
「I’m going back to my room today.」
I kissed the mark I made where I can see it, then stands up.
Perhaps if I stay with Sendai-san, I will do something that will keep her from leaving this house forever.
Sendai-san is mine, so I can do that. It’s spring break now, so I don’t have much trouble marking places where I can see them.
But that’s not enough for today.
「Why not?」
I let out a small breath at the sound of Sendai-san’s voice.
Today I want to do what only I can do for Sendai-san, and I want to see Sendai-san as only I can see her.
Sendai-san is mine, so I can do those things. It’s spring break now, so I don’t have much trouble doing that kind of thing here.
But she’s not a dog that will do whatever I tell her to do.
I also need to respect her wishes.
What I want to do should not be done without her consent. And to get her consent, I need words.
「…why would I not.」
It’s not like the first time I touched Sendai-san from me. Now I am lost for words. Somehow, I am no longer able to tell Sendai-san what I want to do or touch her as selfishly as I did then.
「Well, take this and sleep with her.」
Sendai-san then hands me the penguin lying on the bed.
「Can’t you just take it with you?」
「No. Sleep with her. So, I’ll lend Pen-chan to you.」
Sendai-san grabs me by the arm and I have to leave her room. Then I had to bring a tissue box-alligator from my room for Sendai-san, who smiled in front of my room and said,「I’ll wait for you here.」
「Here you go.」
At the door, I handed a knackered crocodile to Sendai-san.
「It’s not Roro-chan.」
「I’ll lend you the crocodile.」
I cannot give the stuffed black cat to Sendai-san because it has the role of protecting my sleep.
「The crocodile is just fine.」
「What will you do with that?」
「It will sleep together with me.」
Without hesitation, Sendai-san patted the crocodile on the head as she said so.
