Chapter 26: And then She Remembers.
I( Ore), Kayo Hinazuki, was a high school boy with no special characteristics besides being a Yuri game lover.
I lived happily as a Yuri gamer, but as a human, I was a quiet shy person. Embarrassed by my own hobby.
Especially when I became absorbed in the yuri game. When I played “Flower of Eden” I forgot to eat, I forgot to sleep. . .and I even forgot how to live. If you want to laugh, then laugh. I do plenty of self loathing myself. My greatest shame.
Aside from that, 12 years ago, I(Boku) became the eldest daughter of the Regnart family. This became my second life.
My past memories came back to me when I turned 3. From then it sprouted in me.
To be honest, I didn’t realize I was in the world of “Flower of Eden” for a long time. After all, it was insane to think I had. Besides, I never heard of the name Shiran Regnart in the world of “Flower of Eden”. So it was impossible to predict.
It may be surprising, but there wasn’t a lot of confusion about my gender at first.
It’s true it was a different one than my previous life, and I did remember that, but it’s also true I was born and raised as a daughter of the Regnart family. There were alot mistakes as a 3-year old child. But like all humans, you learn as you go.
I continued to grow as a girl, named Shiran.
I was around 5 years old when I met my first friend Iris.
The Regnart family and the Glendes family have always been close. So it was natural we would often spend time with each other. Everytime we met, we’d go off and play together.
When I entered the elementary school section of Manjurkia academy with Iris, it was the first time I realized that this was the world of “Flower of Eden”
After all, the story takes place in the middle school section of Manjurkia Academy.
It was at that time, I began to feel like I was a stain upon this world.
I, with memories of my previous life as a man, should not come into contact with characters from that Yuri game. I don’t want to be the only man who gets caught in a yuri. With that in mind, after enrolling, I tried to keep far away from every other classmate.
Obviously if you do that, you would naturally begin to drift away from people, but seeing as I’m an impurity, it can’t be helped.
However, it was my childhood friend, Iris, that never left me alone.
She was a more delinquent student, so she was naturally outcast in this girls school. So it was perhaps due to a sense of comradery that it further glued us together.
Before I noticed, it felt natural for Iris to be beside me.
Because she was so special, and came to my side when I just wanted to wallow alone, before I knew it, those feelings naturally began to grow. Eventually past friendship. . . I began to fall in love with Iris.
I became aware of it much earlier than most. Perhaps due to my mental maturity. All thanks to my memories of my previous life.
But honestly. . .It was a love I can not accept.
Are these the feelings of a girl named Shiran?
Maybe it’s just a false love, influenced by my previous life as a man.
As long as I couldn’t help but deny the possibility of it just being a corrupted one, I could never indulge in them.
I just wished I could erase this love. But it’s impossible. Every year these constant feelings grow. These damn emotions.
By the time I was about to graduate from elementary school, this unacceptable love was about to overflow.
I just wish I could forget. Forget those stupid memories of my past life. Then I could believe that these feelings were real. . .
It was the eve of admission to middle school, that a stupid thing happened. The night before it, I was deep in memories, cringing at my past life. . .It’s so embarrassing, I just wish I couldn’t remember it. Perhaps it was because of the stress that I couldn’t suppress my internal tantrum. Carelessly hitting my pillow, I slipped and fell off my bed. Hitting my head violently. After a terrifying rumbling sound still burned in my mind.
Was it because I was thinking about such a silly thing, or was it just a coincidence?
If I had lost my life, I was just hoping I would just disappear, and not have to remember that embarrassment anymore.
But my consciousness did return. Yes, it did. . .
I think it was because I hit my head. But fortunately or unfortunately my wish came true. I did forget a segment of my memory.
However it wasn’t the part I hoped for. Rather it was the worst case. What I lost was the memories of living 12 years as Shiran. . .The ones I lived in this world.
The largest misunderstanding. The worst case.
I just had to forget right on time. The time where “Flower of Eden” began. I forgot my 12 years, and even became a ready made character, called “Follower 2”
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12 years of being alive, being raised as Shiran. The distress I felt. These past months. I’ve lived in ignorance of it. But now I remember them all.
I see. . .So that is how I was able to dance that night? Well it makes sense. Mother has always been strict with these pleasantries, she had me practice hard since I was little.
In addition to that, it feels like it helped in other places.
For example, why did Magnolia and Iris, who would have never known the past me, not feel uncomfortable? If a completely different person possesses your master or best friend, wouldn’t they act or seem strange. However if I was originally myself, that is a different story. For a young girl that has always had a bit of my past life, very little had changed.
I don’t think it’s necessary for me to even explain this to Cosmos-san.
But then I noticed something. I lost my memories of growing up as Shiran, but I also lost my love for Iris. I became friends with her again, and no matter how much I liked her, it was a strong platonic friendship. She was my best friend. With just my memories of Kayo Hinazuki, it seems that there were no romantic feelings towards her.
I understand. In this world, with the memories of my life I had as Shiran, I was firmly in love with Iris as a girl.
Those feelings weren’t influenced by my previous life, but because I grew up in this world with her, I now know.
By remembering the memories I had forgotten, the two emotions of friendship and love ignited in me. The accumulated love I had as Shiran, and the fierce friendship I made as Kayo. The feelings merged. . .It became one big emotion.
Ahh. I want to see Iris soon.
For that reason, I need to regain consciousness. I can’t stay in this pitch black world forever. I’m sure Cosmos is already worried.
In that moment of wishing, a light began to shine.
It’s time to wake up.
