To Help You Understand – Chapter 28
Violet looked silently at Winter fiddling with the watch she gave him.
He seemed to really like the gift.
It kept repeating in her mind that she didn’t have to return it because he’s a person who earns money and that he’s not a person who waits, nor had to wait.
When the man who seemed to have nothing to fear in the world said that, he seemed empty.
Violet opened her mouth.
“I’m tired.”
“Yeah, it’s that time for you.”
Violet thought for a while and said in a business-like voice.
“It’s been two days since we joined in a room, but I think it’s okay today.”
“That was neat, my princess.”
Whether Winter was sarcastic or not, Violet continued.
“Of course, I know you don’t like children or sleeping together, but to some extent, in a marital relationship……”
“Wait a minute.”
Winter narrowed his eyebrows.
“Even if I said I don’t like children. Why do you think I don’t like sleeping together?”
“You said you were dissatisfied last time. It also seems like you’re always avoiding it.”
Violet tried to speak calmly as usual, but she couldn’t hide her expression because she was hurt inside. She continued.
“I understand because the situation was like that…… so you must have hated it.”
Her heart ached after barely finishing her words. The shame was bigger than she thought. Winter opened his mouth when she was giving a little strength to her hands, which she had gathered tightly to endure sadness.
“What am I listening to right now?”
She was the one who got rejected, but Winter’s voice sounded like he was the one who got dumped. When Violet looked up and made eye contact with him, his expression also looked like so. Winter continued.
“It’s true that the overwhelming number one desire I have is worldly desires, but that doesn’t mean I don’t have sexual desires. I said I hated the godly way of your family. When did I say I hated sleeping together?”
“Isn’t that the same thing?”
“You know, when it’s over, both families check it out. I’m not a crossbreeding animal.”
How could he say such a rude thing, Violet opened her eyes wide in surprise, but she couldn’t say it in real life because she was afraid of being like a princess again.
Winter sighed loudly as if everyone else would know his pain.
“Don’t get me wrong, listen.”
“Unless you make me misunderstand.”
“If only it’s not that damn way, I’ll do it until I beat you out.”
At his words, Violet wrapped her hands around her mouth and saw him with little boundaries.
“…… Exactly which part causes misunderstanding?”
“I’m afraid you’ll misunderstand that I have an abnormal sexual desire because I didn’t do it.”
“If that’s the misunderstanding, then I’ve already done it.”
“I mean, you’re greatly mistaken.”
“Do you mean you don’t hate it?”
“That’s right.”
“We can negotiate little by little, but it’s hard to make a big change all of a sudden.”
“Can I kiss you?”
“Yes. You can also do it like last time.”
Winter looked distressed, but as if that was enough, he lifted up Violet, hugged her, and headed to his bed. He laid his wife on the bed and lowered his head to untie the ribbon on the neck of her pajamas with his teeth. Then Violet said seriously.
“Oh, you can do this with your hands.”
“……You’re usually very smart, but why are you only acting like this on the bed? You’re just pretending you don’t know, right?”
Winter had an unsure expression whether to laugh or suffer. Violet tilted her head wondering why he looked like that.
***
It was a day joined in the room that is not much different from what it has been. The couple killed the sound as much as possible, so there was no sound on the bed.
However, Winter had many hard times as usual.
It was better on a normal basis.
When Winter kissed her and pulled apart, Violet made a strange look that he saw for the first time, and at that moment, his reason seemed to be torn apart like a thin piece of paper.
In addition, he could hear the sound of a bloody bell, whether it was tinnitus or what, whenever he could, but he couldn’t swear with his wife right in front of him, which made him go crazy.
Winter only fell asleep with his wife by his side after cooling himself down with cold water three or four times.
And then he woke up at dawn and looked at Violet’s face and got up in the morning.
Then, when he looked at the terrace, he saw Hayel over the curtain. It seemed that Hayel had entered the balcony instead of the bedroom after learning that Violet had not left the bedroom yesterday.
When Winter also stepped out to the terrace, Hayel handed him coffee. Winter opened his mouth after he gulped down coffee to get rid of fatigue.
“I thought about it yesterday, about a child. All I’ve seen so far is the mixed-race in LaCrown.”
“That’s right.”
“Look where the Canic clan originally lived. There must be some information there, too.”
“You wouldn’t ask me to cross the continent and go to the Alika region, would you? Wife and child, I also.……”
“You don’t have them.”
“I’m asking you to give me time to make it happen. What’s the point of buying a nice house when I don’t even have time to go inside.”
“I paid you enough to buy yourself a nice house.”
Winter was in a tight spot.
“Then send someone to find out.”
“Yes, sir.”
Hayel was relieved to hear that he didn’t have to go in person.
After giving him some brief reports, Hayel left, and then Violet walked out from the glass door in the bedroom.
“Did you sleep well, Winter?”
“I didn’t sleep at all.”
“I slept soundly.”
“This doesn’t fit either.”
Winter grumbled, but now he didn’t even hate sleeping like this.
He doesn’t think there will be any good information just to find out more, but he wanted to get rid of the excuse for Violet to leave him somehow. If she wanted a child, he wanted to make it and hold her.
Violet sat on a chair, probably because it was hard to stand. Winter asked.
“While you’re sitting, looked at what I’m going to wear to the Cantus monastery.”
“That’s a good idea.”
After a while, a servant brought Winter’s clothes for the day. Violet alternately looked at the invitation and clothes and asked.
“Do you have a white bow tie?”
“There’s no white. Why?”
“The invitation says you should dress according to the basic formality. You need a white bow tie.”
“Can’t it be a different color?”
“If we’re speaking about the basic formality in LaCrown then it’s white shirts and white bow ties for men.”
He almost made a big mistake from the start. Violet continued.
“Are you going to go with the blue one for the handkerchief?”
“Anything. Is there a fixed color for that, too?”
“It’s not that, but I think it would be better in the color that the Blooming family prefers.”
“Preferred colors you said, there are all sorts of things.”
Winter’s annoying murmur made Violet look embarrassed. Then Winter narrowed his eyebrows.
“Don’t make that face. I didn’t have a chance to learn.”
She wasn’t surprised to think that Winter was pathetic for not knowing that.
She was surprised that the Blooming couple did not tell him what they should have told him.
Although the capitalist was exceptionally more than usual, the people of LaCrown were ashamed to show off something openly. However, there was a contradiction in showing superiority and factionalism among them with their preferred jewelry or colors.
Violet said.
“I just bought a handkerchief. I bought it well in advance.”
Violet brought the box containing the watch and took out the dark gray handkerchief that had been laid under it.
“The people of the Lawrence family prefer dark gray.”
“Isn’t that something I’m not supposed to wear?”
“You are my husband. But if you don’t like it, then you don’t have to.”
“I’m a person who gave up my fortune to buy a title. If I can use the same color as the royal family, I’d appreciate it. By the way, why did you buy so much?”
“There are only two items, a watch, and a handkerchief. And I think you’re not going to say anything, no matter how many I bought.”
Winter nodded in agreement with her words.
“I’m so glad that we changed our body just by looking at this.”
“While changing body…… can we change it a day earlier and you come to the tea party?”
No matter how much Winter pulled out the support, there was a tea party this Saturday at the lunch held by Catherine. The next day was a party sponsored by Cantus Monastery.
Winter was lost in thought for a moment. Last time Violet said that when he went to the tea party, he would know why she wore a black dress.
“I’m going to make a big deal.”
“It’s all right.”
“Instead, make a big profit at Cantus Monastery.”
“I’ll do my best.”
Violet answered as if she were calm, but she felt complicated inside.
Does she want him to know a little bit about her hard time at the tea party? What would he think if he found out?
With many thoughts, she put a rectangular folded handkerchief in his jacket pocket.
“Okay, this is the basic formality.”