Chapter 26: And then She Remembers.
I( Ore), Kayo Hinazuki, was a high school boy with no special characteristics besides being a Yuri game lover.
I lived happily as a Yuri gamer, but as a human, I was a quiet shy person. Embarrassed by my own hobby.
Especially when I became absorbed in the yuri game. When I played “Flower of Eden” I forgot to eat, I forgot to sleep. . .and I even forgot how to live. If you want to laugh, then laugh. I do plenty of self loathing myself. My greatest shame.
Aside from that, 12 years ago, I(Boku) became the eldest daughter of the Regnart family. This became my second life.
My past memories came back to me when I turned 3. From then it sprouted in me.
To be honest, I didn’t realize I was in the world of “Flower of Eden” for a long time. After all, it was insane to think I had. Besides, I never heard of the name Shiran Regnart in the world of “Flower of Eden”. So it was impossible to predict.
It may be surprising, but there wasn’t a lot of confusion about my gender at first.
It’s true it was a different one than my previous life, and I did remember that, but it’s also true I was born and raised as a daughter of the Regnart family. There were alot mistakes as a 3-year old child. But like all humans, you learn as you go.
I continued to grow as a girl, named Shiran.
I was around 5 years old when I met my first friend Iris.
The Regnart family and the Glendes family have always been close. So it was natural we would often spend time with each other. Everytime we met, we’d go off and play together.
When I entered the elementary school section of Manjurkia academy with Iris, it was the first time I realized that this was the world of “Flower of Eden”
After all, the story takes place in the middle school section of Manjurkia Academy.
It was at that time, I began to feel like I was a stain upon this world.
I, with memories of my previous life as a man, should not come into contact with characters from that Yuri game. I don’t want to be the only man who gets caught in a yuri. With that in mind, after enrolling, I tried to keep far away from every other classmate.
Obviously if you do that, you would naturally begin to drift away from people, but seeing as I’m an impurity, it can’t be helped.
However, it was my childhood friend, Iris, that never left me alone.
She was a more delinquent student, so she was naturally outcast in this girls school. So it was perhaps due to a sense of comradery that it further glued us together.
Before I noticed, it felt natural for Iris to be beside me.
Because she was so special, and came to my side when I just wanted to wallow alone, before I knew it, those feelings naturally began to grow. Eventually past friendship. . . I began to fall in love with Iris.
I became aware of it much earlier than most. Perhaps due to my mental maturity. All thanks to my memories of my previous life.
But honestly. . .It was a love I can not accept.
Are these the feelings of a girl named Shiran?
Maybe it’s just a false love, influenced by my previous life as a man.
As long as I couldn’t help but deny the possibility of it just being a corrupted one, I could never indulge in them.
I just wished I could erase this love. But it’s impossible. Every year these constant feelings grow. These damn emotions.
By the time I was about to graduate from elementary school, this unacceptable love was about to overflow.
I just wish I could forget. Forget those stupid memories of my past life. Then I could believe that these feelings were real. . .
It was the eve of admission to middle school, that a stupid thing happened. The night before it, I was deep in memories, cringing at my past life. . .It’s so embarrassing, I just wish I couldn’t remember it. Perhaps it was because of the stress that I couldn’t suppress my internal tantrum. Carelessly hitting my pillow, I slipped and fell off my bed. Hitting my head violently. After a terrifying rumbling sound still burned in my mind.
Was it because I was thinking about such a silly thing, or was it just a coincidence?
If I had lost my life, I was just hoping I would just disappear, and not have to remember that embarrassment anymore.
But my consciousness did return. Yes, it did. . .
I think it was because I hit my head. But fortunately or unfortunately my wish came true. I did forget a segment of my memory.
However it wasn’t the part I hoped for. Rather it was the worst case. What I lost was the memories of living 12 years as Shiran. . .The ones I lived in this world.
The largest misunderstanding. The worst case.
I just had to forget right on time. The time where “Flower of Eden” began. I forgot my 12 years, and even became a ready made character, called “Follower 2”
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
12 years of being alive, being raised as Shiran. The distress I felt. These past months. I’ve lived in ignorance of it. But now I remember them all.
I see. . .So that is how I was able to dance that night? Well it makes sense. Mother has always been strict with these pleasantries, she had me practice hard since I was little.
In addition to that, it feels like it helped in other places.
For example, why did Magnolia and Iris, who would have never known the past me, not feel uncomfortable? If a completely different person possesses your master or best friend, wouldn’t they act or seem strange. However if I was originally myself, that is a different story. For a young girl that has always had a bit of my past life, very little had changed.
I don’t think it’s necessary for me to even explain this to Cosmos-san.
But then I noticed something. I lost my memories of growing up as Shiran, but I also lost my love for Iris. I became friends with her again, and no matter how much I liked her, it was a strong platonic friendship. She was my best friend. With just my memories of Kayo Hinazuki, it seems that there were no romantic feelings towards her.
I understand. In this world, with the memories of my life I had as Shiran, I was firmly in love with Iris as a girl.
Those feelings weren’t influenced by my previous life, but because I grew up in this world with her, I now know.
By remembering the memories I had forgotten, the two emotions of friendship and love ignited in me. The accumulated love I had as Shiran, and the fierce friendship I made as Kayo. The feelings merged. . .It became one big emotion.
Ahh. I want to see Iris soon.
For that reason, I need to regain consciousness. I can’t stay in this pitch black world forever. I’m sure Cosmos is already worried.
In that moment of wishing, a light began to shine.
It’s time to wake up.