“Oh, my God, why is this damn noble thing so complicated?”
“It must be because people with wealth like you threaten authority.”
“What?”
Winter grimaced. Violet quietly continued.
“In my parents’ generation, titles were everything in power. But gradually, money has more power than a title. It’s getting harder and harder to keep those who have money and no title from cutting in on the upper class.… creating an act of nobility.”
After talking, she looked at Winter’s expression as he pretended to be absent for a while, then she fanned his face with her hand.
“Oh, my God, nobility you said. You’re rude.”
Violet burst into small laughter at his prank.
***
On Saturday morning, Violet, who was ready to go to the tea party, opened a drawer and took out a small bottle of medicine.
Inside it was a poison extracted from the southern white clover that was obtained while managing the garden. She learned that this amount will kill in a matter of minutes.
Violet looked at the medicine bottle and said to herself.
“……I’m a little scared.”
She suddenly remembered Winter, who was joking around beside her.
Violet has been yearning for him for the past three years. She yearned to wait for him who was far away, and she was yearning for him because she couldn’t reach him even if he was close.
Then at some point, her mind was completely made up, and now she thought there was nothing left as if she had been swept away by the storm.
But she felt a little afraid of this decision because of him.
Violet sat on the bed, opened the medicine bottle, inhaled it, and laid down on the bed.
‘If I die like this, will he come to the funeral?’
Even just on the first day of her funeral, Violet was most curious about it. Will her husband come to the funeral?
Maybe she is still yearning for him.
It was dark as if she was falling asleep, but when she opened her eyes, she was in the carriage. Hayel was sitting opposite.
“My Lord, is everything okay?”
“I’m fine. Where are we going?”
“Oh, we’re going to the tea party that is being held by the lady. I think it’ll take about two hours, little lady.”
When asked where they were going, Hayel immediately noticed and answered the question and soft words.
Violet looked out the window.
She was worried that if she got embarrassed by his fiery personality, she might turn the table upside down.
To Help You Understand – Chapter 28
Violet looked silently at Winter fiddling with the watch she gave him.
He seemed to really like the gift.
It kept repeating in her mind that she didn’t have to return it because he’s a person who earns money and that he’s not a person who waits, nor had to wait.
When the man who seemed to have nothing to fear in the world said that, he seemed empty.
Violet opened her mouth.
“I’m tired.”
“Yeah, it’s that time for you.”
Violet thought for a while and said in a business-like voice.
“It’s been two days since we joined in a room, but I think it’s okay today.”
“That was neat, my princess.”
Whether Winter was sarcastic or not, Violet continued.
“Of course, I know you don’t like children or sleeping together, but to some extent, in a marital relationship……”
“Wait a minute.”
Winter narrowed his eyebrows.
“Even if I said I don’t like children. Why do you think I don’t like sleeping together?”
“You said you were dissatisfied last time. It also seems like you’re always avoiding it.”
Violet tried to speak calmly as usual, but she couldn’t hide her expression because she was hurt inside. She continued.
“I understand because the situation was like that…… so you must have hated it.”
Her heart ached after barely finishing her words. The shame was bigger than she thought. Winter opened his mouth when she was giving a little strength to her hands, which she had gathered tightly to endure sadness.
“What am I listening to right now?”
She was the one who got rejected, but Winter’s voice sounded like he was the one who got dumped. When Violet looked up and made eye contact with him, his expression also looked like so. Winter continued.
“It’s true that the overwhelming number one desire I have is worldly desires, but that doesn’t mean I don’t have sexual desires. I said I hated the godly way of your family. When did I say I hated sleeping together?”
“Isn’t that the same thing?”
“You know, when it’s over, both families check it out. I’m not a crossbreeding animal.”
How could he say such a rude thing, Violet opened her eyes wide in surprise, but she couldn’t say it in real life because she was afraid of being like a princess again.
Winter sighed loudly as if everyone else would know his pain.
“Don’t get me wrong, listen.”
“Unless you make me misunderstand.”
“If only it’s not that damn way, I’ll do it until I beat you out.”
At his words, Violet wrapped her hands around her mouth and saw him with little boundaries.
“…… Exactly which part causes misunderstanding?”
“I’m afraid you’ll misunderstand that I have an abnormal sexual desire because I didn’t do it.”
“If that’s the misunderstanding, then I’ve already done it.”
“I mean, you’re greatly mistaken.”
“Do you mean you don’t hate it?”
“That’s right.”
“We can negotiate little by little, but it’s hard to make a big change all of a sudden.”
“Can I kiss you?”
“Yes. You can also do it like last time.”
Winter looked distressed, but as if that was enough, he lifted up Violet, hugged her, and headed to his bed. He laid his wife on the bed and lowered his head to untie the ribbon on the neck of her pajamas with his teeth. Then Violet said seriously.
“Oh, you can do this with your hands.”
“……You’re usually very smart, but why are you only acting like this on the bed? You’re just pretending you don’t know, right?”
Winter had an unsure expression whether to laugh or suffer. Violet tilted her head wondering why he looked like that.
***
It was a day joined in the room that is not much different from what it has been. The couple killed the sound as much as possible, so there was no sound on the bed.
However, Winter had many hard times as usual.
It was better on a normal basis.
When Winter kissed her and pulled apart, Violet made a strange look that he saw for the first time, and at that moment, his reason seemed to be torn apart like a thin piece of paper.
In addition, he could hear the sound of a bloody bell, whether it was tinnitus or what, whenever he could, but he couldn’t swear with his wife right in front of him, which made him go crazy.
Winter only fell asleep with his wife by his side after cooling himself down with cold water three or four times.
And then he woke up at dawn and looked at Violet’s face and got up in the morning.
Then, when he looked at the terrace, he saw Hayel over the curtain. It seemed that Hayel had entered the balcony instead of the bedroom after learning that Violet had not left the bedroom yesterday.
When Winter also stepped out to the terrace, Hayel handed him coffee. Winter opened his mouth after he gulped down coffee to get rid of fatigue.
“I thought about it yesterday, about a child. All I’ve seen so far is the mixed-race in LaCrown.”
“That’s right.”
“Look where the Canic clan originally lived. There must be some information there, too.”
“You wouldn’t ask me to cross the continent and go to the Alika region, would you? Wife and child, I also.……”
“You don’t have them.”
“I’m asking you to give me time to make it happen. What’s the point of buying a nice house when I don’t even have time to go inside.”
“I paid you enough to buy yourself a nice house.”
Winter was in a tight spot.
“Then send someone to find out.”
“Yes, sir.”
Hayel was relieved to hear that he didn’t have to go in person.
After giving him some brief reports, Hayel left, and then Violet walked out from the glass door in the bedroom.
“Did you sleep well, Winter?”
“I didn’t sleep at all.”
“I slept soundly.”
“This doesn’t fit either.”
Winter grumbled, but now he didn’t even hate sleeping like this.
He doesn’t think there will be any good information just to find out more, but he wanted to get rid of the excuse for Violet to leave him somehow. If she wanted a child, he wanted to make it and hold her.
Violet sat on a chair, probably because it was hard to stand. Winter asked.
“While you’re sitting, looked at what I’m going to wear to the Cantus monastery.”
“That’s a good idea.”
After a while, a servant brought Winter’s clothes for the day. Violet alternately looked at the invitation and clothes and asked.
“Do you have a white bow tie?”
“There’s no white. Why?”
“The invitation says you should dress according to the basic formality. You need a white bow tie.”
“Can’t it be a different color?”
“If we’re speaking about the basic formality in LaCrown then it’s white shirts and white bow ties for men.”
He almost made a big mistake from the start. Violet continued.
“Are you going to go with the blue one for the handkerchief?”
“Anything. Is there a fixed color for that, too?”
“It’s not that, but I think it would be better in the color that the Blooming family prefers.”
“Preferred colors you said, there are all sorts of things.”
Winter’s annoying murmur made Violet look embarrassed. Then Winter narrowed his eyebrows.
“Don’t make that face. I didn’t have a chance to learn.”
She wasn’t surprised to think that Winter was pathetic for not knowing that.
She was surprised that the Blooming couple did not tell him what they should have told him.
Although the capitalist was exceptionally more than usual, the people of LaCrown were ashamed to show off something openly. However, there was a contradiction in showing superiority and factionalism among them with their preferred jewelry or colors.
Violet said.
“I just bought a handkerchief. I bought it well in advance.”
Violet brought the box containing the watch and took out the dark gray handkerchief that had been laid under it.
“The people of the Lawrence family prefer dark gray.”
“Isn’t that something I’m not supposed to wear?”
“You are my husband. But if you don’t like it, then you don’t have to.”
“I’m a person who gave up my fortune to buy a title. If I can use the same color as the royal family, I’d appreciate it. By the way, why did you buy so much?”
“There are only two items, a watch, and a handkerchief. And I think you’re not going to say anything, no matter how many I bought.”
Winter nodded in agreement with her words.
“I’m so glad that we changed our body just by looking at this.”
“While changing body…… can we change it a day earlier and you come to the tea party?”
No matter how much Winter pulled out the support, there was a tea party this Saturday at the lunch held by Catherine. The next day was a party sponsored by Cantus Monastery.
Winter was lost in thought for a moment. Last time Violet said that when he went to the tea party, he would know why she wore a black dress.
“I’m going to make a big deal.”
“It’s all right.”
“Instead, make a big profit at Cantus Monastery.”
“I’ll do my best.”
Violet answered as if she were calm, but she felt complicated inside.
Does she want him to know a little bit about her hard time at the tea party? What would he think if he found out?
With many thoughts, she put a rectangular folded handkerchief in his jacket pocket.
“Okay, this is the basic formality.”
“Oh, my God, why is this damn noble thing so complicated?”
“It must be because people with wealth like you threaten authority.”
“What?”
Winter grimaced. Violet quietly continued.
“In my parents’ generation, titles were everything in power. But gradually, money has more power than a title. It’s getting harder and harder to keep those who have money and no title from cutting in on the upper class.… creating an act of nobility.”
After talking, she looked at Winter’s expression as he pretended to be absent for a while, then she fanned his face with her hand.
“Oh, my God, nobility you said. You’re rude.”
Violet burst into small laughter at his prank.
***
On Saturday morning, Violet, who was ready to go to the tea party, opened a drawer and took out a small bottle of medicine.
Inside it was a poison extracted from the southern white clover that was obtained while managing the garden. She learned that this amount will kill in a matter of minutes.
Violet looked at the medicine bottle and said to herself.
“……I’m a little scared.”
She suddenly remembered Winter, who was joking around beside her.
Violet has been yearning for him for the past three years. She yearned to wait for him who was far away, and she was yearning for him because she couldn’t reach him even if he was close.
Then at some point, her mind was completely made up, and now she thought there was nothing left as if she had been swept away by the storm.
But she felt a little afraid of this decision because of him.
Violet sat on the bed, opened the medicine bottle, inhaled it, and laid down on the bed.
‘If I die like this, will he come to the funeral?’
Even just on the first day of her funeral, Violet was most curious about it. Will her husband come to the funeral?
Maybe she is still yearning for him.
It was dark as if she was falling asleep, but when she opened her eyes, she was in the carriage. Hayel was sitting opposite.
“My Lord, is everything okay?”
“I’m fine. Where are we going?”
“Oh, we’re going to the tea party that is being held by the lady. I think it’ll take about two hours, little lady.”
When asked where they were going, Hayel immediately noticed and answered the question and soft words.
Violet looked out the window.
She was worried that if she got embarrassed by his fiery personality, she might turn the table upside down.
